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  She leaned into him, burying herself against his chest, taking refuge in the protective strength of the arms around her, and letting him comfort her. He murmured low, soothing words against her head as he gently rocked her sobs away. Gradually, the breath returned to her lungs and the panicked race of her pulse began to slow.

  It was just a horrible dream, a return of one of the nightmares that had haunted her for years after that horrible day. There were different versions, including the one she’d just had where the soldier was raping her mother, and she kept hitting him over and over but he wouldn’t die. Another was of Cate in the well, starving and dying of thirst. All the joy and relief she experienced when she heard the rescuers turned to horror when the face that looked down at her wasn’t Gregor’s, but the soldier’s. The worst was the nightmare that actually happened, the replaying in her mind of those hideous seconds of her mother’s death, in slow, precise detail.

  She thought she’d rid herself of the nightmares for good, but all it took was seeing that man today to bring them back. Deep down, she knew they wouldn’t be gone until the soldier paid for what he’d done.

  Suddenly, angry at herself for the weakness, she drew back from the wall of Gregor’s chest—his bare chest, as she was just noticing—dabbing her eyes on the sleeve of her linen chemise. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me.”

  He released her. “You had a nightmare.”

  His gaze turned to the open doorway. Her embarrassment increased tenfold. It seemed like half the household was standing on the small landing outside her room. In the stream of light coming from the torch mounted outside her chamber she could see the concerned faces of Ete, Lizzie, Pip, and two of Gregor’s guardsmen, Bryan and Cormac.

  “It’s all right,” Gregor said. “Return to your rooms. I have her.”

  I have her. Though she knew it meant nothing, her heart tugged sharply nonetheless.

  The light dimmed as the crowd dispersed. Gregor stood to light a candle from the brazier, taking the time to add another block of peat to the fire. Before returning to sit beside her on the bed, he closed the door.

  Suddenly self-conscious, she felt her cheeks grow hot under his steady gaze. The temperature in the room seemed to have shot from the dead of winter to the height of summer in a few seconds. She was hot, and she knew it wasn’t from the peat; it was from the intimacy of being alone with him in her small bedchamber. Of course, the broad, muscular chest shimmering in the candlelight that seemed to fill every inch of her vision wasn’t helping matters.

  Good gracious, how did it get so defined like that? There didn’t appear to be any spare flesh on the man of which to speak. She could count the lines crossing his stomach, for heaven’s sake.

  He truly was magnificent.

  But he didn’t care about her. Reminding herself what had happened earlier—and his plan to be rid of her—she pursed her mouth and forced her eyes from the fever-inducing display of muscle.

  “I’m fine,” she said briskly. “I’m sorry for waking you. You can go back to bed now.”

  He took her chin between his thumb and forefinger, lifting her gaze to his. “I’m not going anywhere. You’re still shaking.” She was, she realized. “Christ, I’m still shaking. You scared the hell out of me. You sounded like you were in agony.” She had been. The agony of being helpless to do anything as your mother was raped and murdered before your eyes. “The soldier?” he asked.

  She nodded.

  “Do you want to talk about it?”

  She stared into those gorgeous green eyes, felt her heart swell, and then shook her head. The soldier was the last thing she wanted to talk about. Not when Gregor was holding her like this. It might be the last chance she ever had.

  The air in the room seemed to change. It grew sharper and filled with a strange buzz. His eyes darkened, and his voice, when it came, deepened. “What do you want, sweetheart? Tell me how I can make it better.”

  Sweetheart. Her heart thudded. It was the second time he’d called her that. He never used endearments with her—never. Did it mean something? Was the tenderness in his eyes a trick of the candlelight, or could she trust what she was seeing?

  There was one way to find out. She told him the truth. “I want you to hold me in your arms and kiss me. I want you to make me forget.”

  Gregor stilled, cursing himself for a damned fool. What the hell had he expected? He knew better than to ask a question to which he didn’t want to hear the answer. But there she was in his arms—practically sitting on his lap—with her big, dark eyes wide and shimmering with tears, her face still pale and stricken by the tortured memories of her nightmare, looking more vulnerable than he’d seen her in a long time, and he’d never felt so bloody helpless in his life. He would have done anything to make it better. Anything to wrench those memories from her mind and allow her to forget. So he’d asked his fool question.

  God’s breath, she had no idea what she was asking of him. Kiss me. Make me forget. As if it were that easy, when just looking at her gazing up at him made his pulse race and his blood feel like something churning in a volcano. He wanted to do a hell of a lot more than kiss her. A whole hell of a lot more. And he didn’t trust himself to touch her. He, the man who never lost control and always knew exactly what he was doing in the bedchamber, realized he was looking at the woman who could break him.

  Every instinct in his body was standing on edge shouting Warning!, telling him that kissing her in the broad daylight was bad enough; he’d be mad to do so in a darkened chamber, alone, with both of them barely clothed.

  But she needed him, damn it. How could he refuse?

  Easily. But he didn’t want to. God knew, he needed to forget, too. The memory of her scream was too fresh. His blood had run cold. An icy sheen of panic had raced over his skin. He’d thought someone was hurting her, and it had left him weakened, stripped bare, without his usual defenses.

  Aye, that was the only explanation for how easily he succumbed to her siren’s call. How willingly his lips touched hers, even when he knew how hard it would be to pull away.

  He could do this, he told himself. Just a kiss to make her forget …

  But it was he who forgot every damned thing in his head the moment his mouth touched hers. His senses exploded. All he wanted to do was sink into her and never let go.

  How was it possible that anything could feel this good? Her lips were just as sweet and soft as he remembered. So pliant and … open.

  Ah hell, before he could stop himself, his tongue was in her mouth again, and he was giving her those long, deep strokes that made him think of swiving. Lots and lots of swiving. Sweaty-limbs-in-tangled-bedsheets kind of swiving. All he’d have to do was lay her back, untie the braies he’d thrown on, lift her chemise, and he could be inside her. Deep inside her. Plunging in and out in the same frantic rhythm of his tongue. He was hard as a spike just thinking about it.

  She was so sweet, so incredibly hot …

  His arm tightened around her back, drawing her closer. He felt the bead of her nipples against his chest, and just like that, the barely controlled kiss was gone, replaced by the hungry, swirling maelstrom of need that devoured his good intentions and spit them out like the pile of shite that they were.

  There was no such thing as “just a kiss” when it came to Cate. He wanted her in a way that he’d never wanted another woman, with an intensity that snapped the steely reins of his control as if they were a few brittle strands of thread. He didn’t understand it, didn’t really want to examine it—it was just the way it was.

  He slid his fingers through her silky hair, cradling the back of her head to plunder her mouth more fully. She responded with a low moan and an insistent press of her chest that went straight to his bollocks and tugged—hard—with a primal urgency that didn’t want to listen to reason or honor or any other excuse for not taking this kiss to its natural conclusion.

  She wasn’t making it easy on him to do the right thing. Cate was kissing him b