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  I didn’t realize I had agreed to anything. The two mothers turn toward the bulletin board to look at the chart of available high-end cabins, ignoring us both. I can’t believe that in the span of half an hour I went from jumping for joy over the possibility of discovering that we are not alone in the universe, to feeling like all the air has been sucked out of my body. I know I should cry, should be screaming to the rafters at the unfairness of it all, but I’m just numb. It feels so unreal.

  I turn on my heel and Bree follows me. We don’t speak as I lead her around to the front of the house. As we’re about to enter, Ryan approaches from the other side. “Hey, Ally!” he says, heading toward us. He stops short when he sees Bree. I swear his mouth drops open a bit. Bree just stands there, lids half closed like she’s bored, while he looks her up and down. I guess Bree is what a hottie looks like. She probably doesn’t realize how pretty she is. Ryan doesn’t even notice that my hand is shaking so hard on the doorknob that the whole door rattles on its hinges.

  “I’ll see you at dinner, Ryan, okay?” Not waiting for an answer, I herd Bree inside and upstairs. Kenny must still be at Alien Central. If I see him I’m going to have to run the other way.

  When we get to my room she takes it in with one glance, then throws herself down on my bed. Good thing I had actually made the bed today. This morning seems like a lifetime ago. “You’re SO lucky you’re getting out of here,” she says, staring at the ceiling. “It’s like you’re getting sprung from jail. I can’t even BELIEVE this is my life now.”

  I can’t believe I heard her correctly. I can feel the heat rise to my face. “Jail? I’m lucky to be leaving? You’re lucky to be coming! The Moon Shadow is the best place on the planet to live. And I can’t believe this is your life now, either. This is supposed to be MY life.”

  She bolts upright. “I totally don’t want your life. Trust me on that one. I don’t mean to be rude or anything, but you’re crazy! Why would anyone want to live out here? There’s nothing to do.”

  “I don’t mean to be rude either,” I reply, choosing my words carefully, “but there’s EVERYTHING to do here. Everything that matters, anyway.”

  Bree stares at me for so long I start to feel uncomfortable. In my own room! I turn away and start pulling things out of my drawers that might fit her. Everything looks drab and ragged next to her clothes. I never noticed my clothes were so dull before.

  “Look,” Bree says, her voice a little less cold. “You obviously like this place, for reasons I can’t personally imagine. I really, really don’t want to live here. Maybe we can work together.”

  I close my drawer and turn to face her. “What do you mean?”

  She sits up on the bed. “Like we can make a plan. You know, to get our parents to change their minds. Like they did in The Parent Trap.”

  “The what?”

  She looks at me like I’m from outer space. “The Disney movie?”

  I shake my head.

  She sighs. “It’s this movie about these two twins who were separated at birth, each to live with one parent. They meet up at summer camp and decide to scheme to get their parents back together. Don’t you get cable up here?”

  “We don’t have a television.”

  Her eyes become huge. She groans and flops forward on the bed again, pressing her face into my blanket.

  “And, um, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but we’re not twins.”

  “I’ve noticed,” Bree says, her voice muffled. “That’s not the point. Are you in, or not?”

  “Do you really think it would work?”

  “It HAS to work,” she says, pushing herself up. “It just HAS to. I will shrivel up and die if I have to live here. No offense.”

  “Uh-huh.” Clearly I’m going to have to let remarks like that go if we’re going to be working together. “Okay,” I tell her. “Let’s do it.”

  “Good!” she says. She whips out a cell phone, presses some keys, and stares at the screen. “Wait, why isn’t my text going through?”

  “No reception up here.”

  “What?” she practically shrieks. “How will I call anyone? How will I text my friends?”

  I shrug and leave to get her a towel from the hall closet. I don’t understand how “texting” works or why someone would want to do it. But I don’t want her to think I’m even more out of the loop than I obviously am. I grab the softest towel from the hall closet. I should tell her that she can bathe in the hot springs behind the house if she wants, instead of the boring shower. She’d probably jump at the chance, because who wouldn’t? It’s always warm, and there’s lots of privacy. But I don’t want to share the hot springs with her. In fact, I don’t really want to share anything with her. This makes me feel guilty, because Mom and Dad taught us that the planet and everything on it (and above it, like the stars, and below it, like the springs) is meant to be shared. But still!

  When I come back to the room Bree is facedown on the bed again, her body shaking with tiny sobs. I tip-toe back out and close the door. I wish I could understand why someone wouldn’t want to live here, but I can’t. A flood of images makes me lean back onto the door for support. The labyrinth with its graceful, peaceful circles, the Art House where hundreds of guests over the years have painted their life stories on the walls, the Sun Garden with its magical way of turning shafts of light into time. And then it hits me with such force that I almost can’t breathe—I won’t be able to see the constellations in the city! The light pollution will blot out almost everything. Instead of the full glory of Orion, with his sword and his shield, all I’ll be able to see are the three stars of his belt. I might not even see the Big Dipper or the North Star. Without the North Star, how will I know where I am? Stickers of the solar system on my ceiling aren’t going to cut it.

  I drop the towel on the bathroom counter, hold tight to the pouch around my neck, and weep.

  BREE

  4

  I was wrong. This place isn’t Purgatory. It’s the other place. The hot one with the pitchforks and the flames and the ragged clothes. I already have three bites on each ankle. Once I took my shower (which turned lukewarm only minutes after stepping in), I went back to Ally’s room and have refused to leave it. Believe me, there’s not much to look at, and I’ve looked at everything. Many times. If anyone asked me, I could probably tell them the shapes of all those blobs on the poster on her door. According to the poster, which I’ve now read at least fifty times, the blobs are galaxies and clusters and nebulae out in space somewhere. I’ve heard of galaxies of course, but have no idea what the others are, and I don’t want to know. Anything science-related belongs to the rest of my family. They don’t think about how to dress (although they really should), and I don’t think about anything scientific. It’s just how it is.

  It had taken a while to find something of Ally’s that I could wear. Everything was so . . . bland. It looked like it had all been washed together so many times it had blended into one shade of grayish-blue. Everything was loose fitting, and I finally selected a pair of shorts (which are probably long on her but are short on me) and the t-shirt with the most color left in it.

  I feel like I’m wearing pajamas.

  I do my daily fifty sit-ups, wishing with every one that I was lying on the soft pink carpet in my bedroom instead of Ally’s unforgiving wooden floor.

  My stomach tells me it’s dinnertime, but I still can’t make myself leave the room. As long as I stay in here, I can pretend I’m in a classmate’s bedroom back at home. Some unfortunate girl who just moved to town and didn’t know how to decorate. I’m here because we got stuck doing a history project together. Any minute her mother will bring us milk and cookies and I’ll politely tell her I don’t eat cookies.

  But when a knock does come on the door, it’s Ally. She sticks her head in and says, “Can I come in?”

  “It’s your room.”

  Ally comes in and sits at her desk chair. Her eyes are puffy. For some reason that makes me feel a little