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  legs."

  I choke back a laugh. "You're the filthiest man I've ever met."

  "Filthiest and sexiest," he corrects me. "Say you like it."

  "I. . ." Do I like it? "Maybe."

  He raises his eyebrows. "You sure about that?"

  My cheeks flush warm. "It feels. . . dirty."

  "And?"

  "I think I might like it."

  He makes a rumbling sound low in his throat. "You're not what I expected."

  "You're exactly what I expected."

  "I'm going to take that as a compliment." He pulls my skirt down where it belongs, and takes my chin in his hand, his rough thumb rubbing my lower lip softly. I'd never have guessed these rough, calloused hands could feel so gentle.

  "You're still not hired, though."

  Killian snorts. "Thanks for the clarification. Does this mean I can take you someplace other than the bakery?"

  I inhale sharply, panic rising in my chest. "What, like a date? Out in public?"

  No. No. No. I'm not ready to date. Holy shit, what would I even say to Chloe?

  Killian's brow furrows and a dark look crosses his face. "What, you don't want to be seen in public with me?"

  "I don't – I didn’t expect you to ask me out. I mean, rumors fly around this town so quickly and I have Chloe and you're not exactly I mean, why do you want to get involved with someone with a kid?” I stop myself before I say anything else because I think I already hurt his feelings. I'm floundering, drowning in my own words.

  "Yeah, don't worry about it." There's an edge to Killian's voice that's unmistakable. "I'll just come by the store and we'll screw in the office and maybe in the alley behind the store. That's what you want, yeah?"

  "Shit. No, that's not what I meant at all, Killian "

  It's too late. He opens the door, looking over his shoulder at me. "Later."

  Not later, cupcake. Just later.

  Then he walks out, leaving me standing there. I no longer feel filthy in a sexy way. I just feel dirty for making him think there was something wrong with him.

  But he's not exactly boyfriend material. Right? He's gruff and crude and he's a twenty-or thirty-something oh, God, I don't even know how old he is bachelor. Everything about him is wrong. He has to know that.

  I don't know the first thing about dating. Not grown-up dating anyway. Adam and I dated our senior year in high school, but that was more like groping in the backseat of his car and making out under the bleachers at the football field. We were stupid enough to marry each other down at City Hall the minute we were both eighteen years old.

  I have no idea how to date.

  Obviously, judging by Killian's reaction to my response, I already suck at it.

  21

  Killian

  I walk out of Lily's bakery and make the drive back to the cabin, practically fuming. I don't know why I'm so irritated. I wasn't even asking her out on a date. I really just wanted to take her to the cabin. I wanted to bring her to my bed. But then she said that shit about going out in public with me, and it got under my skin.

  Like she would be ashamed to be seen in public with someone like me.

  Her words set off every feeling that I was familiar with as a kid growing up here in West Bend shame and embarrassment that I was who I was, one of the Saint boys. After that, as an adult, let's just say that no one was taking me home to meet her parents.

  She's making it clear that she's slumming it with someone like me. I can put my mouth on hers, put my tongue in her pussy, but she doesn't want me anywhere else.

  I grumble as I start building the frame for a back deck on the house. The whole damn house will be surrounded by decks at this rate.

  I'm still on edge the next day. Even a morning of manual labor fails to take it out of me. Then Silas shows up out of the blue, the absolute last person in the world I want to see.

  "The cabin's looking good." He stands in the dirt driveway with his hands half tucked into the pockets of his jeans.

  "I'm building a deck."

  Silas nods. "Looks good," he repeats awkwardly.

  I exhale heavily. I'm ready for this bullshit with Elias and Silas to be over. "You want a beer?"

  Silas sits in Jack's rocking chair and I hand him a cool bottle, sipping my beer and leaning up against the deck railing. Beads of condensation collect on the glass immediately in the sun, running down the sides. I take a drag from the bottle and look at Silas. "You drove a long way up here."

  "Elias and I were talking after the dinner at his and River's place the other night, and I got to thinking."

  "Yeah?"

  "I know you wouldn't have left in the middle of all that shit unless it was something important."

  I nod and let out a long breath. "I left a friend to come back here after mom died."

  A look flits across Silas's face and I know exactly what he's thinking.

  "Not a girl," I clarify.

  "I didn't say anything."

  "I could see it in your eyes. I wouldn't have taken off in the middle of all that for a piece of ass, alright?"

  "You don't have to be so damn sensitive," Silas says.

  "You're going to feel what 'sensitive' is like when I punch you in the balls."

  Silas chuckles, sipping on his beer. He kicks back in the rocking chair. "It's a nice place you got up here."

  "It's quiet."

  "No brothers around to bug the shit out of you," he teases.

  "Exactly," I agree. "Quiet."

  "Luke's going to propose to Autumn."

  "So I hear."

  "There's this girl Tempest knows. . ." Silas starts.

  I groan. "Is that why you came up here? To set me up with some chick?"

  Silas shrugs. "Tempest insisted this girl was your type."

  "What the fuck is my type?"

  "That's what I said! Everyone knows you're too much of an asshole to be set up with some girl. Can you imagine? One growl from you and she'd go running."

  "What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

  "Nothing," Silas says. "You're just. . . well, you're you."

  "Did you come up here to make peace or start some new shit with me?" I growl. What is with people? I'm too much of an asshole to be set up with some girl?

  "I told Tempest I'd mention it while I was here."

  "Consider it mentioned."

  Silas is silent for a minute, taking a drag from his beer while I mentally congratulate myself for not punching him. First Lily, and now Silas? I'm not that much of an asshole.

  "Luke said you were working," Silas says.

  "Nope."

  "At that cupcake place." Silas gets a self-satisfied look on his face, almost like he's going to crack a smile.

  "Shit, you really don't know when to stop, do you?" I ask. "No wonder your smart mouth gets you into so many fights."

  Silas grins, obviously pleased with himself. "Tempest likes you, you know. She said that underneath that brooding exterior, she thinks you're sweet."

  "Sweet."

  "Her words, not mine." Silas looks smug.

  "Why the hell are you guys talking about me?"

  "Because of the friend. She said she thought you were sweet and I said I thought you were a misanthropic asshole."

  I laugh, more of a cough. "Thanks for sticking up for me."

  "What are brothers for?" Silas asks, still grinning.

  We're both silent for a while, the only noise out here being the birds and the rustling of leaves in the woods. Finally I speak. "I left Texas to come back here when mom passed," I explain. "I left a good friend in the hospital."

  Silas nods. "Is your friend alright?"

  "He died. That's why I went back when I did. Thought I could make it back before he passed, but he was gone."

  "Shit, man." Silas takes a drag on his beer. "I didn't know."

  I sip mine again. "Well, now you do."

  Silas nods, kicking back in his chair again. "You did all the work on this yourself, huh?"