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  I won’t leave Shrewsbury until I am safe with my own army. I dare not. He has been my only friend in England, I have seen no other man that I can trust. And he has never been anything but kind to me. He has never been anything but honourable. A woman with a man like this at her side would be safe. God knows how much I long to be safe.

  Westmorland has sworn to me he will come wherever I am. Only if they take the road to London and to the Tower must I make my escape. If Elizabeth, in her fear, tries to put me in the dungeon where she herself waited for her death sentence, I must get away.

  I don’t need to resist them, for while this war is waging, it does not matter where they take me. The lords will demand my freedom as part of their settlement with Elizabeth, wherever I am hidden. They will demand the right to our religion, and the right to my freedom, and with the North up in arms she will be forced to agree. The North has always been another kingdom, Elizabeth’s rule has never run north of the Trent. No Tudor has ever ventured further than York. If the Northerners defy her she will have to make an agreement with them, whatever her preferences.

  Beyond all this is a greater plan, an ambitious plan that I do not sanction. I dare not sanction it. I will not make war against a queen on her throne. But of course they all think that if a battle is joined, and it goes their way, then they can march on London. They can take me to the very throne of England itself. This is what Philip of Spain and his ambassador want. This is why his banker Roberto Ridolfi has paid over a fortune in Spanish gold. To put me not only on the throne of Scotland, but of England too. This is nothing more than my right. Elizabeth is a disowned bastard of the late King Henry, I am the granddaughter of his sister. I am the true heir and I should have the throne. I was raised to claim it as my own. They call it the ‘great enterprise of England’ and they swear it can be done. If the people of England rise to defend their faith shall they consent to a settlement that leaves a heretic on the throne to rule them? What is the point of rising against Elizabeth unless we throw her down forever? The people of England want a queen of their faith, one pledged to tolerance and fairness who will restore the church and the old ways of England.

  This is not my plan, I do not plot treason. I would never encourage rebellion against an anointed queen, however badly she has betrayed me, however false her claim. But I have lived long enough to know that all things are decided by God. When the tide is running strongly it will carry all the boats. If God gives us a great victory and the army of the North rides on to take London, then it is God who gives me the throne of England and I would be an ungrateful daughter to refuse it.

  I think of Elizabeth, flying to Windsor Castle with double guards posted at the gates, the trained bands of London called to arms, scrambling to find their weapons, scouts racing up the North road, terrified that at any moment the army of the North will come marching south and demand her exile or her death, and I find myself hard-pressed not to laugh aloud at the thought of her fear.

  Now she knows how it feels when your people turn against you. Now she knows the terror that I felt when I heard that they would dare to wage war against their own anointed queen. She let my people rise up against me, without punishment. She let them know that they could rebel against me, their God-given ruler, and throw me from my throne; and now the people rise against her, and if they throw her down who shall save her? She should have thought of that before now! I bet she is shaking in her shoes, looking out of her window at the river, straining her eyes for the first sign of the sails of the Spanish ships. She is prone to fear, by now she will be sick with terror. The French are sworn to support me, the Spanish are my loyal friends. The Holy Father himself prays for me by name and says I should be restored. But Elizabeth? Who is Elizabeth’s friend? A rabble of Huguenots in France, a couple of German princes, who else? None! She is alone. And now she is facing her own countrymen, alone.

  I do everything I am bidden, packing my clothes, boxing my books and my jewels, giving my new tapestry to Mary to carry for me, and running down the stone stairs to the stable yard with the bell tolling out a warning, the maids screaming and the dogs barking.

  It is raining, a fine cold drizzle, which will mean the roads will churn into mud under our horses’ hooves and travel will be painfully slow. The soldiers are pale-faced in the dawn light, fearing the powder for their pistols will be damp and they will have to face the horsemen of the North without weapons. Everyone but me looks half-sick with terror.

  Anthony Babington, Bess’s sweetest young page, comes to me as I am getting into my saddle and whispers to me the code word that tells me I can trust him. ‘Sunflower.’

  It is the impresa of my girlhood, my chosen badge, the sunflower which turns to light and warmth and hope. ‘Send a message to them if you can, to tell them where I am going,’ I whisper to him, hardly looking at him, as he tightens the girth on my horse, and straightens the reins for me. ‘I don’t know where they are taking me. South, somewhere.’

  His honest boy’s face beams up at me. Bless the child. His brown eyes are filled with adoration. ‘But I know,’ he says joyfully. ‘I heard my lord talking. Coventry. I will tell them.’

  ‘But you take care,’ I warn him. ‘Take no risks. You are too young to put your head in a noose.’

  He flushes. ‘I am eight,’ he says stoutly, as if it were a great age. ‘And I have been in service since I was six.’

  ‘You are a young man of courage,’ I say to him, and see his boyish flush.

  All the way along the road, as we ride as fast as we dare in the grey light of a wintry dawn, I see the men looking to the left and to the right, listening for the sound of drums and pipes, fearfully alert for the great army of the men of the North. They fear that they will round a bend in the road and find a wall of men, waiting to take me. They fear that even now their horsemen are closing on us, coming up on us from the rear, gaining on us however fast we ride. They know that coming down the road behind us are men who have sworn to restore the true religion and the true queen, an army on the march under the very banner of Christ, in His very name, riding to revenge sacrilege against their church, treason against their queen, sin against their country’s history. My captors know they are in the wrong, know they are outnumbered and defeated before they start. They march at speed, almost at a run, their heads down and their faces grey; they are men in abject terror.

  Agnes and Mary and I ride three abreast in silence, a secret smile passing between us from time to time, hard put not to laugh out loud. I look ahead and there is poor Shrewsbury, his face stony with worry, his eyes raking the horizon. Beside him rides my lord Hastings, his face grim, a sword at his side, an assassin’s dagger hidden in his coat. He will not enjoy the experience of running before a greater force, he will hate the stink of panic that his men give off as they hurry along the road.

  Bustling behind us, left far behind as usual, is the redoubtable countess Bess, organising stores to follow us, no doubt sending messengers to London for news, desperate to end up on the right side, desperate to know what the right side will be. I shan’t have her in my household whatever side she decides to turn her coat. I don’t forget she would have handed me over to Hastings. I don’t forget she fears that I want her husband. I so despise a jealous wife and I have spent my life hounded by the fears of less beautiful women.

  She was in the courtyard as we scrambled into the saddle, she was at my side as her husband lifted me up to my horse, trust her not to give us a moment together. She was there even before the pageboy Babington. She took my hand and raised her strained face to me. ‘I swear you will be safe,’ she promised quietly. ‘If you are in danger I will come to you and set you free. If Cecil sends word that you are to be taken to the Tower, I shall get you safely away. I am on your side. I have always been on your side.’

  I did not let her see my leap of joy. Non, vraiment! Of course, I have no expectation of her saving me, she is such a liar! This promise is nothing but her desperate bid to hold both sides at once. But w