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  Surely he wasn’t leaving after last night. They had made sweet burning love, he had whispered how much he had missed her, and how he was never going to leave. He told her everything she had wanted to hear, playing with her heart strings. So why was he in a rush getting ready?

  “What are you doing?” she finally asked.

  Levi glanced up, then back down at the white button up shirt he was buttoning. “Janet has called like 10 times, I think she knows I went home with someone which sucks ‘cause now I’m going to have to listen to her bitch all day.”

  Whoa, say what?

  “Excuse me?” she croaked out as her pulse kicked up a notch.

  Levi glanced over at her and when his eyes met hers, a condescending smile went across his gorgeous mouth. “Oh come on, A, you really didn’t think this was a start to something again, did you?”

  The air rushed out of her as Levi shook his head and started moving around the room. She moved off the bed, grabbing her dress from the night before and sliding it on. Her hands shook, uncontrollably, as she zipped up, turning to face Levi. Her heart was beating so hard that she felt like her chest was vibrating. She didn’t want to fight with him, she wanted to go back to bed, and cuddle. But he had taken that fantasy away from her. He was still with someone.

  Audrey took in a shuddering breath before saying, “You slept with me, and you’re still with someone?”

  Levi rolled his eyes as he tucked his keys in his pocket, “Yeah, so?”

  “Oh my God,” Audrey said, her hands coming up to her stomach. She felt like she was going to puke. Again, she believed his lies, his sweet words. AGAIN! It was disgusting. What the fuck was wrong with her?! Why did she always trust him! “You said you missed me!”

  “I do, I miss fucking you but I don’t want you.”

  “You asshole!” Audrey screamed, her heart breaking all over again while not affecting him at all.

  “You’re killing me here, A, when are you ever going to figure it out? I don’t want to be with you.” Audrey glanced up to see him as he reached the door. He turned and pinned her with a distant look, “I just want to fuck you. See ya around, Cupcake.”

  Audrey took in shuddering breaths as she listened to Levi run down the stairs. When she heard the front door slam, she fell to the floor, holding her knees close to her chest.

  I just want to fuck you.

  How many times had she heard that? Even with knowing the outcome of their reunion, how could she let this happen? Why did she always do this to herself? Why couldn’t she see through his lines and lies? Or any man’s lines? As the questions swam in her head, she sat staring at the dark mole that was on her knee. Slowly her vision started to cloud with tears, and when they started to fall, she popped up and ran to the bathroom. She didn’t want to feel the tears rolling down her cheeks, it would make everything worse.

  Audrey jumped in the shower, not caring about the beautiful dress that her sister picked out. She turned the water on the hottest setting, filling the shower with steam. The dress started to hurt against her skin and she started to tear it off, destroying it. The pain coursed across her skin, she didn’t know if it was from the water or from Levi.

  She felt dirty, disgusting.

  Grabbing her loofa, she started to scrub her body, crying as the roughness and the heat of the water continued to burn her skin. She welcomed the pain, though. With every swipe of the loofa, she didn’t feel as dirty. She needed to get the smell of Levi off her! She couldn’t take it. Never had she felt like such a cheap piece of ass. Not even when she woke up beside Tate, did she feel this dirty. No, only Levi could do this to her.

  When she finally felt clean, she dropped to her bottom, pulling her knees up under her chin, as the sobs started to rip out of her. She was basically screaming as she cried. She felt like the biggest whore this side of the Red River. So nasty that not even a dog would lick her face. She had never felt like such a failure, well, other than when she had the abortion but that was years ago. She had always thought highly of herself. Knowing that one day everything would work out. But at that moment, she didn’t feel like things were ever going to get better.

  How did she keep getting herself in these kinds of messes? She should have known that Levi didn’t want anything with her, he hadn’t before so what made her think he had now? Was it the hope that maybe he had missed her, that maybe this time she was good enough? What made Janet better than her? Audrey was beautiful, funny, peppy, and damn it, she was freaking amazing! Why wasn’t she good enough for him? Why didn’t he love her!

  As she rocked back and forth, her body becoming numb, Audrey still couldn’t figure out what she had done wrong. Part of her knew she never would, either. The other part, like her heart, needed to accept it and move on, but it was hard. And at that moment, crying at the bottom of her bathtub seemed like a good idea. All she needed was her neighbor to start playing his piano and everything would be better. When Audrey remembered that the piano playing would be by Tate, a new round of tears rushed along her cheeks. She had fucked that up too.

  God, she was such a winner.

  Audrey stayed in the bath until the water ran cold. When she couldn’t take it any more, she turned the water off and climbed out, wrapping a towel around her splotchy red body. She felt better, a good cry and hot shower usually helped her cope with the pain. Her head still wasn’t right, but really she probably never would be. Not until she learned that she wasn’t the one messed up, it was actually the idiots she continued to date.

  As she made her way back into her bedroom, she wrapped her head with a towel to dry her hair. It was early but she needed to get up and get going. Nora, her mother, would be coming by that afternoon with Aiden. He was staying the week with her while Fallon and Lucas were in Goa. Even in her state of depression, she was still excited for the week. They had a lot planned and being with Aiden would take her mind off dickhead.

  Audrey went to her drawer and pulled out shorts, a tee, and underwear throwing them over her shoulder onto the bed. When she turned from the drawer, she came to a halt in front of her bed. The sheets were tousled and stray pillows lay on the floor with her panties and bra from the night before. As she stared down at the bed she and Levi had had sex in, her eyes filled with tears as her heart started to beat in overdrive. She reached for her underwear and went through the motion of putting on her clothes as her body started to shake. Then without thinking, she ripped the sheets off the bed throwing them out the opened door into the hall. One by one the pillows joined them before she ran to the hall, picked up everything and ran down the stairs. It surprised her that she didn’t fall on her face when she did this. The next thing she knew she was throwing the sheets and pillows out on the front lawn.

  Audrey turned again and ran back up the stairs. She then reached for the mattress, pulling it off her bed. Again, she was surprised she got the king size mattress down the stairs, only knocking off picture frames from the walls and slightly twisting her ankle. She was pretty amazing when she was dead set on doing something. As she pulled the mattress through her living room, she knocked over a bookcase and two end tables before she got it out the door. When she laid that on top of her sheets, she clapped her hands before running back inside to grab anything that reminded her of Levi.

  One by one, picture frames flew out the door, hitting the mattress with so much force, that when they landed, they bounced off and broke.

  It was so invigorating!!

  She found anything and everything that reminded her of him. All their favorite shows, DVDs, their favorite snacks from the kitchen, their favorite blanket. It all had to go! She stood in front of her pile of Levi, breathing hard, as she thought about anything else that could be in the house. When she remembered the old Xbox that sat in the closet, she ran inside and grabbed it before going back out and throwing it in the pile. Still breathing hard, her body covered in sweat, she ran her hand through her wet hair as the tears welled up in her eyes.

  Stupid asshole.