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  For now.

  Nine

  Faith was dripping wet and shaking with both cold and reaction when she reached her car. Her hands trembled as she tried to fit the key into the lock, and it took her several tries before she succeeded. Crawling in, she collapsed against the steering wheel, pressing her forehead hard against the cold vinyl. Idiot! she thought violently. Fool!

  She had to have been insane to give in to the craving to kiss him. Now he knew; she couldn’t hide it from him any longer. For the sake of a few moments of pleasure, she had let him see her weakness, and now he knew that she wanted him. Humiliation burned in her face, ate like acid at her insides. She knew his nature very well, having firsthand experience of his ruthlessness. He was a predator, and the first hint of weakness would draw him straight in for the kill.

  He wouldn’t rest now until he’d had her; the occasional suggestive remark would become full-fledged attempts at seduction, and what had just happened proved that she couldn’t trust her common sense to resist him. Where he was concerned, she didn’t have any common sense. Horror filled her at the thought of being casually used and discarded, as if she were a sexual Kleenex. He thought of her as her mother’s clone, a slut willing to spread her legs for anyone who had the equipment—and from what she’d felt, he had more than his share—while she ached for him, her childhood infatuation having changed into a very adult yearning. She wanted nothing more than to be loved by him, to be free to open the floodgates on her own dammed-up reservoir of love; he would turn that dream into a bitter nightmare, using her weakness for him as a means to hurt her, reduce her to being, after all, another Devlin whore for a Rouillard to use.

  As much as she wanted to stay in Prescott, she would rather leave than live with that humiliation, to see contempt in his eyes when he looked at her, as she had seen it once before. His words echoed in her mind, a refrain that she had heard many times over the years: You’re trash. The phrase was branded on her subconscious, surfacing every so often to taunt her.

  No. She couldn’t live through that again.

  But for a few minutes, she had been in heaven. His arms had been around her and she had been free to touch him, to stroke his shoulders, thrust her fingers into the thick, silky tail of hair gathered at the nape of his neck. What would he look like with his hair loose, hanging to his shoulders? Or damp with sweat, and swinging forward as he bent over her, his face tight with passion—

  She moaned, aching with a sweet pain that only he could ease. She had never been promiscuous; she had been a virgin when she’d married Kyle, and he was the only man with whom she’d ever made love. Her chastity, however, reflected her horror of being like Renee, with all the ugly association of being the town whore, rather than a lack of interest in the act itself. She loved making love, loved the feel of a man inside her, loved the scents and sounds, the tangled sweatiness. As her grief at Kyle’s death had eased, her hunger for sexual contact had grown, intensified by her own restraint. She simply couldn’t bring herself to have sex purely for the physical release, and after Kyle’s death she hadn’t wanted emotional involvement, either. She had gone four years without being held, without being kissed, until Gray had taken her in his arms and briefly opened the door to paradise.

  There was a hot earthiness in him that fanned the banked coals of her own sexual fire. He had been as hard as a rock, and blatant about it. He had wanted her to feel him, had deliberately pulled her into him, lifted her to push the hard ridge of his erection against her mound. They had been on a public street, in daylight, but that hadn’t stopped him. Even though this was New Orleans, where such things might not be all that unusual, she had never before done anything like that. She had always gone out of her way to avoid even the appearance of impropriety. Respectability, responsibility, were too important to her for her to allow herself to be publicly fondled, yet that was exactly what she had done.

  When he touched her, she forgot everything else but the hot joy of being in his arms. Despairing, she wondered if she would have stopped him even if he had done more, or if she would have let herself be taken there in the street like the lowest of whores, oblivious to decency, modesty, even legality. Her face burned at the thought of being arrested for public lewdness, or whatever it was called. Acute stupidity would be a better term.

  It would never have happened with anyone but Gray. With no one else would she have lost herself so completely.

  She sat motionless in the car, watching the rain beat down in sheets beyond the concrete pillars of the public parking garage, and let appalled realization seep into her mind. Perhaps she had always sensed the truth, but pushed it away. She couldn’t hide from the full reach of reality any longer.

  She had loved Kyle, enjoyed sleeping with him, but it was as if only half of her had been involved. There had always been this other part of herself that was set aside, and belonged, irrevocably, to Gray. She had cheated Kyle; perhaps he had never known, and granted, their marriage had been in trouble because of his drinking, but still she should never have married him without loving him wholeheartedly. In the back of her mind had always been the thought that she would remarry someday, but now she knew that she couldn’t; she couldn’t cheat another man. There was only one man whom she could love completely, heart and soul and body, nothing held back, and that was Gray Rouillard. And he was the one man to whom she didn’t dare give herself, because he would destroy her.

  • • •

  When the rain stopped, Gray walked back to his hotel and went up to his suite, where he made one phone call, to Dallas. “Truman, look something up for me. You have a city directory, don’t you? See if there’s a Faith Hardy listed in it.”

  He crossed his legs at the ankle, his feet propped on the coffee table, and waited while his friend and business associate thumbed through the massive volume. A moment later the Texas accent twanged in his ear. “I got two Faith Hardys, and about ten other Hardys with the first initial F.”

  “Any of them F. D. Hardy?”

  “Ah . . . no. There’s an F. C. and an F. G., but not an F. D.”

  “Occupations?”

  “Let’s see. One’s a schoolteacher, one’s retired . . .” Truman ran down the list of occupations. None fit the meager facts Gray had on Faith. Dallas might not be the right city, after all, but it was more likely that Faith had declined to be listed in the city directory.

  “Okay, that’s a dead end, I think. Look up Margot Stanley, M-a-r-g-o-t.”

  Truman snorted. “Are you sure it isn’t M-a-r-g-a-u-x? Isn’t that the way the ‘in’ people spell it these days?”

  “Look up both spellings.”

  There was the sound of more pages being turned, and Truman humming. He paused. “There’s a shit pot full of Stanleys.”

  “Any Margots, of either the American or ‘in’ variety?”

  “Yeah, here’s an American-variety Margot.”

  “Where does she work?”

  “Holladay Travel. Spelled with two /’s and an a.”

  “Cross-reference that, and see if it lists the owner.”

  More humming. “Bingo,” Truman said. “The owner is F. D. Hardy.”

  “Thanks,” Gray said, amused at how easy it had been, after all.

  “Any time.”

  Gray hung up the phone and considered what he had just discovered. Faith owned a travel agency. Good for her, he thought, inexplicably pleased. On a hunch, he dragged the New Orleans phone directory out of the desk and looked through the yellow pages. There it was, in a discreet, tasteful ad: “Holladay Travel—Put the Holiday Back in Your Vacation, and Leave the Worry to Us.”

  So she had at least two offices, and probably more, which explained how she had been able to pay cash for her house. He grinned as he remembered the satisfied little smile on her face when she had thrown his offer to buy the house back in his face. But if she was this prosperous, why did she want to keep it such a secret? Why wasn’t she broadcasting it all over Prescott, to show everyone that a Devlin c