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  By the time he and Leigh celebrated their eleventh wedding anniversary, Logan had succeeded far beyond anyone’s expectations, and Leigh’s theatrical career had made her into an international star. She wanted to start taking more time off between plays and reduce her appearances during a show’s run, but Logan couldn’t understand her logic. No matter how well one of his own ventures did, he was driven to expand, to reinvest in another, often riskier venture. He wouldn’t stop and he couldn’t slow down. His drive to succeed came with an enormous personal cost, and the price to Logan was sixteen-hour workdays, months without even a short vacation, and weeks without making love.

  When one of his smaller gambles failed to pay off shortly after their eleventh wedding anniversary, Logan was so stressed over it that Leigh finally insisted they go for some counseling. The therapist she selected was Dr. Sheila Winters, a stunning thirty-seven-year-old blonde who had built a thriving Park Avenue practice by specializing in the treatment of highly successful, overstressed people, including several acquaintances of Logan’s and Leigh’s.

  To Leigh’s delight, Sheila Winters lived up to her reputation for intelligent insight, humor, and quick creative solutions tailored to the special idiosyncrasies of her illustrious clients.

  After only a few sessions, she prescribed a weekend vacation home as a partial and practical cure for Logan’s inability to relax. “Logan, you’re one of those people who requires a total change of scene in order to get your mind off your work,” the psychiatrist said. “But if you aren’t within easy commuting distance of your office in the city, Leigh will have trouble dragging you away. A beach house on Long Island would provide a nice change of scene, but it’s too close to the city, and too easy for Logan to spend his days at the beach club or on the golf course talking business with the same people he sees in Manhattan during the week.” After a moment’s thought, she told both of them, “If I were you, I’d consider a place somewhere upstate—maybe in the mountains.”

  It had been obvious from the first that Sheila truly liked and admired Logan, and that she somehow empathized with his unwavering desire to succeed, and so it was no real surprise to Leigh when the psychiatrist recommended that Leigh assume most of the responsibility for initiating romance. “Light some candles, turn on soft music, and push him into the shower when he gets home,” she told Leigh with a smile. “He’s smart, he’ll get the idea. He has no sexual problems, other than overwork.”

  She turned and looked sternly at Logan. “For the first few weeks, Leigh will be in charge of reminding you that there’s more to enjoy in life than work, but it’s up to you to make the most of the opportunities for intimacy that she offers you. I understand that achieving great financial success requires enormous dedication and a willingness to take the sort of risks that can occupy all your thoughts. I even admire most of the sacrifices you’ve been willing to make in order to succeed, but it’s a serious mistake to take risks with your marriage to further your financial goals.” The sense of humor that made her particularly popular with her clients suddenly asserted itself. “You know, Logan, men who neglect their wives because they’re too busy making money usually end up with no wife—and with only half their money.”

  Unlike some therapists who refused to see members of a couple separately, Sheila preferred to give her clients a few minutes with her individually before or after each session. At the next session, when Leigh was alone with her, Sheila surprised her by revealing a little bit about herself: “I may seem a little too tolerant of Logan’s driving ambition to succeed, and perhaps I am,” she said. “If so, it’s because I’m from a similar background. According to what you told me, Leigh, you grew up in a family where there was never enough money, but the kids you went to school with weren’t much better off than you. As a result, you didn’t grow up with a profound sense of shame and inferiority because you could never fit in with your peers. Logan and I grew up like that. We’re both from old, respected New York families, and we both went to all the ‘right’ private schools, but after school, we went home to a life that was shabby-genteel at best, and everyone knew it. We couldn’t vacation with our schoolmates, we couldn’t dress like them, or be like them in any way. Psychologically, we’d both have been far better off if we’d gone to public schools and been allowed to hang around with ordinary kids from ordinary families like yours.”

  The session was over and they both stood up. Leigh smiled fondly at her and gave her a quick, impulsive hug. “You could never have been ‘ordinary,’ Sheila.”

  “Thank you. That’s a lovely compliment coming from an extraordinary woman like you.” She turned and looked at the appointment book lying open on her desk. “There’s really no need for you to see me again, but if you could persuade Logan to come a few more times, I’d like to try to relieve him of some of that shame he’s been carrying around since childhood.”

  “I’ll urge him to do that,” Leigh promised.

  It had taken Logan two years to design the weekend retreat of their dreams and then to find the perfect spot for it, but Leigh hadn’t minded that in the least. The endless hours they’d spent talking and planning and revising the drawings had brought them closer together. The weekends they’d spent scouting for just the right location had provided a lovely change of pace for both of them, which was really what Sheila had wanted.

  During that time, something else happened—Logan became even more successful. Several years before, he had branched out from residential architecture to land development and commercial construction, but most of his money had always come from clever investments in other people’s businesses. Suddenly, clients seemed to line up at his doors. He’d added six architects to the four he already employed so that they could do the routine work he didn’t enjoy. He doubled and tripled his prices—and still his clients came back for more, with gigantic checks in hand. Logan said it was because he’d finally learned to stop pushing all the time and to let things come to him. That made sense to Leigh.

  Although she didn’t see Sheila professionally again, Leigh saw her often at social gatherings and charity committee meetings: After one particularly frustrating meeting, the two of them decided to have dinner together, and they ended up laughing and talking for hours. From that encounter a strong friendship had developed, one that included many shared confidences from Sheila as well as Leigh.

  Chapter 18

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  Joe O’Hara had been right—Leigh felt better within minutes of Sheila’s sitting down beside her. Dressed in a chic black wool suit with her blond hair caught up in a smart chignon, Sheila was a breath of fresh, bracing air.

  Matter-of-fact, compassionate, and wise, Sheila listened intently while Leigh told her everything that had happened since early Sunday morning. Leigh managed to do that without breaking down, but when she came to the end—and it was time to go on to the next most obvious topic—she suddenly felt as if a fist were clamping her vocal cords and an ocean of tears were building up behind her eyes. The problem with having unburdened herself to Sheila was that it was now virtually impossible to avoid confronting reality. In agonized silence, Leigh stared helplessly at her friend’s sympathetic expression; then she hastily turned her face away and tried to focus on something else.

  The doorway into a spacious dark-paneled room lined with books stared back at her. Logan used it as his office. The lights were off inside it; it was dark and empty.

  Her life was dark and empty. The light had gone out of it, too.

  Logan was gone.

  He wasn’t coming back.

  She swallowed convulsively, and the words came out like a whisper, wrenched from her soul. “He’s gone, Sheila. He can’t come back.”

  “Why do you say that?”

  Leigh slowly turned her head and looked directly at her friend. “He’s been gone a week. I know that if he were still alive, he’d have found a way to get word to someone by now. You know him.”

  “Yes, I do,” Sheila said firmly. “I also know he