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My tongue finds hers, but she pulls away, shielding her mouth with her hand and complaining of morning breath. "I don't care about our morning breath," I whisper. And I don't. I kiss her greedily.

  I cup her breast and Addy melts against me, her voice breathy when she speaks. "I want you inside me, Hendrix," she whispers. She's wet when I reach between her legs and the fact that she wants me, even after last night, makes me irrepressibly happy.

  I reach for a condom on the bedside table, and I'm on top of her, inside her quickly. I don't want to be anywhere but inside her. Addy wraps her legs around me, pulling me tighter, arms around my neck as she brings her lips to mine. "More, Hendrix, more," she whispers, and I give her more, riding her until she's swollen around me, her pussy demanding.

  I don't speak, no dirty-talk of fucking her or how much I want to come inside her. She's quiet, the only noise now the sound of her moans, louder in the morning stillness until she cries out my name. "Oh God, Hendrix!"

  I tilt her jaw up toward me so I can watch her come, the face she makes one of complete ecstasy. When I finally let go, it's white-hot pleasure as I come inside her. Afterward, I don't move. I just stay there in her, watching her chest make little heaving movements as she catches her breath. She puts her hand against my face, and I close my eyes, turn against her palm, into her soft touch.

  We lay there in the bed for what seems like an eternity. "I tried to email you a thousand times," she said. "When you were gone."

  I nod, stroking her hair. "Me too," I lie. I never tried to email. But how do I tell her I wrote her a thousand letters I never sent? It seems like too little, too late.

  She's quiet for longer, like she's gathering her thoughts, and when she speaks, her voice is soft. "What happened last night, it was about your deployment, right?"

  "Yeah," I admit. "I don't know what to say, Addy. I froze up. It doesn't make me the best bodyguard."

  Addy grins. "Schtupping the client doesn't make you the greatest bodyguard either, you know."

  I can't help but laugh. "Fine," I agree. "I'm a shit bodyguard."

  "You're the worst," she says, giggling.

  We're silent for a minute, lying in the bed, and I reach out and run my finger absently down her arm. I don't want to stop touching her. "You're so… light, Addy," I tell her. Each word I speak makes me feel like I'm risking everything. "I don't want to contaminate you with my bullshit."

  Addy raises an eyebrow. "You think I'm naïve."

  "I think…" My voice trails off as I trace a finger lazily down the middle of her cleavage. "Sometimes I think darkness is the only thing I brought back from that place." I don't know how to tell her about any of it, because I don't understand it myself.

  I don't drink, don't do drugs, don't do anything most people would look at and point and say, he's falling apart. But I run toward things that are dangerous, things that could destroy me – literally, during my morning runs. I pick fights and don't care what happens. I'm worried my self-destruction will spread, that it will destroy her. How do you put something like that into words?

  "Maybe," she says quietly. "But I guess that's why light exists – to illuminate the dark places."

  Then I roll her over on top of me, and she kisses me, and nothing else matters but her.

  ONE YEAR, ELEVEN MONTHS AGO

  A wave of heat hits me the second I step off the helicopter. "Whoa," I say.

  The Airman next to me chuckles. "It takes some getting used to, ma'am."

  "It's like being inside an oven," I say. "Is it like this all the time?"

  "Hot as hell now, freezing cold in the winter," he says. "Welcome to Bagram Air Force Base."

  I'm in Afghanistan against my mother's expressed wishes, but I had a gap in my schedule and even she could reluctantly agree that it would be good publicity. A nice side bonus of the trip was that there was no way short of Hell itself freezing over that my mother would join me.

  But I didn't do this to get away from my mother, although my motives were, I admit, partly selfish. The non-selfish part of me wanted to do a USO tour so I could give something back to the people serving over here.

  The selfish part of me missed Hendrix. Present tense, actually -- misses Hendrix. I don't know how you can miss someone you hate so much, how you can loathe someone yet crave them with every fiber of your being, but I do. My mother wanted to arrange a meeting between Hendrix and I, something that would play well on television, go viral on social media -- a dramatic reunion between the country star on her USO tour and her Marine stepbrother. The Colonel said it was a stupid waste of resources, flying Hendrix in from wherever-the-hell he is out in Afghanistan just to see me. When he mentioned that it would be dangerous for Hendrix and whoever was with him to travel, convoy from wherever they were just to catch a plane to see me, I refused to let anyone get in touch with his unit.

  Part of me still fantasizes that I'll walk out on the stage tonight, and Hendrix will be there in the crowd, smiling at me with that cocky grin. It's naive, a stupid wish, and even though I know it is, a little piece of me is crushed when it doesn't happen.

  PRESENT DAY

  In the back of the limo, Hendrix slides his hand between my legs, and I swat it away. "Seriously," I whisper. "We're almost at the studio. Don't even try it."

  He laughs. "Make sure you mention in the interview how totally full of yourself you are," he whispers. "Because I wasn't even attempting to get it on with you."

  "Whatever, dude. You're always trying to put your…" My voice trails off and I glance at the tinted mirror that separates us from the driver.

  Hendrix puts his mouth close to my ear and it gives me chills when his breath tickles my skin. "Cock?" he asks. "Put my cock in your warm wet pussy?"

  He says the words, and it's like an automatic response – I'm immediately wet. "Stop," I order, sliding to the other side of the seat. "Behave."

  "Yes, ma'am," he says. But he's chuckling under his breath.

  I stick my tongue out at him, and he grins at me. "Careful sticking your tongue out like that, sweet cheeks," he says softly. "Or I'll give you something to lick."

  "Right here in the limo?" I ask. "You wouldn't dare."

  Hendrix starts unbuckling his pants, and I squeal, louder than I mean to, and the driver cracks the window, asking if I'm okay. Hendrix, of course, is the epitome of angelic.

  "Yes, I'm fine," I say, glaring at Hendrix as the window goes back up.

  Hendrix takes my hand and presses it against the front of his pants, showing me his hardness. I should snatch my hand away, but I let it linger there a moment too long. When the car comes to an abrupt stop, I jerk my hand away and look out the window, feigning innocence. Feigning professionalism.

  What the hell happened to my professionalism, anyway? I'm a giant ball of need and want and desire, preoccupied with Hendrix. We're like two high school kids, unquenchable in our thirst for each other. I'm surprised my lust for him isn't written all over my face, visible for the entire world to read.

  At least, I hope it's not.

  I watch him sometimes when he sleeps. He doesn't know, but I watch him as he dreams, his sleep fitful. He hasn't told me what he dreams about, and I haven't asked. But my heart hurts for him.

  On the television set, the reporter asks me questions, easy ones about my album and last year's tour. "You recently auctioned off your entire closet and raised half a million dollars for a veteran's organization."

  "It's hard to believe I had that many clothes," I say, suddenly embarrassed. It was little more than a decade ago that my mom could barely afford to buy us sneakers. Now I'm wearing thousand-dollar shoes.

  "Some people have criticized the move as a blatant act of consumerism, cleaning out the old to make way for the new."

  "I –" I pause for a moment. I'm supposed to stick to the script, talk about how veteran's issues have always been important to me, about how I wanted to make a donation that was personally important and not just write a check. Hendrix stands on the side of the