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  “Just how ‘real’ did you have in mind?” he asked, amused.

  Again she was at a loss. “Well, how would I know? I just know that I’m attracted to you, and I’d like for you to be attracted to me, but I’ve never done this before, so you’re asking me to play a game without knowing the rules. Would you hand a football to some guy who’d never heard of the game before and say ‘Here you go, buddy. Play ball’?”

  His eyes danced at the astringency of her tone, but his voice was calm and grave when he replied, “I see your point.”

  “So?” She spread her hands inquiringly. “What are the rules? That is, if you don’t mind playing.”

  “Oh, I like a little game now and then.”

  He was drawling again. She gave him an uncertain glance, wondering if he was making fun of her.

  He put his hands on her hips and moved her a little farther back on the desk. Caroline grabbed his upper arms, her nails digging into his biceps. No one had ever touched her hips before, except for one eager beaver who had pinched her bottom and gotten shoved over a wastebasket for his effort. The steely muscles under her fingers made her doubt she would be able to shove Joe anywhere.

  He moved even closer and somehow used his hard thighs to spread her legs. She looked down in shock. He was between her legs. Her head jerked back up, but before she could say anything he brushed a light, gentle kiss across her mouth. The contrast between that non-threatening kiss and his very threatening position between her legs disoriented her.

  He cupped her face with one hand, slowly caressing her cheek, his fingertips moving lightly over the smooth, velvet texture of her skin. His other hand slipped around over her bottom and firmly pulled her forward until he was nestled intimately in the notch of her thighs. Caroline’s heart thumped violently, and she lost her breath, as well as her ability to sit upright. Her bones turned liquid and she sank against him, unintentionally deepening the embrace. The hard bulge of his sex throbbed against the soft yielding of her loins, and she felt an answering throbbing begin deep inside her.

  He kissed her again, this time with a slowly increasing demand. Helplessly she opened her mouth to the probing of his tongue. His hips moved against her, between her spread thighs, in the same rhythm as his tongue moved in her mouth. The hard bulge in his trousers was even harder, even bigger.

  Her senses were swimming, just as they had been the night before. His tongue probed deep into her mouth, stroking her own tongue and demanding a response. His taste was hot and heady, hiss kin smelling of soap and man. Her breasts were throbbing, and again the only relief seemed to be contact with his hard, muscled chest. It was all almost too much to bear, but the only alternative was to tear herself out of his arms, and she couldn’t make herself do that.

  She couldn’t, but he could. Somehow she found herself being gently freed and set away from him. She swayed, and he steadied her, his hard hands clasping her arms. She stared up at him a little wildly. Damn his control! Why couldn’t he feel even a little of the turmoil that enveloped her? He had gotten aroused, no doubt about that, but it hadn’t affected his control at all, while she was about to go up in flames.

  “The rules are simple,” he said calmly. “We have to let you get accustomed to touching and being touched, and find out what you like. We’ll take it slow, go a little bit further each time. I’ll pick you up at seven tonight.”

  He kissed her again and left as silently as he had entered the room. Caroline sat on the desk, trying to get control of her heart and lungs, trying to deal with the empty ache of her body. She was in trouble. She was in big trouble. She had started something she couldn’t handle, but she wouldn’t have called it off even if she thought she could, and she strongly suspected it was beyond her control anyway.

  Unless she was very much mistaken, Joe Mackenzie intended to have an affair with her. A full-fledged, get-naked, lovemaking affair. And she was willing; she was going into this with her eyes open, knowing full well that for him it was likely to be only an affair, while it would be much more to her. He would always be in control, the strong core of him always guarded and remote and uninvolved, while she was well on her way to losing her heart.

  Chapter 5

  The tests went well that day, which was a good thing, because Caroline was in a daze. Adrian made a snide remark to her when they were alone and she confounded him by giving him a vague smile. She was alarmed at her own lack of concentration. That had never been a problem before; her ability to concentrate was so strong that one professor in college had made the comment that she would be able to read during an earthquake, and he hadn’t been far off the mark.

  She would never have believed that a man could totally disrupt her thought processes, especially since he wasn’t paying her any particular attention. He didn’t have to, she realized. He had made his intention plain the day before, and he’d been seen kissing her good-night; as far as everyone on base was concerned, she was Colonel Mackenzie’s woman. He was the alpha male, and none of the other men would challenge him for his chosen mate. She was a little appalled at this demonstration of how little things had changed since prehistoric times, even though she had done her part by going along with him. Now there was food for thought. Had she gone along with him because his suggestion had made sense, or because he was the alpha male and she had felt subconsciously compelled to obey him?

  Nah. She had never felt compelled, subconsciously or otherwise, to obey anyone. She had gone along with him because he made her heartbeat go crazy, pure and simple, and it was useless to keep looking for extenuating circumstances with which to excuse herself.

  When they were back in the office going over the day’s test results and preparing for the next day’s flights, Cal rolled his chair over to hers. “So, how’d it go on the date with the boss man?”

  Despite herself, her hands immediately started trembling and she laid down the paper she had been trying to read. “Very casual, low-key. Why do you ask?”

  To her surprise, his friendly eyes were full of concern. “Well, I’ve never known you to date before, and I guess I just wanted to make sure he wasn’t twisting your arm. He is the head man on this project, and he has a lot of influence, not just with the base commander and the men here, but all the way to the Pentagon.”

  She was touched. “And you thought I might feel I had to go out with him to stay on the team?”

  “Something like that, yeah.”

  She patted his hand, smiling. “Thanks, but everything’s okay.”

  “Good. Adrian isn’t bothering you too much, is he?”

  “I haven’t paid any attention to him, so I guess he isn’t.”

  Cal smiled and rolled back to his own desk.

  Caroline checked the time. Three and a half hours until seven o’clock. She had always found her work engrossing, but along with her loss of concentration she had evidently become a clock-watcher, too. No one had ever warned her that associating with men was efficiency-destroying.

  For almost the first time in her life she stopped work when everyone else did. She hurried to her quarters, turned the air conditioner on high and jumped into the shower. It was only as she was stepping out of the stall that she realized she didn’t know where they were going or how she should dress.

  She stared at the telephone. She could call him. She didn’t know his number, but that wasn’t any problem, because the base operator would. It was the sensible thing to do. She was a big believer inbeing sensible, so she sat down on the bed and placed the call before she talked herself out of her own common sense. He answered on the first ring. “Mackenzie.”

  God, his voice sounded even deeper on the phone. She took a deep breath. “This is Caroline. Where are we going tonight?” There, that was just right. To the point, no silliness, a simple request for information.

  “Wear a skirt,” he replied maddeningly, cutting through her no-nonsense question to the reason behind it. “Something I can get my hands under.”

  The receiver clicked in h