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  Contents

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  An Excerpt from Troublemaker

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  About the Author

  By Linda Howard

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Chapter One

  SHE FOUND THE paper while she was sorting through the personal things in her father’s desk. Michelle Cabot unfolded the single sheet with casual curiosity, just as she had unfolded dozens of others, but she had read only a paragraph when her spine slowly straightened and a tremor began in her fingers. Stunned, she began again, her eyes widening with sick horror at what she read.

  Anybody but him. Dear God, anybody but him!

  She owed John Rafferty one hundred thousand dollars.

  Plus interest, of course. At what percent? She couldn’t read any further to find out; instead she dropped the paper onto the littered surface of the desk and sank back in her father’s battered old leather chair, her eyes closing against the nausea caused by shock, dread and the particularly sickening feeling of dying hope. She had already been on her knees; this unsuspected debt had smashed her flat.

  Why did it have to be John Rafferty? Why not some impersonal bank? The end result would be the same, of course, but the humiliation would be absent. The thought of facing him made her shrivel deep inside, where she protected the tender part of herself. If Rafferty ever even suspected that that tenderness existed, she was lost. A dead duck…or a sitting one, if it made any difference. A gone goose. A cooked goose. Whatever simile she used, it fit.

  Her hands were still shaking when she picked up the paper to read it again and work out the details of the financial agreement. John Rafferty had made a personal loan of one hundred thousand dollars to her father, Langley Cabot, at an interest rate two percent lower than the market rate…and the loan had been due four months ago. She felt even sicker. She knew it hadn’t been repaid, because she’d gone over every detail of her father’s books in an effort to salvage something from the financial disaster he’d been floundering in when he’d died. She had ruthlessly liquidated almost everything to pay the outstanding debts, everything except this ranch, which had been her father’s dream and had somehow come to represent a refuge to her. She hadn’t liked Florida ten years ago, when her father had sold their home and moved her from their well-ordered, monied existence in Connecticut to the heat and humidity of a cattle ranch in central Florida, but that had been a decade ago, and things changed. People changed, time changed…and time changed people. The ranch didn’t represent love or a dream to her; it was, simply, all she had left. Life had seemed so complicated once, but it was remarkable how simple things were when it came down to a matter of survival.

  Even now it was hard to just give up and let the inevitable happen. She had known from the beginning that it would be almost impossible for her to keep the ranch and put it back on a paying basis, but she’d been driven to at least try. She wouldn’t have been able to live with herself if she’d taken the easy way out and let the ranch go.

  Now she would have to sell the ranch, after all, or at least the cattle; there was no other way she could repay that hundred thousand dollars. The wonder was that Rafferty hadn’t already demanded repayment. But if she sold the cattle, what good was the ranch? She’d been depending on the cattle sales to keep her going, and without that income she’d have to sell the ranch anyway.

  It was so hard to think of letting the ranch go; she had almost begun to hope that she might be able to hold on to it. She’d been afraid to hope, had tried not to, but still, that little glimmer of optimism had begun growing. Now she’d failed at this, just as she’d failed at everything else in her life: as daughter, wife, and now rancher. Even if Rafferty gave her an extension on the loan, something she didn’t expect to happen, she had no real expectation of being able to pay it off when it came due again. The naked truth was that she had no expectations at all; she was merely hanging on.

  Well, she wouldn’t gain anything by putting it off. She had to talk to Rafferty, so it might as well be now. The clock on the wall said it wasn’t quite nine-thirty; Rafferty would still be up. She looked up his number and dialed it, and the usual reaction set in. Even before the first ring sounded, her fingers were locked so tightly around the receiver that her knuckles were white, and her heart had lurched into a fast, heavy pounding that made her feel as if she’d been running. Tension knotted her stomach. Oh, damn! She wouldn’t even be able to talk coherently if she didn’t get a grip on herself!

  The telephone was answered on the sixth ring, and by then Michelle had braced herself for the ordeal of talking to him. When the housekeeper said, “Rafferty residence,” Michelle’s voice was perfectly cool and even when she asked to speak to Rafferty.

  “I’m sorry, he isn’t in. May I take a message?”

  It was almost like a reprieve, if it hadn’t been for the knowledge that now she’d have to do it all over again. “Please have him call Michelle Cabot,” she said, and gave the housekeeper her number. Then she asked, “Do you expect him back soon?”

  There was only a slight hesitation before the housekeeper said, “No, I think he’ll be quite late, but I’ll give him your message first thing in the morning.”

  “Thank you,” Michelle murmured, and hung up. She should have expected him to be out. Rafferty was famous, or perhaps notorious was a better word, for his sexual appetite and escapades. If he’d quieted down over the years, it was only in his hell-raising. According to the gossip she’d heard from time to time, his libido was alive and well; a look from those hard, dark eyes still made a woman’s pulse go wild, and he looked at a lot of women, but Michelle wasn’t one of them. Hostility had exploded between them at their first meeting, ten years before, and at best their relationship was an armed standoff. Her father had been a buffer between them, but now he was dead, and she expected the worst. Rafferty didn’t do things by half measures.

  There was nothing she could do about the loan that night, and she’d lost her taste for sorting through the remainder of her father’s papers, so she decided to turn in. She took a quick shower; her sore muscles would have liked a longer one, but she was doing everything she could to keep her electricity bill down, and since she got her water from a well, and the water was pumped by an electric pump, small luxuries had to go to make way for the more important ones, like eating.

  But as tired as she was, when she was lying in bed she couldn’t go to sleep. The thought of talking to Rafferty filled her mind again, and once more her heartbeat speeded up. She tried to take deep, slow breaths. It had always been like this, and it was even worse when she had to see him face-to-face. If only he wasn’t so big! But he was six feet three inches and about two hundred pounds of muscled masculinity; he was good at dwarfing other people. Whenever he was close, Michelle felt threatened in some basic way, and even thinking of him made her feel suffocated. No other man in the world made her react the way he did; no one else could make her so angry, so wary—or so excited in a strange, primitive way.

  It had been that way from the beginning, from the moment she’d met him ten years before. She had been eighteen then, as spoiled as he’d accused her of being, and as haughty as only a teenager standing on her dignity could be. His reputation had preceded him, and Michelle had been determined to show him that she couldn’t be lumped with all the women who panted after him. As if h