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  This is a hard sentence for me. I am a young woman of only twenty-five. I have done nothing wrong. And yet I shall be alone forever: undesirable, lonely and in exile. Truly, when a King is a god to himself and follows his own desires, the suffering falls on others.

  Katherine, Norfolk House, Lambeth, 12 July 1540

  It is done. It took all of six days. Six days. The king has rid himself of his queen, his lawfully wedded queen, so that he can now marry me. My grandmother says I should prepare myself for the greatest position in the land and consider what ladies I shall choose to serve me, and who I shall favour with the places and fees at my disposal. Clearly, my Howard relations must come first. My uncle says that I must remember to take his advice in all things and not be a stupid jade like my cousin Anne. And I must remember what happened to her! As if I am likely to forget.

  I have looked sideways under my eyelashes at the king, and smiled at him, curtseyed bending forwards so that he can see my breasts, and worn my hood back so he can see my face. Now everything has gone faster than I could have imagined, everything is happening too fast. Everything is happening whether I want it or not.

  I am to be married to King Henry of England. Queen Anne has been put aside. Nothing can save her, nothing can stop the king, nothing can save me – oh, I shouldn’t have said that. I should have said: nothing can prevent my happiness. That is what I meant to say. Nothing can prevent my happiness. He calls me his rose. He calls me his rose without a thorn. Whenever he says it, I think it is just the sort of pet-name that a man might give to his daughter. Not a lover’s name. Not a lover’s name at all.

  Anne, Richmond Palace, 13 July 1540

  And so it is over. Unbelievably, it is over. I have put my name to the agreement that says I was pre-contracted and not free to marry. I have agreed that my marriage should be annulled and suddenly it is no more. Just like that. This is what it is to be married to the voice of God when He speaks against you. God warns Henry that I am pre-contracted. Henry warns his council. Then the marriage is no more, though he swore to be my husband and came to my bed and tried – how hard did he try! – to consummate the marriage. But it turns out it was God preventing his success (not witchcraft but the hand of God), and so Henry says it will not be.

  I write to my brother at the king’s command and tell him that I am no longer married and that I have consented to my change of state. Then, the king is not satisfied by my letter and I am ordered to write it again. If he wants, I will write it a dozen times. If my brother had protected me as he should have done, as my father would have wanted him to do, this could never have happened. But he is a spiteful man and a poor kinsman, he is a bad brother to me; and I have been unprotected since the death of my father. My brother’s ambition made him use me, his spite let me fall. He would not have let his horse go to such a buyer as Henry of England, and be broken so.

  The king has commanded me to return his wedding ring to him. I obey him in this as I do in all things. I write a letter to go with it. I tell him that here is the ring he gave to me and that I hope he will have it broken into pieces for it is a thing which has no force or value. He will not hear my anger and my disappointment in these words for he does not know me nor think of me. But I am both angry and disappointed and he can have his wedding ring, and his wedding vows, and he can have his belief that God speaks to him, for they are all part of the same thing: a chimera, a thing which has no force or value.

  And so it is over.

  And so it begins for little Kitty Howard.

  I wish her joy of him. I wish him joy of her. A more ill-matched, ill-conceived, ill-starred marriage could hardly be imagined. I cannot envy her. From the bottom of my heart, even tonight, when I have so much to complain of, when I have so much to blame her for: even now I do not envy her. I can only fear for her, poor child, poor, silly child.

  I may have been alone, without friends, before the indifference of the king, but God knows the same will be true of her. I was poor and humble when he chose me and the same is true of her. I was part of a faction of his court (though I did not know it) and the same is even more true of her. When another pretty girl comes to court and takes his eye, how shall she make him cleave to her? (And be very sure they will send their pretty girls by the dozen.) When the king’s health fails him and he cannot get a child on her, will he tell her that it is the failing of an old man, and ask her forgiveness? No, he will not. And when he blames her, who will defend her? When Lady Rochford asks her, who can she call on as a friend?, what will she answer? Who will be Katherine Howard’s friend and protector when the king turns against her?

  Queen Katherine, Oatlands Palace, 28 July 1540

  Well, I must say that it is all well and good to be married but I have not had half the wedding that she had. There was no great reception for me at Greenwich, and no riding out on a beautiful horse and being greeted by him with all the nobles of England behind him. There was no sailing in barges down the river while the City of London went mad with joy either, so those who think that to marry the king is a very merry thing should note my wedding, which was – to be blunt – a hole-in-the corner business. There! I’ve said it, and anyone who thinks different can’t have been here. And actually, that would be most people in the world – for next to no-one was here.

  I said to Lady Rochford, the day before: ‘Please find out from the groom of the chamber or the Lord Chamberlain or somebody what it is we are to do. Where I am to stand, and what I am to say and what to do.’ I wanted to practise. I like to practise if I am going to appear before people and everyone will watch me. I should have been warned by her response.

  ‘Nothing much to practise,’ she said dourly. ‘Your bridegroom is well-rehearsed at least. You will just have to repeat the vows. And there will be hardly any audience for you at all.’

  And how right she was! There was the Bishop of London officiating (thank you so much, not even a real archbishop for me), there was the king, not even wearing a special waistcoat, in an old coat – isn’t that next to insulting? – there was me in the finest gown that I could order; but what could I do in little more than a fortnight? And not even a crown on my head!

  He gave me some very good jewels, I sent for the goldsmith to value them at once and they are indeed very fine, though some of them I know for a fact were brought by Katherine of Aragon from Spain, and who wants jewels that belonged to a friend of your grandmother? I have no doubt that there will be sables as good as Queen Anne’s to follow, and already I have commanded the dressmakers to make me new gowns and there will be gifts from everyone in the world, as soon as everyone knows, as soon as everyone is told.

  But there is no denying that it was not as great a wedding as I had expected, and it was not a patch on hers. I thought we would have planned it for months, and there would be processions and my important entry to London, and I should have spent my first night in the Tower and then processed to Westminster Abbey through streets which were swathed in cloth of gold, with people singing songs about me. ‘Fair Katherine’, I thought they would sing. ‘Rose of England.’

  But no, instead there is a mere bishop, there is the king, there am I in a bewitching gown of grey-green silk which shifts colours as I move, and a new hood, and his pearls at least, and there is my uncle and grandmother as witnesses, and a couple of men from his court, and then we go to dine; and then … And then! … It is unbelievable! Nobody talks of anything but the beheading of Thomas Cromwell.

  At a wedding breakfast! Is that what a bride wants to hear on her wedding day? There are no healths drunk and no speeches made to me, and scarcely any celebration. Nobody pays me any compliments at all, there is no dancing and no flirtation and no flattery. They can talk of nothing else but Thomas Cromwell because he has been beheaded today. On my wedding day! Is this how the king celebrates his wedding? With the death of his chief advisor and best friend? It’s not a very nice gift for a girl on her wedding day, is it? It’s not as if I am whoever she is in the Bible who wanted s