Novels 03 The Wise Woman Read online

  “Why, he has caught you and you are ready to own it at last!” she said with sudden insight. She burst into a cackle of laughter. “You’re hot for him! My little nun! You’re dragging yourself into hell with desire for him! Your Lady couldn’t protect you from the heat between your legs then! Your God has no cure for that after all!”

  Alys nodded grimly. “I desire him,” she said bitterly. “I know I do now. I feared that I would when I came to you for the herbs. But I thought if I could keep the thought away then I could keep myself safe. Then I thought I was sick of some illness, I was burning up with heat, I could not sleep, I could not eat. When I see him I feel as if I shall faint. If I do not see him I feel sick to my very soul with longing for him. I am trapped, Morach. Damn him—he has caught me.”

  Morach whistled softly as if she would summon a storm. “Have him then,” she said simply. “It should cure your heat. That’s what they always say. Take him like you would take a bottle of wine, drink yourself sick of him and then never touch him again. I can show you a way to have him and not get with child. Have him and satisfy your hunger. Why not?”

  “Because I am a bride of Christ,” Alys said through her teeth. “I cannot taste him and gamble that once or twice or even a hundred times will be enough. I am a nun. I should not even be in the world and this is the reason. I should not be able to look on a man. And now I have looked, and seen him, and I want him more than my life itself. But I am still the bride of Christ and Hugo must leave me alone. You forget very easily, Morach. You forget my vows. But I do not!”

  Morach shrugged, unrepentant. “Then what will you do?”

  “I dare not trust him, and I fear the jealousy of his wife,” Alys said. “I have to find a way to have some power in this net they all weave. I am ensnared every way I turn and they play with me—each one of them—as if I were a village simpleton.”

  Morach nodded.

  “They use me,” Alys went on in a low, resentful undertone. “The old lord has me as his only friend and real ally. He tells me he owns me outright, he has me trapped, afraid of a charge of heresy, afraid of being exposed as a nun. The young lord wants to ensnare me as a pawn against his father, or else he desires me, or he wants to play for the cruelty of it. And Lady Catherine will throw me to a rapist to punish me for taking the old lord’s trust and the young lord’s eye. I must have some power in this, Morach. I am like an unweaned babe among wolves.”

  Morach nodded. “You need woman’s power, as I did,” she said. “Your Christ will not keep you safe. Not now. Not against real danger and the lusts of men. You need another power. The old power. The power of the old goddess.”

  Alys nodded. “I’ve no choice,” she said. The cold air around her seemed very still and silent. “I’ve no choice,” she said again. “I have been driven so far and now I am at bay. I have to use what power I can. Give me the things.”

  Morach glanced around; the meadow was deserted, the noise of the market was behind them. No one was watching. She unwrapped the cloth bundle and Alys gasped at what she saw.

  They were three perfect models, three convincing likenesses, as good as the statues in the chapel. Lady Catherine’s flowing gown and her cold sharp face were carved out of the wax as precise and white as a cameo. Her gown was opened at the front, her legs spread. Morach had scratched the wax at her vagina to give the illusion of hair and the vagina was a deep, disproportionate hole made with a warm bodkin.

  “They fit!” Morach said with a harsh giggle. She showed Alys the model of the young Lord Hugo. She had graven his face in his hard look—the one Alys and all the castle dreaded. But around his eyes there was the tracery of lines from his ready smile. Morach had modeled him a penis as big as a codpiece. “He must wish to be that size!” she sniggered.

  She took the two candle-wax dolls and showed Alys how they slotted together. “That’ll turn his lust toward her,” she said with satisfaction. “You’ll be safe when he is like this.”

  The last doll was the old lord. “He’s thinner than that now,” Alys said sadly. “Thinner and older looking.”

  “I’ve not seen him for a long time,” Morach said. “You can shape him how you wish—use a warm knife for carving, and your fingers. But take care.”

  Alys looked at the three little statues with distaste. She uncoupled Lord Hugo and Lady Catherine and wrapped them up again. “What care?” she asked.

  “Once you’ve made them your own, claimed them as models for the life, then whatever you do to them takes place,” Morach said softly. “If you want the old lord’s heart to soften, you cut into his chest, carve out a little piece of wax, mold it into a heart, warm it till it melts, and drip it back into the hole. Next morning he’ll be tender as a woman with a new baby.”

  Alys’s dark eyes widened. “Is that true for all of them?” she asked. “I could make Lady Catherine sick by pinching her belly? Or make the young lord impotent by softening his prick?”

  “Yes,” Morach gleamed. “It’s a powerful piece of business, isn’t it? But you have to make them your own, and you have to make them represent those you mean to change. And—as I warned you—they can obey you too well. They can…misunderstand.”

  There was a silence in the winter meadow. Alys met Morach’s eyes. “I have to do it,” she said. “I have no safety without some power.”

  Morach nodded. “This is the spell,” she said. She put her mouth to Alys’s ear and chanted over some nonsense words, part Latin, part Greek, part French, and partly mispronounced and misheard English. She said it over and over again until Alys nodded and said she knew it by heart.

  “And you must take something from each of them,” she said. “Something which is close to them, a bit of hair, a bit of fingernail, a paring of skin, and stick it on the part of the doll where it came from. Little fingernail to little finger, hair to the head, skin to where it was cut. Then you have your doll and your power.”

  Alys nodded. “Have you done it before?” she asked.

  “No,” Morach said decidedly. “There wasn’t the urgency. I’ve had women ask me to soften their husband’s hearts but it’s easier done with herbs in his dinner than a wax candle. I’ve had someone wish a man dead, but I’d never do it. The risk is too great. I always thought the risk was too great to make one of these.”

  “Why’ve you done it now?” Alys asked directly.

  Morach looked into her smooth young face and said, “You don’t know, do you? All your learning and all your planning, and you still are ignorant.”

  Alys hunched her shoulder. “I don’t know what you’re saying.”

  Morach put her dirty hand over Alys’s clean one. “I did it for you,” she said gruffly. “I did it to give you a chance, to help you gain what you want, and to save you from rape by a soldier or by the young lord or by both. I don’t care for your dream of a nunnery but I do care for you. I raised you as my own daughter. I wouldn’t see you on your back under a man who cares nothing for you.”

  Alys looked into the sharp old face. “Thank you,” she said simply. Morach was her only ally in an uncertain world. Alys had not forgotten the blows and kicks and cuffs of her childhood, but she remembered also that Morach had kept her safe, let her go without cursing, and taken her back despite danger. She looked carefully into Morach’s dark eyes. “Thank you,” she said again.

  “And if it goes against you,” Morach said challengingly, “if it’s found, or if they know they’ve been hexed, I want my name out of it. You tell them you carved this yourself, it was your own idea. That is the condition. I’ve made them but I won’t take the danger of them. You tell them they are your own if you are ever caught. I want to die in my bed.”

  The moment of tenderness between the two women was dispelled at once.

  “I promise,” Alys said. She caught the look of suspicion on Morach’s face. “I promise,” she said again. “I will make you a solemn oath. If anyone finds these I will tell them they are my own, made by me and used by me.”