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  That last, perfectly serious remark, startled a shriek of teary laughter from the unpredictable young woman in his arms. “Not of the United States, of a store!” she corrected him, and the gorgeous eyes she raised to his were suddenly swimming with tears of laughter now instead of despair.

  “Thank God for that,” he teased, so eager to keep her smiling that he paid no attention to the implications of what he was saying. “I expect to be a reasonably rich man in the next few years, but buying you the presidency of the United States might be beyond my means even then.”

  “Thank you,” she whispered.

  “For what?”

  “For making me laugh. I haven’t cried this much since I was a child. Now I can’t seem to stop.”

  “I hope you weren’t laughing at what I said about being rich.”

  Despite his light tone, Meredith sensed that he was extremely serious about that, and she sobered. She saw the determination in that square jaw, the intelligence and hard-bitten experience in those gray eyes. His life had not given him any of the advantages that it offered men of her own class, but she sensed instinctively that Matt Farrell had a rare kind of strength coupled with an indomitable will to succeed. She sensed something else about him too—that despite his arbitrary attitude and the mild cynicism she’d glimpsed, there was a core of gentleness within him. His behavior today was proof of that. She had initiated their lovemaking six weeks ago, and this pregnancy and hasty marriage was undoubtedly as disastrous to his life as it was to hers. Yet, not once had he torn into her for her stupidity or carelessness, nor had he told her to go to hell when she asked him if he would marry her—which she’d half expected him to do.

  Watching her study him, Matt knew she was rating his chances to succeed and make good his claim; he also knew how incongruous that claim would seem to her, particularly now. The night he’d met her, he’d at least looked successful. Now, however, she knew what sort of place he came from; she’d seen him with his head under the hood of a truck and grease all over his hands, and he remembered that momentary flash of shock and repugnance on her face. And so, as he looked down at that beautiful face of hers, he waited for her to laugh at his pretension—no, not laugh—she was much too well-bred to laugh in his face; she’d say something condescending, and he’d know it in an instant, because those expressive eyes of hers would give away her real thoughts.

  She finally spoke, her voice quiet, thoughtful, smiling. “Planning to set the world on fire, are you?”

  “With a torch,” he averred.

  To his complete shock, Meredith Bancroft lifted her hand and shyly laid it against his tense jaw, her fingers spreading over his cheek. The smile on her lips transferred to her eyes, making them glow. Softly, but with absolute conviction, she whispered, “I’m sure you will, Matt.”

  Matt opened his mouth to say something, and he couldn’t speak; the touch of her fingers, the proximity of her body, and the look in her eyes suddenly drugged his mind. Six weeks ago, he’d been wildly attracted to her; in the space of a moment, that latent attraction erupted with a force that made him lean down and seize her mouth with hard, demanding hunger. He devoured its sweetness, stunned by his own urgency, astonished when he had to slow down and coax her lips apart, because he knew instinctively she was feeling a little of what he was feeling. And when her lips did part and begin to move with his, he was shocked by the surge of triumph he felt. Common sense fled; Matt leaned up and over her, his body already rigid with desire, and almost groaned a few minutes later when she tore her mouth from his and held her hands against his chest to keep him away. “Your family,” she gasped desperately. “They’re downstairs . . .”

  Matt reluctantly dragged his hand from her bared breast. His family. He’d forgotten about all that. Downstairs it had been obvious that his father had leapt to the correct conclusion as to the reason for their sudden marriage—and the wrong conclusions about the sort of woman Meredith was. He needed to go downstairs and straighten that out, he did not need to reinforce his father’s opinion that Meredith was a rich slut by staying up in this bedroom with her right now. He was amazed he’d forgotten that; he was more amazed by his unparalleled lack of control where she was concerned. Slow, gorgeous lovemaking hadn’t been what he’d intended just then—swift, total possession had been his goal, and that had never happened to him before.

  Tipping his head back, Matt drew a steadying breath and got off the bed, removing himself from the proximity of temptation. Leaning a shoulder against the bedpost, he watched her scoot up into a sitting position. She glanced uneasily at him, hastily straightening her clothes, and he grinned as she modestly covered the breasts he’d been kissing and caressing a moment before. “At the risk of sounding outrageously impulsive,” he remarked casually, “I’m beginning to find the notion of a marriage in name only not only gothic, but impractical. It’s obvious we have a strong sexual attraction to each other. We’ve also made a baby together. Maybe we ought to consider taking a shot at living like married people. Who knows,” he added, lifting his broad shoulders in a shrug, a smile tugging at his lips, “we might like it.”

  Meredith wouldn’t have been more surprised if he’d grown wings and started flying around the room, then she realized he was merely tossing the idea around as a possibility, not making a suggestion. Torn between resentment at his offhand attitude and an odd kind of pleasure and gratitude that he’d even brought the idea up, she said nothing.

  “There’s no hurry,” he added with a roguish grin as he straightened. “We have a few days to make up our minds.”

  When he left, Meredith stared at the closed door in exhausted disbelief, completely dazed by the speed with which he reached conclusions, gave orders, and switched directions. There were very distinct and startlingly different sides to Matthew Farrell, and she wasn’t at all certain who he really was. The night she met him, she’d seen a chilling harshness in him; yet, that same night, he had smiled at her jokes, quietly talked to her about himself, kissed her into insensibility, and made love to her with demanding passion and exquisite tenderness. Even so, she had a feeling that the gentleness he nearly always showed her wasn’t necessarily his norm, and that he wasn’t to be underestimated. She had an even stronger feeling that whatever Matthew Farrell chose to do with the rest of his life, someday he was going to be a force to be reckoned with. She fell asleep thinking he already was a force to be reckoned with.

  Whatever Matt had said to his father before Meredith came down to dinner was evidently effective, because Patrick Farrell seemed to accept without further challenge the fact that they were getting married. Even so, it was Julie’s determined chatter that kept the meal from being a nerve-racking ordeal for Meredith. Matt was generally silent and thoughtful during most of it. At the same time, he seemed to dominate the room and even the conversation, simply by being present and listening to what was being said.

  Patrick Farrell, who should have been the head of the household, had clearly abdicated that role to Matt. A slender, brooding man with a face that bore traces of dissipation and tragedy, he deferred to Matt whenever a question came up about who ought to do what. Meredith thought him both pitiful and somehow frightening, and she continued to feel that he didn’t particularly like her either.

  Julie, who seemed to have willingly accepted the role of cook and housekeeper to the two men, was like a Fourth of July sparkler; every thought she had burst from her lips in a torrent of enthusiastic words. Her devotion to Matt was obvious and total; she jumped up to get him coffee, asked his advice, and listened to whatever he said as if God Himself were rendering an opinion. Meredith, who was trying desperately not to think about her own problems, wondered how Julie had kept her enthusiasm and optimism here; she wondered how any girl who seemed as bright as Julie could willingly forsake some sort of career for a future of looking after her father, which Meredith assumed was what she planned to do. Immersed in her thoughts, it took Meredith a moment to realize Julie was talking to her.