The Jodi Picoult Collection #3 Read online

  The Yupiit also had a word for the moments when it was so cold that a mug of water thrown into the air would harden like glass before it ever hit the frozen ground: cikuq’erluni. One wrong move, Daniel thought, and everything will go to pieces around me. So he closed his eyes, gunned the machine, and let instinct take over. Almost immediately, the voices of elders he used to know came back to him—spruce needles stick out sharper on the north side of trees; shallow sandbars make the ice buckle—hints about how to find yourself, when the world changed around you.

  He suddenly thought back to the way, at Faneuil Hall, Trixie had melted against him when they were reunited. Her chin had notched just behind his shoulder, her body went boneless with faith. In spite of what he’d done, she’d still trusted him to keep her safe, to bring her home. In hindsight, Daniel could see that the real mistake he’d made that day hadn’t been turning his back momentarily. It had been believing that you could lose someone you loved in an instant, when in reality it was a process that took months, years, her lifetime.

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  It was the kind of cold that made your eyelashes freeze the minute you walked outside and the insides of your nostrils feel like shattered glass. It was the kind of cold that went through you as if you were no more than a mesh screen. Trixie Stone shivered on the frozen riverbank beneath the school building that was checkpoint headquarters in Tuluksak, sixty miles from the spot where her father’s borrowed snow machine was carving a signature across the tundra, and tried to think up reasons to stay right where she was.

  Unfortunately, there were more reasons—better reasons—to leave. First and foremost, it was a mistake to stay in one place too long. Second, sooner or later, people were going to figure out that she wasn’t who they thought she was, especially if she kept screwing up every task they gave her. But then again, how was she supposed to know that all the mushers were entitled to complimentary straw for their sled dogs at several points during the K300 racecourse, including here in Tuluksak? Or that you could take a musher to the spot where food and water was stored . . . but you weren’t allowed to help feed the dogs? After those two fiascos, Trixie was demoted to babysitting the dogs that were dropped from a team, until the bush pilots arrived to transport them back to Bethel.

  So far the only dropped dog was a husky named Juno. Frostbite—that was the official reason given by the musher. The dog had one brown eye and one blue eye, and he stared at Trixie with an expression that spoke of being misunderstood.

  In the past hour, Trixie had managed to sneak Juno an extra handful of kibble and a couple of biscuits, stolen from the vet’s supply. She wondered if she could buy Juno from the musher with some of the money left over in the stolen wallet. She thought maybe it would be easier to keep running if she had someone else to confide in, someone who couldn’t possibly tell on her.

  She wondered what Zephyr and Moss and anyone else back home in the other Bethel—Bethel, Maine—would say if they saw her sitting in a snowbank and eating salmon jerky and listening for the crazy fugue of barking that preceded the arrival of a dog team. Probably, they would think she had lost her mind. They’d say, Who are you, and what have you done with Trixie Stone? The thing is, she wanted to ask the same question.

  She wanted to crawl into her favorite flannel pajamas, the ones that had been washed so often they were as soft as the skin of a rose. She wanted to open up the refrigerator and not be able to find anything on its stocked shelves worth eating. She wanted to get sick of a song on the radio and smell her father’s shampoo and trip over the curly edge of the rug in the hallway. She wanted to go back—not just to Maine, but to early September.

  Trixie could feel tears rising in her throat like the watermarks on the Portland dock, and she was afraid someone would notice. So she lay down on the matted straw, her nose nearly touching Juno’s. “You know,” she whispered, “I got left behind once, too.”

  Her father didn’t think she remembered what had happened that day in Faneuil Hall, but she did—bits and pieces cropped up at the strangest times. Like when they went to the beach in the summer and she smelled the ocean: It suddenly got harder to breathe. Or how at hockey games and movie theaters and other places where she got mixed up in a crowd, she sometimes felt sick to her stomach. Trixie remembered, too, that they had abandoned the stroller at Faneuil Hall—her father simply carried her back in his arms. Even after they returned from vacation and bought a new stroller, Trixie had refused to ride in it.

  Here’s what she didn’t remember about that day: the getting-lost part. Trixie could not recall unbuckling the safety harness or pushing through the shifting sea of legs to the doors that led outside. Then, she saw the man who looked like he might be her father but who actually turned out to be a statue sitting down. Trixie had walked to the bench and climbed up beside him only to realize that his metal skin was warm, because the sun had been beating down on it all day. She’d curled up against the statue, wishing with every shaky breath that she would be found.

  This time around, that’s what scared her most.

  1

  Laura Stone knew exactly how to go to hell.

  She could map out its geography on napkins at departmental cocktail parties; she was able to recite all of the passageways and rivers and folds by heart; she was on a first-name basis with its sinners. As one of the top Dante scholars in the country, she taught a course in this very subject and had done so every year since being tenured at Monroe College. English 364 was also listed in the course handbook as Burn Baby Burn (or: What the Devil is the Inferno?), and it was one of the most popular courses on campus in the second trimester even though Dante’s epic poem the Divine Comedy wasn’t funny at all. Like her husband Daniel’s artwork, which was neither comic nor a book, the Inferno covered every genre of pop culture: romance, horror, mystery, crime. And like all of the best stories, it had at its center an ordinary, everyday hero who simply didn’t know how he’d ever become one.

  She stared at the students packing the rows in the utterly silent lecture hall. “Don’t move,” she instructed. “Not even a twitch.” Beside her, on the podium, an egg timer ticked away one full minute. She hid a smile as she watched the undergrads, all of whom suddenly had gotten the urge to sneeze or scratch their heads or wriggle.

  Of the three parts of Dante’s masterpiece, the Inferno was Laura’s favorite to teach—who better to think about the nature of actions and their consequences than teenagers? The story was simple: Over the course of three days—Good Friday to Easter Sunday—Dante trekked through the nine levels of hell, each filled with sinners worse than the next, until finally he came through the other side. The poem was full of ranting and weeping and demons, of fighting lovers and traitors eating the brains of their victims—in other words, graphic enough to hold the interest of today’s college students . . . and to provide a distraction from her real life.

  The egg timer buzzed, and the entire class exhaled in unison. “Well?” Laura asked. “How did that feel?”

  “Endless,” a student called out.

  “Anyone want to guess how long I timed you for?”

  There was speculation: Two minutes. Five.

  “Try sixty seconds,” Laura said. “Now imagine being frozen from the waist down in a lake of ice for eternity. Imagine that the slightest movement would freeze the tears on your face and the water surrounding you. God, according to Dante, was all about motion and energy, so the ultimate punishment for Lucifer is to not be able to move at all. At the very bottom of hell, there’s no fire, no brimstone, just the utter inability to take action.” She cast her gaze across the sea of faces. “Is Dante right? After all, this is the very bottom of the barrel of hell, and the devil’s the worst of the lot. Is taking away your ability to do whatever you want, whenever you want, the very worst punishment you can imagine?”

  And that, in a nutshell, was why Laura loved Dante’s Inferno. Sure, it could be seen as a study of religion or politics. Certainly it was a narrative of redemption. B