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  Alicia’s mouth turned down at the corners, and she gave him a sad shake of her head. “No, honey. No. We got together because we both loved her.”

  “Don’t do it, Allie. Please. Don’t.”

  That was when she started to cry. “I’m sorry, honey . . . but I already did.”

  CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE

  She hadn’t told him to, but Nikolai had shown up at her door with takeout Indian food and a six-pack of that craft beer she’d started to grow so fond of. She’d already changed into flannel pajamas and pulled her hair up on top of her head, but if there was any point in worrying about that, Alicia had gotten over it a long time ago. She greeted him with a kiss, after he quickly shut the door behind him to keep the cold air from coming in.

  “How did you know I was craving curry?” She took the takeout bags from him.

  Nikolai shrugged out of his coat and hung it on the hook. “Just a guess. And I was on that side of town anyway. Had to run to the home store.”

  “Ah. Your mom’s projects, huh?”

  “I don’t mind. Why should she pay someone to do it when I can?” He laughed and pulled her closer for another kiss. This one lingered.

  “You’re so handy,” Alicia murmured. Nikolai’s hands shifted, roaming over her back to settle on her ass. She laughed and wriggled away. “Hey, hey. I meant like hammering things . . .”

  “I’m great at hammering. Better at screwing.” He chased her into the dining room.

  It was no difficult feat for him to catch her, although she did make him wait to kiss her until she’d put the food and beer on the table. “Mmmm. Such a funny guy.”

  She’d been cleaning in the kitchen, her wireless speaker transmitting music from her computer. As she put her arms around his neck, a slow song came on: a new download and one of her current favorites she sometimes kept on REPEAT. They eased into a slowly circling dance. Nikolai stepped deliberately on one of her slipper-clad feet, but not hard enough to hurt. Laughing, Alicia kicked his shin lightly.

  Nikolai pulled her even closer, tucking her face against his shoulder. One hand smoothed over her hair, tugging it gently from the loose tie. Freed, it tumbled over her shoulders and down her back, and he ran his hand over the tangles to rest it finally at the base of her spine.

  “You smell good,” Alicia said against his skin.

  “Mmm-hmm.”

  “Like curry and beer and snow,” she continued as she breathed him in.

  Nikolai laughed into her hair. “Nobody’s ever told me smelling like curry and beer was something good.”

  “It’s just you,” she told him. “Your skin. You always smell good to me.”

  Nikolai kissed her again. His hands moved over her, squeezing her ass before moving up to settle on her hips to squeeze her there, too. When he moved up farther to cup her breasts, though, Alicia pulled away.

  “Food first. What kind of girl do you think I am, anyway?” she said with an arched brow. “Don’t answer that.”

  Nikolai grabbed some plates and silverware while Alicia set out the food. He’d brought her favorite—lamb rogan josh with basmati rice. She paused as she opened the carton.

  “Something wrong?” Nikolai slid a plate in front of her.

  Alicia shook her head. “No. It’s nice, that’s all. That you remembered what I like best.”

  “Well . . . it’s not that hard to remember.” Nikolai’s grin faded at her expression. “Right? I mean . . . not when you pay attention.”

  It was no big deal, she told herself as she kissed him. It was just takeout food. It didn’t mean anything.

  Except it did, she thought, watching him serve the food. It mattered that he’d taken the time to pick up the food and bring it to her, that it was her favorite. That he was choosing to be here with her, here and now, instead of anywhere else in the world that he could’ve been. She loved him for all of that.

  She loved him.

  “Alicia? You okay?” Nikolai reached to brush the hair off her forehead. His fingers stroked down her cheek. “What’s wrong?”

  “Nothing.” She cupped his hand to her face for a second. “Nothing’s wrong. I’m just hungry.”

  He gave her an odd look but didn’t pursue it.

  Alicia dug into the food on her plate, although now her stomach was doing rolls and tumbles worthy of a circus act. So were her thoughts. How had this happened? And when?

  Watching Nikolai laugh as he told her a story about one of the repair jobs he was doing for Galina, she knew the answer to those questions; they became clear and sharp as diamonds. Not how. Not when.

  But always.

  “Nikolai . . . ,” she began, but stopped herself.

  He put down his bottle of beer and wiped his mouth with the napkin. He gave her a curious, wary look. “Yeah?”

  The sound of the front door opening turned both of them toward it. It could only be one person, of course. Nobody else would simply come inside her house without knocking first.

  “Hey,” Ilya said, then stopped at the sight of his brother. “Wow. What’s the occasion?”

  “It’s just dinner,” Nikolai said evenly. “What’s up, man?”

  Ilya held up the packet of papers and looked at Alicia. “Maybe I should be asking you that. Both of you.”

  “We’re eating dinner,” Alicia said tightly. “And we can talk about that stuff in your hand tomorrow, at work.”

  “I want to talk about it now.” Ilya slapped the papers onto the table and grabbed at one of the takeout cartons. “Great, I’m starving.”

  Alicia leaned to snag the carton from him and set it out of his reach. Ilya raised both brows. His smile did not reach his eyes.

  “What, am I interrupting something? Is this like . . . a date or something?” He looked from his brother and back to her. “Why don’t you tell me what’s going on?”

  “Nothing’s going on,” Nikolai said. “I was out getting some stuff at the hardware store. Figured I’d pick up some takeout. I brought it over to Alicia’s house because I know she likes Indian food. That’s all. You don’t need to get bent about it.”

  “No, I guess not,” Ilya answered with a short bark of a laugh. “I mean, except that she’s my wife. And you’re my brother.”

  “I’m your ex-wife, Ilya.”

  He turned to her. “And he’s still my brother.”

  “You didn’t seem to think that sort of thing was a very big deal,” Alicia bit out, “when you started fucking me after you’d been fucking my sister.”

  Ilya’s fists clenched, resting on the table. Nikolai started to speak, but Ilya’s glance shut him up. Ilya fixed her with an unwavering, impassive look. She took a long pull on the beer to wash the taste of bitterness off her tongue, but she didn’t look away from Ilya’s gaze.

  Ilya stood. “The difference is at least your sister was dead before I took up with you.”

  “Ilya!” Nikolai stood, too. “Don’t, man.”

  Alicia flinched at his words and closed her eyes for a second before looking at him again. “Because of you. Right? Isn’t that what you think? Isn’t that why you came after me at all? To replace her?”

  “You,” Ilya said with a sneer, “could never replace her.”

  Nikolai moved around the table to take his brother by the arm—firmly, but gently. “C’mon, man. You want me to walk you—”

  “I’m not fucking feeble.” Ilya yanked himself out of his brother’s grip and focused on Alicia. His sneer became a sly, nasty smile. “Did he tell you he’s not going back?”

  “Not going back?” Alicia looked at Nikolai, confused. He frowned and ran a hand through his hair with a sigh. She looked back at Ilya. “I thought you said you were only on a short leave, that they expected you to go back? That you had to—you had a contract.”

  “He dissolved it.” Ilya thumped the packet of papers. “Got a bunch of money, got bought out. He doesn’t have to go back to Israel. He can stay here, right here in good old Quarrytown, for as long as he wants to. H