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  He was gorgeous, smart, funny...and an outrageous flirt. The sort of guy she'd avoided in college, setting her sights instead on the nice guy, the reliable one--Ted.

  And where had that left her? Nice, reliable Ted had discovered the pleasures of constant one-night stands while on the road, the joys of corporate success that outweighed the quieter joy of domestic bliss. He'd left her for his secretary, a cliché so overdone Audrey had laughed when he told her. When she finally cried, it wasn't for herself, but for the dreams they'd shared. For her child, Lauren, who now saw her daddy every other weekend, which turned out to be more often than when he'd actually lived with them.

  The divorce had been swift and equitable. It had left her with enough money to go back to school and get her Masters in Psychology, keep food on the table, clothes on their backs. She wasn't interested in much more, right now.

  Not even if it came packaged in a six-foot-two, dark-haired, dark-eyed, swaggering bad boy who made her laugh.

  * * * *

  Joel wheeled the cart of magazines and games into the social room. "Hey, Morty, my main man."

  "Joely," answered the older man with a grin that showed his straight white dentures. "How they hanging?"

  "High and dry," Joel answered without missing a beat. Morty was his favorite resident at Country Breezes. The octogenarian had a wicked sense of humor and a weakness for butterscotch pudding, but along with that, he never seemed to assume that, because Joel was young, he didn't know what end was up. Morty never patronized him.

  "Young fella like you? That's a shame." Morty chuckled, wheeling his chair closer to Joel's cart. "I don't suppose you have any girly mags in that pile?"

  "Sorry, man. Nurse Ratchett checks 'em out before I bring them in. I've got some the same old celebrity rags and the home decorating stuff. But I did manage to snag you a couple Weekly News of the Weird."

  Morty laughed. "Oy, just what this old man needs, more news of the weird. As if living next door to Sasquatch Frank's not weird enough."

  Joel laughed. "I haven't seen Frank in a while. How's he doing?"

  Morty sobered a bit. "Failing. Been in bed with a cold that won't quit."

  He didn't say more, but he didn't have to. Being constrained to bed was never a good sign in Country Breezes. Joel nodded and passed Morty a copy of the black and white pulp paper.

  "Sorry, man."

  Morty waved a hand. "It's what happens, right? You get old, you get sick...feh. Enough of that. What're you doing here? I thought you worked your second gig tonight."

  "I do, but that's not until later. I need the cash, man." Joel shrugged. "School's not cheap, you know?"

  Morty nodded. "Tell me about it. But working on a Friday night...no fun. No dates? No girls in your life? What's going on? I thought you were the Don Juan of Millersville University."

  Joel shrugged. "There's a girl. But...she's not really into me. We're study buddies."

  Morty looked so astounded Joel had to laugh again.

  "Study buddies? What's that, some newfangled slang for...something?"

  "No. It means we have class together. We study together. That's it."

  "She invites you to her house?"

  "Well...yeah." They usually studied a couple of times a week.

  "She likes you," Morty said with an old man's self-righteous confidence.

  Joel shook his head. "Nah, man...she's...different."

  "Trust me, sonny, she's not that different." Morty shook a gnarled finger. "She's a woman, right?"

  "Definitely."

  "She makes you food?"

  Joel laughed. "Sometimes."

  "She likes you. Ask her out."

  "I can't do that, man." Joel started tidying up the chair cushions someone had tossed about. "If I ask her out and she says no, it'll ruin our friendship."

  Morty started to gasp, a hand over his heart, and Joel dropped the cushions and ran to his side. The old man grabbed his wrist. "Get me a magnifying glass, quick!"

  Joel was already reaching for the button on the wall to call a nurse, but he hesitated. "What do you need a magnifying glass for?"

  "To look for your balls, sonny!" Morty cackled, and Joel stepped back. "What's the matter with you?"

  "Not funny, man." Joel put his hands on his hips and glared at Morty, who looked unrepentant. "You almost gave me a heart attack."

  Morty waved a hand again. "Feh. This is not the Joely I know and love. What's different about this girl from all the others?"

  Joel leaned against the window seat. "For starters, she's not a girl, she's a woman."

  Morty nodded eagerly. "Oh, yeah? Older woman, huh?"

  "She's not that much older. But she's not some silly kid either. She's..." He shrugged, not sure how to describe Audrey without sounding like a sap. "She's a hard worker. And smart...man, is she smart. And beautiful. She's just..."

  "Sonny, you've got it bad." Morty sighed, shoulders hunching. "And you can't ask her out?"

  "She's divorced," Joel said, like that explained it.

  Morty wasn't appeased by such a throwaway answer. "So?"

  "So, she's a little shy of dating. And she's got a daughter, a great kid named Lauren."

  "So you've met the daughter?"

  Joel shrugged. "Well...yeah. When I go over to study, she's usually there. And we've gone out for dinner or ice cream a couple of times after class."

  "But those weren't dates?" Morty looked astounded, shaking his head.

  "No, that's just hanging out."

  "Times change, times change," Morty muttered, almost to himself. "Listen, sonny, she likes you. She invites you to her house, she lets you meet her kid, that means she likes you."

  "She likes me," Joel countered. "That doesn't mean she, you know, likes me."

  Morty laughed and set his chair in motion toward the door. "Only one way to find out, sonny. Ask her out."

  "I can't do that, man!" Joel called after him.

  "What a wimp!" came the old man's retort from down the hall, and Joel laughed, though the words had the ring of truth.

  Yeah, he was a wimp. At least when it came to Audrey. Morty hadn't been far wrong, calling him the Don Juan of Millersville. Joel knew how the rumors had started. Date a professor, even one who taught classes you'd never taken, and you had to expect there to be talk. That he and Marlene had only gone to dinner and a movie hadn't seemed to matter, not when they'd been spotted by Suze Pennypacker, the girl with the biggest mouth and wildest imagination Joel had ever met. Suze had been the one start the rumor that Joel supplemented his income as a paid escort, and since he refused to give her the satisfaction even of denying it, the story had passed around and around until it became legend. It had followed up him from undergrad days until now.

  It hadn't seemed to hurt him. Joel had his share of admirers. He went on dates. He wasn't proud of his reputation as a flirt, but he wasn't exactly ashamed of it either. He had fun with girls, and he liked to think they had fun with him. He didn't give them any reason to believe it was ever anything other than dinner and dancing or a movie. It wasn't like he took them out, seduced them into bed and then dumped them. Being labeled a man-for-hire had probably earned him more action than anything else...at least while he'd been looking for it.

  The truth was, he hadn't been to bed with anyone in a little over a year--not since meeting Audrey. He'd had plenty of opportunities, but the appeal of the casual sex he'd once found so much a part of student life had palled greatly. He wasn't an undergrad anymore. But a reputation, once earned, is hard to shake, and even the professors knew him as Joel Goodman, the flirt. The guy with the golden grin.

  It could be frustrating. Could he help it if he liked women? If he knew how to talk to them better than most guys his age? If it just came easy to him? What was he supposed to do, turn into the sort of doofus a lot of his buddies seemed to be around girls, when compliments came easier to his lips than playing it cool?

  In high school, his best friend Gary had once asked how he manag