But he didn’t stop walking. His mind clamped down on that refusal like a bulldog’s jaw locking. He was the turtle-bear, and the turtle-bear can’t be stopped. What was the worst that could happen? He could fail? He’d failed before, plenty. He could die? He’d almost died plenty of times now. Sometimes it was scary, sometimes it was terrifying, sometimes it was exhilarating, often it was uncontrollable no matter what you did, right or wrong. You don’t stop and make death a sure thing just because going on might result in death. Kip was a fat miserable disappointment, but he wasn’t a quitter.

He grinned suddenly. A fat miserable disappointment—who had, albeit with lots of qualifiers, killed a king, saved the Prism, and killed a god. Not bad for a fatty. Hell, he’d even outsmarted Andross Guile once.

Odd that he thought of outsmarting Andross Guile as more impressive than killing a god.

The god thing felt like luck, though, or like Orholam had surveyed the field for a suitable tool to keep his Prism alive, and finding none suitable, had picked up Kip because he was closest.

Kip paused.

I treat myself pretty shitty, he thought. I’d never let anyone treat a friend of mine this way.

An hour later, he found a stream. He drank, hoping the water was good. Truth was, he didn’t have much choice. He slowly drank more, waiting to make sure it didn’t make him throw up, and then sipping more. He stood, wishing he had a waterskin.

He caught sight of his green luxin boots. Golly, if only I had some way to make a waterskin!

With a sigh, he drafted a green bag. Magic first, magic always, Kip. He scooped up a great volume of water, then bent the green until it fit comfortably across his back. Drafted straps that fit his shoulders, drafted a belt.

Magic. So useful, it’s like … magic.

“Talking to this madman is making me crazy!” Kip said.

Funny. You’ll know you’re almost finished when you forget it’s supposed to be ironic.

He decided while he was walking, he could catch up on all the practica he’d missed. Unfortunately, at his level, the Blackguard training had consisted almost purely of hand-to-hand combat, the idea being that such was the foundation for all their future training. On the ships traveling to Ruic Head, they’d been taught proper grips and basic handling of swords and how to reload muskets. The other new Blackguard inductees already knew it all. Some of them had been training with weapons for years. Some were proficient with bows and other weapons that Kip had barely even picked up. He was way, way behind.

But I can go green golem.

Fat lot of good that does me now.

He felt like the coast was swooping out to a point, but looking at the sun alone wasn’t enough to confirm his suspicions. His classmate Ben-hadad had once said that he’d learned to draft a sextant so he would never be lost. Of course, you still needed a compass, too, and while you could draft a housing and a medium on which to float a bit of philosophers’ stone, there was no such thing as lodestone luxin. Some things still had to be done the hard way.

And easy or hard, Kip didn’t have any of the skills that would have saved him. This was what losing one game of Nine Kings had cost him—his grandfather had forbidden Kip to attend practica.

Kip was trying to intuit what others had studied for generations. Well? Am I a genius of magic, or not?

Wait! Why am I messing about thinking about sextants and compasses and waterskins? I should be making a skimmer. He’d seen it done. He’d even helped propel one.

But a failure with a complicated device like the skimmer would leave him in the middle of the sea, with no way to get out. Kip could float, but it wasn’t like he was going to drift to Big Jasper, and if he tried Gavin’s jetting trick to swim, he’d break the halo before he got halfway there.

I can draft all these colors. It’s as if I’ve got a toolbox full of every imaginable tool, and I’m too stupid to use them.

Too ignorant, perhaps, a kinder voice answered him.

It was true. You wouldn’t blame a savage for the fact that he can’t read.

But you wouldn’t trust him with reading you letters, either.

The light began to fade, and Kip turned his mind to different problems. He found a clean area of the beach, just at the edge, where the palm trees gave him shelter. He took off his water pack. Staring at the darkening sky, he gathered enough blue to draft a blue luxin box with a single hole in the top, and sealed it. Then, standing on the beach facing the sinking sun, he gathered as much red as he could, patiently, slowly. The passions of red flooded through him, but he ignored them and simply filled the blue box. He filled the box full with the version of red luxin called pyrejelly.

He hadn’t been thinking clearly, and by the time the box was full there wasn’t enough heat coming from the sun to give Kip sub-red. He’d need to light his fire manually. It took him half an hour in the fading light to find a rock that looked like flint.

He banged rocks together for another half hour. Nothing sparked. He wanted to scream. He hitched his pants up and sat, rubbing his face. He tightened his belt, and saw that he was past the last, tightest hole. Not six months ago, he’d been at the loosest hole on the belt, praying he didn’t get any fatter because he didn’t know where he’d get the money or the leather for a new belt. All the rest of his clothing had been replaced at the Chromeria, but it had seemed wasteful to get rid of his belt. Besides, his mother had given it to him, during one of her rare sober spells.

Kip pulled the belt off. One of the flints had a sharp point that he could use to scratch out a new hole.

He looked at the buckle. The metal buckle. If he could punch himself in the stupid, he would knock it to Sun Day. Kip scratched the buckle against the flint he’d found, and wonder of wonders, it sparked. He lit the pyrejelly with no problem. It burned nicely. Kip sat and pulled his water pack to himself as the stars came out. Maybe some water would take the edge off his hunger.

The green luxin pack was sealed. Kip hadn’t drafted any way to open it. If it had been light out, he could have drafted more green and simply opened the green luxin and re-drafted it shut. Instead, he had to treat it as a purely physical object.

He wanted to cry. Or scream. Or throw a fit. Instead, eventually, Kip dug a hole in a weak part of the water bag with the sharp flint. Holding the pack over his head, he was able to drink from the warm stream of water until he filled himself.

Kip’s lamp guttered as the pyrejelly burned below the level of the hole. With no wick to pull the jelly up to the air, the fire starved and went out. Kip looked at it like it had personally betrayed him. He could smash the blue lamp holding the jelly, of course. He’d not made it very thick. But then the pyrejelly would burn off in perhaps a half an hour. If Kip had his spectacles, he could use that firelight to—he didn’t. Those were back on the ship. He’d not been wearing the lens holster the night Gavin had almost been killed.

He took that dagger for me. Kip had thought that Gavin liked him, approved of him like you approve of a well-trained pet. A sane man might risk danger to save his dog, but only an idiot would die for a dog, right? Gavin Guile was no idiot. He knew his worth in the scheme of things, and things couldn’t have been going better for him—he’d just married Karris, just turned a decisive defeat at the hands of the Color Prince into a narrow victory. Kip had seen it in his eyes, as Kip had revealed Andross was a red wight and attacked him. Gavin had known. Known about his father, for one. He’d shown no surprise. He’d been keeping that card in his hand, to play at the right time. And Kip had shouted it out to the world—Kip the Lip, saying exactly what he thought, speaking without thinking, endangering plans he couldn’t even fathom.