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  Tony and Marnie weren’t moving, though the baby hadn’t stopped squalling. Cal had bent over at the waist again, coughing up more of that black goop. Even from this distance, Abbie could smell it. Bitterness, with an undertone of those flowers.

  Oh, those fucking flowers.

  Something in those flowers had made this happen, and the flowers had somehow come from the storms. They’d grown and bloomed and died and somehow taken root inside Cal and Tony and Marnie…but not her. Why not Abbie?

  She’d done so much damage to herself and to those she loved, and yet here she sat in the car that should’ve been destroyed and still ran. She’d survived tornados that had killed and injured hundreds of people, and though she’d suffered a few bruises her real injury had come from Marnie, not the storm. Cal moved toward her, those vivid eyes focused on hers. Cal had seemed like a good man with most of his shit together, a generous lover and compassionate enough to check on his ex-wife after a natural disaster. Yet there he was, a stumbling wreck bent on doing her harm while Abbie herself remained mostly unscathed.

  For one long, eternal moment she closed her eyes and thought of how easy it would be to just let him reach her, to do whatever it was he intended with his grabbing hands and snapping teeth. She’d dodged death a few times already when others worthier than she had not — Abbie sat back in the driver’s seat and thought how simple it would be to let him kill her. How…righteous that might seem.

  And then she remembered the voice on the radio, talking about Glen Wild and the storms like the ones here in Oklahoma. How they’d ripped through the town along with numerous others all along the East Coast. Unusual, unexpected storms. What had they left behind? What if they’d carried the same flowers?

  What if her children and Ryan were in danger?

  Her eyes opened as her body twisted, swinging her feet into the car as she yanked the door closed with her good hand, the same one that then reached to twist the key in the ignition. She couldn’t grip the steering wheel with the hand attached to her throbbing, broken wrist, so she hooked her arm through it as she put the car into Drive.

  She went straight for Cal, who never even moved to step out of the way. He hit the hood, then the windshield but didn’t break it. His body rolled to the side and hit the ground, and Abbie kept driving. Her tires spun up dust and grass and gravel from the drive spanged the undercarriage, but she didn’t stop. She yanked the wheel to turn, heading for the road, away from this house and the creatures in the yard.

  She looked in the rearview mirror once, just before she reached the road. Tony, Marnie, the baby and Cal were all still down, but instead of the green grass and brown dirt, all she could see was a carpet of purple and blue with red runners between them. She didn’t stop to see if they bloomed or how fast they died.

  Abbie drove without looking back again.

  THREE

  12

  Three days in darkness. That’s how long I spent with nothing to hold me up, nothing to reach for but my father’s hand. I remember spinning, spinning, no stars, no earth, no heaven. No hell. And then something pulled me up and out, yanked me so hard my teeth cut the tip of my tongue, and I woke with a scream so loud it left my voice too raw to speak. It echoed off the ceramic walls and floor and the metal gurney under my naked flesh.

  I screamed when I woke.

  So did the doctor who was bent over me with his scalpel. He’d never had a dead man sit up in front of him before. He took several stumbling steps back. Slipped and fell. His outflung hand clattered against a tray of instruments, and they hit the floor. His body struck a gurney like mine, and that body, not alive, still dead, not brought back by the hand of our fathergod, rocked and tipped and fell onto the floor in a sprawling jumble of arms and legs. I can still hear the rotten pumpkin sound of its skull hitting the floor, but there wasn’t any blood. Corpses don’t bleed. Or breathe. But they can break open.

  After that, there were a lot of people and a lot of tests. They took blood, they tapped my knees, checked my eyes, ears, nose, throat. Blood pressure. They checked me from top to toe and back again, but in the end the only thing that mattered to them and to me was that I had died, and I’d returned.

  Resurrected.

  I don’t in any way compare myself to Jesus Christ, no, I don’t do that. Jesus Christ was the man so many call the Savior, and I don’t deny he surely was a special, holy man. I’m the son of an auto mechanic from Oklahoma and a waitress who grew up in some small town in Texas, and neither one of them ever had much use for Jesus. Or God for that matter. Growing up in our house was all about Santa at Christmas. Easter was for chocolate eggs and pastel-colored bunnies. No, I’m not much like Jesus.

  The first time the voice spoke to me, I was six years old and in the backyard playhouse. The neighbor girl from next door, Hilary, had promised me she’d show me “hers” if I showed her “mine.” I wasn’t sure what she meant, exactly, just that it was something secret, something our parents wouldn’t like. I knew it because the voice spoke to me, just a whisper in my ear, a tickle behind my eyes.

  “No, Renton,” the voice said. “No, don’t do it. You’ll get into trouble.”

  I didn’t show Hilary anything that day, but a week later she got Mikey Adams from down the street to go into the playhouse with her, and since her daddy dragged them both out into the backyard and beat the sin right out of them, I’m pretty sure she’d done with Mikey whatever it was she’d wanted to do with me. My mother, watching from her lawn chair with her cigarette and her beer, laughed when she heard Hilary start to wail.

  “That girl’s gonna be trouble,” she told me. “You can always tell.”

  Ten years later Hilary from down the street was still taking boys into the playhouse, but she never asked me. Girls never did. At sixteen, I had a face full of zits and an extra twenty pounds on me from all the leftover pie my mom brought home from work. I also had the voice whispering in my ear.

  The voice told me what questions to study to pass all my tests with top grades. It told me which streets to take to avoid the bullies who would’ve liked to pull my pants down and my underwear up. It told me which drawers I should search to find the extra cash my mother squirreled away from my dad so he wouldn’t spend it on stuff she didn’t want him to have. Interestingly, the voice never seemed to care if I took that cash and spent it on the art supplies my parents didn’t think I needed, even though I don’t think there was much difference between me stealing it from my mother or the convenience store a block away. Maybe the voice just wanted me to draw comics.

  Teachers didn’t love me, even though I got good grades. My parents must’ve loved me, but they were more concerned about their own business than mine — I was old enough to take care of myself and that was fine with them. I didn’t get into trouble. I stayed out of everyone’s way. I wasn’t popular, but I was mostly ignored.

  I was mostly invisible.

  When I was eighteen, I almost died. I’d gone to a party. Hilary invited me. Not because she liked me, but because she’d seen me stopping to get the mail from the box at the end of our driveway, and she was sitting on her front porch smoking a cigarette that hadn’t come from a store. She called me over. Looked me up and down with a knowing tilt of her head I remembered from way back in the days we’d spent in the playhouse.

  “My parents are going out of town for the weekend. I’m having some people over.” She blew out smoke in long drifts and lifted her chin to study me. “You should come, Renton. It’ll be fun.”

  And it was fun, watching the kids I’d gone to school with make fools of themselves with too much drink and too much drugs. I drew pictures of them, caricatures, and mostly they liked them. Gigantic foreheads and over-bulbous noses, wild eyes, huge heads on tiny bodies. The girls especially liked it when I added curves in places they wanted them and took them away from places they didn’t. Those girls hovered around me, leaning on the arm of my chair, their perfume sweet, their breath hot. One touched my hair and cupped her hand o