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Sunshine finished her food and stood. “I’ll see you guys later.” She ditched her dirty plate in the sink. “Bye, Candi.”

  Candi watched her and the male walk away together and looked at Hero, arching her eyebrows.

  “They are going to share sex,” he whispered.

  “Oh. They are a couple?”

  “No.” Midnight put her food down. “Our females share sex with males. It’s a casual thing. Do you understand?”

  She didn’t, and shook her head.

  “Most of us don’t want to be with just one male. We like our freedom.” Bluebird shrugged. “It’s tough to choose just one, so why bother? Besides, they get kind of territorial.” She jerked her chin toward Hero. “He’s almost glued to your side. See? That would annoy me. Does it annoy you?”

  “No.”

  “She loves him,” Midnight announced. “It’s probably comforting to her that he cares so deeply that he wants to be with her as much as possible.” She finished eating. “I need to go. I’m supposed to work. It was good spending time with you, Candi.” She glanced at Bluebird. “Do you want me to help you with dishes before I go?”

  “No. I have this. It’s my day off.”

  Midnight left and they finished lunch. Hero stood. “I’ll do the dishes. It’s the least I can do.”

  “Thanks.” Bluebird grinned. “We’re going to bring dinner tonight at six. I’ll see you then.”

  “They are so nice to me.” Candi really appreciated that. “Can you teach me how to load a dishwasher?”

  “Later. You look a little tired. Why don’t you go to our home and I’ll be there in a few minutes? Can you find your way?”

  “Yes, but I want to help you.”

  “Rest.” He reached out and brushed his fingers over her cheek. “Food, sleep and then sex. Remember?”

  She laughed. “Ah. Now I understand.”

  “Go lie down. I’ll be there soon. This won’t take long.”

  She left him and took the elevator to their floor. The door was unlocked. She entered and was halfway to the bedroom when someone knocked. She spun around, went back and opened it. Shock slammed through her at seeing the male who stood there.

  “Hello, Candi.”

  She couldn’t speak.

  “I waited until you were alone to approach you. I heard about you making it to Homeland and came from Reservation, hoping you were the female they spoke of.” His pretty dark-blue catlike eyes peered at her with compassion.

  “You can’t be here,” she finally managed to whisper. “927 will kill you. He knows what happened between us.”

  “Evelyn told me he attacked you for what we did. I’m so sorry. I heard he killed you.”

  “That was a lie. Dr. C took me away and had me locked up elsewhere. You must go. I’m glad you survived, but he can’t see you. It would upset him.”

  The male blinked back tears. “I wanted to apologize. I tried not to hurt you. I fought and would have let them kill me before touching you if you hadn’t asked me to. I’ve regretted it ever since. I should have kept saying no.”

  “Stop.” She stepped closer, glanced down the hallway, and then stared up at his face. “We did what we had to do to survive. That technician was killing you. Do you think I don’t remember your blood spilling? I do. It’s done. Don’t apologize, and let it go. Forgive yourself. I hold no pain or anger toward you. We both had no choice. You tried not to hurt me. I thank you for that. Now you must go and forget about the past. Please? It would just hurt him. He thought I chose you over him.”

  “I’ll tell him the truth.”

  “No! He will kill you.”

  “I wouldn’t blame him.”

  “Please? I don’t want you to die, or for him to have to live with another death. Just go and never speak of it. Don’t think of it again. Forget. I have.”

  He hesitated. “Anything you need, anything I can do, contact me. I took the name Dreamer.”

  “I will. Please, let this go, Dreamer. For me and for yourself. It’s the past. Go in peace.”

  He nodded. “I’m glad you are alive.”

  “I’m glad you survived as well.”

  She backed up and closed the door, her heart pounding. Fear and dread consumed her. What if Hero ran into the feline leaving the floor? What if Dreamer decided to confess to him that he was the male who’d mounted her so many years before? If it opened up old wounds anew, would it make him so angry and upset that he would decide not to be her mate anymore? Would Hero kill him and be locked up?

  She paced the living room and didn’t know what to do. She was torn between telling Hero the truth and keeping silent. A few minutes later the door opened and Hero entered, a smile on his face.

  “You seemed to enjoy your first cooking lesson.”

  “I did.” She stilled and tried to slow her heart rate.

  “You should take a nap.”

  “Will you lie down with me?”

  He nodded. “Of course. You are to sleep though.” He approached her. “Nothing else.”

  She loved him with all her heart. The last thing she wanted was to see him hurt or angry. The words to tell him who had visited refused to form. “I know. I would just like to be held by you.”

  His expression sobered. “Are you feeling well?”

  “I’m fine. I just want to be close to you.”

  He pulled her into his arms, lifted her, and carried her to the bedroom. “I’m not going anywhere.” He laid her on the bed and bent, removing his shoes and then hers. He stretched out alongside her and opened his arms. “Come here.”

  She curled into him and rested her cheek on his chest. “It feels perfect right now.”

  He kissed the top of her head. “It does. Sleep, Candi. Get some rest.”

  She closed her eyes and focused on him, instead of the unfairness of their pasts. They never should have been parted. She blamed Dr. C and Evelyn for being taken away from her male.

  “Hero?” It was getting easier to say his name.

  “Yes?” He stroked his hand down her back, his fingers playing with her hair.

  “Do you know what happened to Evelyn? Was she caught?”

  His body tensed.

  “I’m sorry. Forget I asked.”

  “No. It’s all right. I was taken from that facility before it was raided. Once I was freed from where they held me captive, I asked about her and Dr. C. They weren’t able to find him, but I identified her from photos they showed me of known Mercile employees. She died after what they did to us was released to the public. She had to know the authorities would come after her, and she had family who knew she worked there. Most humans were horrified to learn about us, and what was done. She chose to take her own life rather than face the consequences.”

  Candi felt torn. She’d hated Evelyn, but a small part of her still grieved. The doctor had been a big part of her childhood, even if it had been mostly bad interactions. “I’m glad she isn’t free, but it hurts a little,” she admitted.

  “We were given counseling when we were freed. Perhaps you should get some. It helped to talk to the shrink. Some of the techs and doctors were so bad that learning they died somehow, or are locked up, is comforting. Some weren’t so awful, and that leaves us feeling conflicted. They were wrong for what they did to us, but they were all we knew for so long.”

  She nodded. “I wanted them to pay for what they did to us.”

  “The shrink I spoke to compared us to children who had been raised by severely abusive parents. I didn’t really agree with that since we were never treated as if we were human at all, but I was assured it’s normal not to feel total relief over discovering they met with unhappy endings. It shows we have compassion, something they never had for us. Evelyn made her own choices, Candi. She could have saved us by calling the human police to tell them what was happening but she didn’t. She helped keep us prisoners and viewed us as test subjects. I know she was nice to you occasionally, but there were many times she wasn’t. She had to know that Dr. C kille