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  Dirty

  MEGAN HART

  To Unagh and Ronan, who bring me more joy than I ever imagined possible, and as ever and always, to DPF, because the rest of the world gets to peek inside my head, but you actually have to live with me. I love you all!

  Contents

  Acknowledgments

  Chapter 01

  Chapter 02

  Chapter 03

  Chapter 04

  Chapter 05

  Chapter 06

  Chapter 07

  Chapter 08

  Chapter 09

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  After

  Coming Next Month

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  This book would not have been written without the support and friendship of the following:

  Natalie Damschroder and Lauren Dane, who read my book and held my hand through all of Elle’s adventures (and who told me they loved Dan);

  Scissors and Piston, my fellow Maverick Authors: long live the Power of the Three!;

  CPRW, the most fantastic and supportive group of writers I’m honored to know;

  Kelly, Sal and the rest of the Manor crew for the hours and hours of entertainment, and to Jena for the cowboy hat dancing and delicious emo angst! *MWAH*

  The staff and owners of Mary Catherine’s Bakery in Annville. Thanks for the space to sit, the coffee to drink and the encouraging words.

  Special thanks to Mary Louise Schwartz of the Belfrey Literary Agency for believing in me, and to Susan Pezzack for giving me the chance to share this book with the world.

  And to all of my family and friends who supported me, but most particularly my mother, Emily, for supporting my dreams since childhood, my father, Don, for helping to shape the person I’ve become and my sister, Whitney, for being not just my sister but my best friend.

  Chapter 01

  This is what happened.

  I met him at the candy store. He turned around and smiled at me. I was surprised enough to smile back.This was not a children’s candy store. This was Sweet Heaven, an upscale, gourmet candy store. No cheap lollipops or chalky chocolate kisses, but the kind of place you went to buy expensive, imported truffles for your boss’s wife because you felt guilty for fucking him when you were both at a conference in Milwaukee.

  He was buying jellybeans, black only. He looked at the bag in my hand, candy-coated chocolate. Also in one color.

  “You know what they say about the green ones.” The rakish tilt of his lips tried to charm me, and I resisted.

  “St. Patrick’s Day?” Which was why I was buying them.

  He shook his head. “No. The green ones make you horny.”

  I’d been hit on plenty of times, mostly by men with little finesse who thought what was between their legs made up for what they lacked between their ears. Sometimes I went home with one of them anyway, just because it felt good to want and be wanted, even if it was mostly fake and they usually disappointed.

  “That’s an urban legend made up by adolescent boys with wish-fulfillment issues.”

  His lips tilted further. His smile was his best asset, brilliant and shining in a face made up of otherwise regular features. He had hair the color of wet sand and cloudy blue-green eyes; both attractive, but when paired with the smile…breathtaking.

  “Very good answer,” he said.

  He held out his hand. When I took it, he pulled me closer, step by hesitant step, until he could lean close and whisper in my ear. His hot breath gusted along my skin, and I shivered. “Do you like licorice?”

  I did, and I do, and he tugged me around the corner to reach inside a bin filled with small black rectangles. It had a label with a picture of a kangaroo on the front.

  “Try this.” He lifted a piece to my lips and I opened for him although the sign clearly said No Samples. “It’s from Australia.”

  The licorice smoothed on my tongue. Soft, fragrant, sticky in a way that made me run my tongue along my teeth. I tasted his fingers from where they’d brushed my lips. He smiled.

  “I know a little place,” he said, and I let him take me there.

  The Slaughtered Lamb. A gruesome name for a nice little faux-British pub tucked down an alley in the center of downtown Harrisburg. Compared to the trendy dance clubs and upscale restaurants that had revitalized the area, the Lamb seemed out of place and all the more delightful for it.He sat us at the bar, away from the college students singing karaoke in the corner. The stools wobbled, and I had to hold tight to the bar. I ordered a margarita.

  “No.” The shake of his head had me raising a brow. “You want whiskey.”

  “I’ve never had whiskey.”

  “A virgin.” On another man the comment would have come off smarmy, earned a roll of the eyes and an automatic addition to the “not with James Dean’s prick” file.

  On him, it worked.

  “A virgin,” I agreed, the word tasting unfamiliar on my tongue as though I hadn’t used it in a very long time.

  He ordered us both shots of Jameson Irish Whiskey, and he drank his back as one should do with shots, in one gulp. I am no stranger to drinking, even if I’d never had whiskey, and I matched him without a grimace. There’s a reason it’s also known as firewater, but after the initial burn the taste of it spread across my tongue and reminded me of the smell of burning leaves. Cozy. Warm. A little romantic, even.

  His gaze brightened. “I like the way you put that down the back of your throat.”

  I was instantly, immediately, insanely aroused.

  “Another?” said the ’tender.

  “Another,” my companion agreed. To me he said, “Very good.”

  The compliment pleased me, and I wasn’t sure why impressing him had become so important.

  We drank there for a while, and the whiskey hit me harder than I thought it would. Or perhaps the company made me giddy enough to giggle at his subtle but charming observations about the people around us.

  The woman in the business suit in the corner was an off-duty call girl. The man in the leather jacket, a mortician. My companion wove stories about everyone around us including our good-natured bartender, whom he said had the look of a retired gumdrop farmer.

  “Gumdrops don’t come from farms.” I leaned forward to touch his tie, which featured a pattern that upon first glance appeared to be the normal sort of dots and crosses many men wore. I, however, had noticed the dots and crosses were tiny skulls and crossbones.

  “No?” He seemed disappointed I wouldn’t play along.

  “No.” I tugged his tie and looked up into the blue-green eyes that had begun vying with his smile for best feature. “They’re harvested in the wild.”

  He guffawed, tilting his head back with the force of it. I envied him the free and easy way he gave in to the impulse to laugh. I’d have been afraid people would stare.

  “And you,” he said at last. His gaze pinned me, held me in place. “What are you?”

  “Gumdrop poacher,” I whispered through whiskey-numb lips.

  He reached to twirl a strand of hair that had fallen free from my long French braid. “You don’t look that dangerous, to me.”

  We looked at each other, two strangers, and shared a smile, and I thought how long it had been since I’d done that. “Want to walk me home?”

  He did.

  He didn’t attempt to make love to me that night, which didn’t surprise me. He didn’t try to fuck me, either, which did. He didn’t even kiss me, though I hesitated before putting my keys in the door and smiled and chatted with him before saying good-