Her body trembles from my touch and I have to catch her from collapsing. “I like it so f**king much, Kellan.” I pull her face closer to mine and rub my lip ring over her bottom lip. She lets out a cry of pleasure before opening her mouth and licking my bottom lip then sucking the ring into her mouth.

I’m so f**king hot right now that all I want to do is make her scream again, to feel her pu**y clamp tight around my dick. I push her down flat on her stomach before placing my body weight above her with my left leg bent at the knee, pressed against her side. I pump into her slow and deep being sure to give her intense pleasure. She moans beneath me as I move in and out while running my tongue up her back, to her neck, teasing her with my barbell. She seems to like the feel of it against her skin and it’s so f**king hot.

“Kellan,” she moans, making my heart jump. “You feel so good inside me. I want you deeper. Please,” she begs.

Hearing her sound so desperate to have me in her makes me lose it. Placing my hands on her hips, with my toes digging into the blanket, I thrust into her hard and fast while breathing into her ear. “You want me deep, baby?” I thrust deep inside her, filling her completely and stop. “Is that deep enough, huh?” I pull out and thrust again, pushing as deep as I can go while wrapping her hair in my hand and kissing her neck.

She screams and I have to stop myself from coming. I refuse to get off before she does. This is about giving her the only thing I know how. I never want her to forget me. Even when I’m gone.

Without pulling out, I bring myself to my knees, then rest on my heels, while bringing her body with mine so she’s riding me. I run my hands along her hips, then up her sides, admiring her body. She’s so beautiful. I want this moment forever. I want to feel myself inside her while I take in her f**king beauty.

She starts moving up and down on my c**k as I reach up and undo her bra. She stops to let me slide her bra off before she slowly and teasingly moves up, sliding my dick all the way out of her pu**y before slowly riding her way back down. “I love your pu**y. It feels so damn good. It’s the best I’ve ever had.”

I reach around her, cupping her left breast in my hand, teasing her nipple with my fingers. “Kellan,” she says breathless. “I’m about to come. I’m about to explode with you buried deep inside me. I always imagined you feeling this good.”

Oh shit! She’s imagined me f**king her? I can’t hold in much longer. It’s so hot me thinking about her imagining my dick pounding into her. Fuck it! I need this moment just as much as she does.

I pick her up off my dick and place my hand on her chin so she’ll turn around and face me. “I want to look at you while you come.” I look into her eyes as I guide her down to my lap so her legs are wrapped around my waist. “Look at me while I pleasure you, Phoenix. I want to see how I make you feel. I want to taste it on your lips.”

She wraps her arms around my neck and places her forehead to mine, looking deep into my eyes. I grab her hips and lift her, bringing her down to meet the head of my dick. I rub the head along her wetness before burying it deep inside her, making her moan against my lips.

“I’m going to make you come now,” I whisper.

I thrust in and out slowly, playing with her clit from the tip of my thumb, my other hand wrapped around the back of her head, holding her close to me. It feels so good having her in my arms and a part of me wants this moment to last. She feels so warm and safe, like home. Looking into her eyes, we both moan and I can feel her tightening around me as her body trembles under my touch in an orgasm.

She breaths heavily against my lips and I take her bottom lip in my mouth as I thrust back into her causing her body to shake in pleasure. “Mmm . . . you love my dick, don’t you?” She nods and I am so hot right now, that I’m doing things I would never do. First, I’m having sex without a damn condom and second, I’m about to . . . “Are you on birth control?”

She nods while looking me in the eye and biting her bottom lip. “Fuck! I’m about to come deep inside of you.” I rub my hand over her face while rolling my hips in and out of her. “I’ve never done this before but I can’t imagine not feeling this pleasure to its fullest. I want you to feel all of me.”

I crush my lips against hers, pulling her bottom lip into my mouth and sucking as I bust my load as deep inside her as I can. Holy shit it feels amazing, being deep inside her and letting go. I almost feel free as if I can have more of these moments, but it’s all just bullshit that will never happen. The thought of my load inside her is enough to have me temporary high. I never imagined it would feel so damn good.

She sits on me panting and rubbing her hands though her hair, as she stays zoned in on my eyes like she’s admiring the sight of them and wants to memorize them. I love that, because I’m doing the same to her. A moment like this can never happen again. I messed up big by letting my desire get the best of me.

We sit like that for a few minutes, neither one of us attempting to make the first move to separate our bodies. Feeling the heated skin of her br**sts against my chest is almost enough to make me come again. She’s so sexy and tastes so damn good. She’s everything I’d want if I was good enough to deserve happiness, but I’m not, so I’ll have to be more careful with her for now on.

The sky is dark and silent now. Somewhere in the middle of our own show, the fireworks stopped and either one of us paid attention enough to know. She’s looking around the sky as if she’s afraid they’ll start again or as if they never stopped. When I said I wanted to change this day for her, I didn’t mean this way. I might have just f**ked her up even more.

“I’m sorry, Phoenix.” I brush a strand of hair behind her ear and then lift her up so I can pull out of her. “I didn’t mean to let things get this far. I should have been more careful with you and what you needed today, but I’m f**ked up. Doing things right, just isn’t my thing.”

Her eyes search mine before she cups my face and brings her lips down and just before touching mine she stops and exhales. I thought maybe she was going to kiss me again, but she doesn't and I find myself wishing she would. “It’s not your fault. I wanted it just as bad as you did. I’ve wanted you for as long as I’ve known you, Kellan. I couldn’t stop myself either.”

Her words linger in the air and guilt takes over, making me feel like total shit. I had no idea she liked me over the years. Back then, she was just too young to even think about being attracted to. Yes, she was always pretty and I worried about guys going after her and hurting her, but that’s it. Being Adric’s best friend, it was part of my responsibility to take care of her and to worry, so it came naturally to be pissed when she went on dates. She was fifteen and I was twenty the last time we saw each other. She was starting to grow up and the guys were all over her, but for some reason, she always pushed them away. Now, it all makes sense. It was because of me.