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  He would have held her but she turned on him with a face of such fury that he recoiled. ‘Get away from me!’ she screamed at him. ‘D’you think I want to give it to you? D’you think I want to tear down this house which has been the joy of my life to build up?’

  ‘No …’ John stammered. ‘But Jane, I love you, I want to hold you …’

  ‘If I survive,’ she promised, her face softening, ‘then we will spend weeks in each other’s arms. I swear it, John. I love you. But if I die you are not even to touch me. You are to order them to bolt down the coffin and not even to look at me.’

  ‘I can’t bear it!’ he cried suddenly. ‘This can’t happen to us!’

  Jane opened the door and called down the stairs. ‘Sally! Make up a bed for me in the orangery, and put all my clothes in there.’

  ‘If I take it, I will join you,’ John said. ‘And we will be together then.’

  She turned her determined face to him. ‘You will not take it,’ she said passionately. ‘You will live to care for Baby John, and for Frances, and for the trees and the gardens. Even if I die there is still Baby John to carry your name, and the trees and the gardens.’

  ‘Jane –’ It was a low cry, like a hurt animal’s.

  She did not soften for a moment. ‘Keep my children from me,’ she ordered harshly. ‘If you love me at all. Keep them from me.’

  And she turned, gathered up all the clothes she had brought from the city, went down the stairs into the new-built orangery, lay down on the pallet bed which the maid had thrown on the floor, and looked up to where the warm summer moonlight poured in the little window in the wooden wall, and wondered if she would die.

  On the fourth day Jane found swollen lumps under her arms, and she could not remember where she was. She had a lucid interval at midday and when John came to speak to her from the doorway, behind the wall of candleflame, she told him to put a lock on the door so that she could not come out looking for Baby John, when she was out of her mind with the fever.

  On the fifth day a message came from her mother to say that one of the apprentices had taken the plague and that Jane should burn everything she had worn or brought from her visit. They sent back the messenger with the news that the warning came too late, that already there was a white cross on the front door, and a warden standing outside to make sure that no-one left the house to spread the plague in Lambeth. All the goods and groceries, and even the new rarities, were left on the little bridge which led from the road to the house, and all the money was left in a bowl of vinegar, to wash the coins clean. No-one would go near the Tradescants’ door until they were all recovered or dead. The parish wardens were legally bound to make sure that any plague victims were isolated in their houses until they were proven to be dead or proven to be clean, and no-one – not even the Tradescants with their fine business and their royal connections – could escape the ruling.

  On the sixth day of her illness Jane did not tap on the door to have it unlocked in the morning. When John opened it and looked in, she was lying on the bed, her hair tumbled all over her pillow, her face thin and ghastly. When she saw him peering in she tried to smile, but her lips were too cracked and sore from fever.

  ‘Pray for me,’ she said. ‘And don’t take the plague, John. Keep Baby John safe. Is he still well?’

  ‘He’s well,’ John said. He did not tell her that her little son was crying and crying for her.

  ‘And Frances?’

  ‘No signs of it.’

  ‘And you, and Father?’

  ‘No-one in the house seems to have it. But they have it in Lambeth. We’re not the only house with a white cross on the door. It’s going to be a bad year, this year.’

  ‘Did I bring it?’ she asked painfully. ‘Did I bring the plague to Lambeth? Did it follow me over the river?’

  ‘It was here before you came home,’ he reassured her. ‘Don’t blame yourself for it. Someone had it and tried to conceal it. It has been here for weeks and no-one knew.’

  ‘God help them,’ she whispered. ‘God help me. Bury me deep, John. And pray for my soul.’

  Impulsively, he stepped over the candles and came into the room. At once she reared up in her bed. ‘Do you want me to die in despair?’ she demanded.

  He checked and walked backwards, as if she were the queen herself. ‘I want to hold you,’ he said pitifully. ‘I want to hold you, Jane, I want to hold you to my heart.’

  For a moment her gaunt strained face, lit by the dozen golden candleflames, was suddenly soft and young, as it had been when she had sold him inch after inch of ribbons in the mercer’s shop and he had called again and again on one pretext after another.

  ‘Hold me in your heart,’ she whispered. ‘And care for my children.’

  She lay back on the pillows as John stepped over the wall of candleflames and hunkered down on the threshold.

  ‘I shall stay here,’ he said determinedly.

  ‘All right,’ she agreed. ‘Have you a pomander?’

  ‘A pomander, and I am sitting in a sea of strewing herbs,’ John said.

  ‘Stay then,’ she said. ‘I don’t want to die alone. But if I am feverish and wandering and start to come to you, you must slam the door in my face and lock it.’

  He looked at her through the haze of the heat of the candles, and his face was nearly as haggard as her own. ‘I can’t do that,’ he said. ‘I won’t be able to do that.’

  ‘Promise me,’ she demanded. ‘It’s the last thing I will ever ask of you.’

  He closed his eyes for a moment, to find his resolution. ‘I promise,’ he said eventually. ‘I will not touch you, I will come no closer. But I will be here for you. Just outside the door.’

  ‘That’s what I want,’ she said.

  At midnight Jane grew feverish and tossed on the pillow and cried out against heretics and Popery and the Devil and the queen. At three in the morning she grew quiet and he could see her shivering, and yet he could not go in and put a shawl around her shoulders. At four she grew quiet and at peace, and at five she suddenly said, as simply as a child: ‘Goodnight, my dear,’ and fell asleep.

  When dawn came and the sun rose warm on the apple blossoms at six, she did not wake.

  Summer 1635

  There was a brief unhappy argument about how Jane was to be buried. The parish authorities, responsible for the impossible task of trying to contain the plague, sent an order that the cart would come for her at midnight and her body was to be loaded on it by her family, who must then lock themselves indoors for another week until they were proved to be free of the disease.

  ‘I won’t do it,’ J said briefly to his father. ‘I won’t send her into the plague pit in a sack of hessian. They can order all they like. They’re not going to come in the house to fetch her, they’re too afraid for their own skins.’

  John hesitated, thinking to argue.

  ‘I won’t,’ J said fiercely. ‘She’s to be buried with honour.’

  John spoke to the church warden, who kept a careful distance on the other side of the little bridge that spanned the roadside ditch. The man was reluctant, but John was persuasive. A small heavy purse was tossed from one side to the other and the next day a lead-lined coffin was delivered to the bridge. A week later, when the Tradescant family and servants were thought to be safe to go out again, the funeral was planned. Jane’s cause of death would not be entered as plague but as the more neutral word ‘fever’, and she would be buried, as J insisted, in the family plot.

  The Hurtes came to Lambeth from the city, with their own midwife to lay her out. She was an ancient woman, her face pocked with the scars of old plague sores. She said that she had taken the disease when she was a girl and had survived it, that the Lord of Hosts had saved her for the godly work of laying out the wealthy dead and nursing the few survivors.

  ‘But why should He save you and not Jane?’ J asked simply, and left her to the task of putting Jane in her special lead-lined coffin.

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