Keeping Faith Read online

  Gently he peels one away from her hand. "Holy shit," he breathes. Then he gathers Faith into his arms and runs as fast as he can to Mariah White.

  The doorbell is ringing as she wraps a towel around her wet hair, cinches her robe at her waist, and flies down the stairs. It is ten-thirty at night, for God's sake. She has a child who's asleep. Who would have the nerve to bother them now?

  As she reaches for the doorknob, the person on the other side begins to knock harder. Her jaw tight, Mariah swings open the door and finds herself staring at Ian Fletcher. But all her bluster dies the moment she notices that Faith is lying limp in his arms.

  "Oh..." Mariah's voice trembles, and she falls back to let Ian enter the house.

  "She was in the woods." Ian watches Mariah touch Faith's temples, her cheek. "She's bleeding. We need to take her to the hospital."

  Mariah covers her mouth, holding back a sob. She rucks up Faith's sleeve, expecting to find a cut across her wrist, but Fletcher tugs down her glove instead. "Come on!" he says. "What are you waiting for?"

  "Nothing..." Mariah runs upstairs and dresses in the clothes that have already been thrown into the laundry hamper. Then she rips her car keys and purse from the Shaker pegboard beside the front door.

  The far edge of the front yard is stirring with curiosity, most of the reporters having risen from their bored stakeout to notice Ian Fletcher, of all people, carrying the girl up to the house. Video cameras begin to whir, flashbulbs pop like firecrackers, and above all this is the thready refrain of people calling out to the unconscious Faith for help.

  Mariah opens the back door of the car for Ian, and without a word of communication he climbs in with Faith, cradling her in his lap. Mariah gets into the driver's seat, hands shaking on the wheel, and tries to back out of the driveway without hitting one of the onlookers who insist on touching the car as it passes.

  Mariah meets Ian's eyes in the rearview mirror. "How did this happen?"

  "I don't know." Ian brushes Faith's hair from her forehead; this action is not lost on Mariah. "I think she was already hurt when I found her."

  Mariah brakes down the long curve of a hill. Has Faith misguidedly been trying to kill herself? She does not ask Ian Fletcher what she wants to: Why were you with her? Why didn't my own daughter come to me?

  She pulls into the Emergency entrance of the Connecticut Valley Medical Center. There, she leaves the car at the curb and precedes Ian into the building, toward the triage nurse. Mariah is ready to fight for Faith's priority as a case, but the nurse takes one look at the unconscious child and the blood on Ian's coat and immediately calls for a gurney and a doctor. Mariah can barely keep up with them as Faith is whisked away.

  She does not think to ask Ian to follow her, but she isn't surprised to find him coming, too. And she is barely aware of how her body sways when the remaining glove is cut from Faith's fingers, of how Ian's hand reaches out to steady her.

  "Vitals?"

  "BP one hundred over sixty, thready pulse."

  "Let's drop a line and get bloods. I want a type and cross, a CBC, tox screen, 'lytes." The doctor glances over Faith's still form. "What's her name?"

  Mariah tries to make her voice work, but she is unable to speak. "Faith," Ian offers.

  "Okay, Faith," the doctor says, his face inches from hers. "Wake up for me, honey." He glances up at a nurse. "Get pressure bandages," he orders, and looks at Mariah. "Did she get into some pills? Drink something from under the kitchen sink?"

  "No," Mariah whispers, shocked. "Nothing like that."

  Ian clears his throat. "She was bleeding when I found her. Wearing the gloves, so I didn't realize it at first. And then she passed out." He glances at his watch. "About thirty minutes ago."

  A resident runs his hands along Faith's foot. "No Kernig's or Brudzinski's signs."

  "These don't look like punctures to me," a nurse says, and the doctor in charge takes up a position beside her and begins to press against Faith's upper arm. "Bleeding's not slowing. I want a hand-surgery consult stat." He looks at Ian. "You the father?"

  Ian shakes his head. "A friend."

  To Mariah they seem like great vultures, swooping down on Faith's small body to get whatever untouched piece remains. A nurse lifts Faith's right hand, pressing hard on her upper arm at the brachial artery, and for a moment Mariah is able to see a pinprick of light through the wound--a tiny, clean tunnel passing right through the palm.

  Suddenly Faith strikes out with her foot, catching a resident in the chin. "Noooo!" she cries, trying to yank her arms away from the nurses who are pinning her down. "No! It hurts!"

  Mariah takes a step forward, only to feel Ian's hand on her shoulder. "They know what they're doing," he murmurs, as the doctor gentles Faith with his voice.

  "How did you hurt your hands, Faith?" he asks.

  "I didn't. I didn't hurt my--Ow! They just started bleeding and the Band-aids wouldn't stay on and--Stop! Mommy, make them stop!"

  Shrugging off Ian, Mariah runs toward the gurney, her hand falling on her daughter's thigh before she is yanked away. "Get her out of here!" the doctor shouts, barely audible over Faith's shrieking. But the farther she's dragged from Faith, the more the sobs intensify, and it takes several moments in Ian's embrace before Mariah realizes that she is the one who's crying.

  There is an insular peace to hospitals in the middle of the night, as if beneath the moans and sighs and muted beeps those people still roaming the halls or sitting at bedsides are united in purpose. You can meet a woman in the elevator and, just like that, know her sorrow. You can stand beside a man at the coffee-vending machine and tell he's coming off the high of having a baby. You find yourself asking for a stranger's story; you feel a connection to people you would ordinarily pass on the street.

  Mariah and Ian stand like sentries at the foot of Faith's bed in the pediatric ward. She is sleeping easily now, her bandaged hands fading into the white sheets. "Q-tips," Ian murmurs.

  "Excuse me?"

  "Her arms look like Q-tips. It's that puffy thing on the end."

  Mariah smiles, the movement so unlikely after these past few hours that she can feel her face crumple as it happens. Faith turns and settles again on the bed, and Ian points to the door, his brows raised in question. Mariah follows him outside and begins to walk down the hall, past the quiet patter of the nurses' station and the elevator portal. "I haven't thanked you for bringing her to me." She crosses her arms, suddenly chilled. "For not whipping out a camera and taking pictures of Faith when it happened."

  Ian meets her gaze. "How do you know I didn't?"

  Her mouth, her throat, is dry. She pictures Ian in the backseat of the car, holding Faith. "I just do," Mariah says.

  They have stopped in front of the neonatal nursery, where the newborns, pastel-wrapped and swaddled, sit side by side like grocery items on a shelf. One infant bats a hand from his blanket and unfurls the petals of his fingers. Mariah cannot help but notice that his palm is new and pink and whole.

  "Do you believe?"

  Ian is staring at the newborns, but speaking to her. It is not a question she should answer; it is not a topic to discuss with Ian Fletcher, who--for all his chivalrous behavior tonight--will still be the enemy tomorrow. But there has been a connection in the past few hours, something that makes Mariah think of spiders throwing the thinnest silken line across incredible distances, something that makes her wonder if she may just owe Ian an answer.

  "Yes. I don't know what Faith's seeing, I don't know why she's seeing it--but I do believe that she's telling the truth."

  He shakes his head almost imperceptibly. "What I meant is, do you believe in God?"

  "I don't know. I wish I could just say, 'Oh, yes.' I wish it was as easy as all that."

  "You have your doubts, though."

  Mariah looks up at him. "So do you."

  "Yeah. But the difference is, that if you had the choice you'd want to believe. And I wouldn't." He presses one palm to the glass in front of hi