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  He leaned in closer. “How do I live with it?”

  “You take one day at a time, and you allow yourself to heal. Stop holding on to the grief so tightly. Make friends. Find something to fill your time. Realize that life goes on, even when you think it shouldn’t. You are alive. I’m alive. We’re here. Embrace that.”

  He blinked back tears and straightened. “Ask for a job to do and find purpose?”

  “That’s a great start.”

  He nodded, looking away. “I should take you back.”

  Dana reached over and held his hand. He didn’t pull away. “Why don’t we just sit here for a bit? Do you want to be alone?”

  “No.”

  She didn’t either. She laced her fingers with his. “Next time we need to find a more comfortable place though.” She adjusted her ass on the wood bench. “Or I’ll bring pillows.”

  He glanced at her and arched an eyebrow. “A pillow?”

  “To use as a cushion for these seats.”

  He smiled. “Humans are too used to comfort.”

  “That’s not a bad thing.”

  * * * * *

  Mourn leaned against the tree, watching Dana climb into bed. They’d spent a few hours together, and he’d enjoyed just sitting with her. It had even been nice to speak of 139. The human hadn’t judged him or been horrified by his words. They came from different lives. He’d expected issues to arise.

  A soft noise alerted him and he turned his head, watching Darkness step closer. “I didn’t want to startle you,” the male admitted.

  “I’m not going to harm Dana.”

  “Just watch her?”

  “Don’t you have a mate to sleep with? Doesn’t she wonder where you are?”

  “She knows where I am, and that I’m keeping my eye on you. Is Paul’s sister fascinating?”

  “She doesn’t sleep much either.”

  Darkness turned his head, to follow Mourn’s gaze. “She’s reading a book. What is the title?”

  “I don’t know. I didn’t want to get that close.”

  The male leaned on the other side of the tree and crossed his arms. “You took her away for a bit. Where did you go?”

  “To talk.” Mourn stiffened. “You had Security searching for us?”

  “No. I watched you return her. She looked unharmed and I don’t smell her fear coming off you.”

  “I’m not going to hurt her.”

  “She lost her mate too. Does talking help?”

  Mourn debated answering. Darkness could make Dana leave Homeland or send him to the Wild Zone. “Yes. She understands.”

  “Good.”

  He relaxed, the answer was non-threatening. His calm evaporated when Darkness spoke again.

  “Do you plan to stalk her every night?”

  “I’m not stalking her. I’m watching over her.”

  “She’s in no danger.”

  “I don’t wish to go home yet.”

  “I hated staring at ceilings too.”

  Mourn snapped his head in the direction of the male, studying him.

  Darkness held his gaze and nodded. “I’ve been there and done that. I will give you a warning though.”

  “I won’t harm Dana.” He growled low, offended.

  “I believe that. Calm your ass down or she’s going to hear you. Humans don’t have our senses, but get any louder and she won’t be able to miss it. Her television isn’t on to mute outside noises. My warning is that the last time I became fascinated with a human, I ended up mated to her. I have no regrets because it was the best thing to happen to me, but it came as a shock. I’m giving you a heads-up.”

  “No one would mate with me. I’m damaged.”

  “I used to say that too. Then Kat came into my life. She healed me when I didn’t think that was possible. Stop fighting with other males.” He jerked his head toward Paul’s home. “She might become a reason for you to want to live.”

  “A human?” Mourn shook his head. “We are too different.”

  “She lost her mate. You have a lot in common with her, more so than with any of our females.” Darkness inched a little closer. “Have you considered sharing sex with her?”

  “No.”

  “Perhaps you should.”

  Mourn pushed away from the tree and faced the male head on. “Why are you saying this to me?”

  “You spent most of your life with a mate. I did my research on Paul’s sister. She met her mate young, as you did yours. She is used to sleeping with a male, as you are used to having a female in your arms. You both have emptiness inside. Fill the spaces together. It makes sense.”

  “She’s human.”

  “So is my mate. It works.” Darkness smiled. “The differences between us makes it a challenge, but the kind to be enjoyed.”

  “She did say she was thinking about finding a male.” Mourn considered it. He could talk to Dana. He liked her. A memory of her crawling onto the bed the night before flashed through his mind. He was attracted to her.

  “We’re better than human males.” Darkness sounded certain.

  “Dana had no complaints about her mate. She loved him. He was good to her.”

  “So be better.” Darkness lowered his voice. “Humans don’t have our advantages.”

  “We’re stronger and loyal. We don’t carry sexual diseases or get sick.”

  “That’s not what I meant, but those are valid points. I’m talking about sex.”

  “We’re larger and have more stamina.”

  Darkness chuckled. “Do you know what a vibrator is? A human sex toy?”

  Mourn shook his head. “No.”

  “You haven’t watched human porn?”

  “No.” He scowled. “I had no interest in human sex.”

  “Good. You’re already ahead of a lot of our males who’ve seen that garbage. It’s a bad representation of what human males fantasize about, rather than the females. A lot of females find it offensive. Go down on her and purr. Don’t hold back. They love the vibrations from our tongues. Human men can’t do that without toys. Just be aware that they try to slam their thighs closed. They aren’t used to that much sensation. It’s overpowering for them, but pin her thighs open and keep going until she climaxes. Her male couldn’t do that.”

  “They like to be licked?”

  “Licked, sucked, and then mounted. Have her face you.” He paused. “Just enter her slowly at first. They are damn tight because most human males aren’t our size.”

  Mourn’s dick stirred just thinking about it. It had been a long time since he’d shared sex. Dana had a nice backside. Her hands were soft. He could adjust to their differences. “How do I get her to agree to share sex with me?”

  Darkness straightened and dropped his arms to his sides. “They appreciate our bodies. We’re fit. Kat swears we have muscles that make females very aware of us.” He reached down, gripped the hem of his shirt and yanked it up to just under his nipples. He tightened his stomach and pointed. “Those especially. Kat enjoys running her hands across my abs.”

  “I just flash her my stomach? That sounds easy.”

  “It’s a little more complicated than that. Do you know how you approach our females for sharing sex?”

  “Be blunt, tell them what we want and show our strength.”

  “Forget that. Don’t tell her you’d like to bend her over in front of you. Humans don’t usually respond well to that much honesty.” Darkness paused, obviously thinking. “Are you meeting her tomorrow night?”

  “Yes.”

  “I have a plan.”

  “What is it?”

  Darkness smiled.

  Chapter Four

  Dana closed the slider and stepped out onto the patio, glancing around, looking for Mourn. He immediately advanced from the shadows beneath a tree. She smiled, walking right up to the wall that separated them. He reached for her waist and lifted, placing her down on the other side.

  He smiled back, reminding her how handsome was. His mood seemed cheerf