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  More, Sam thought, but she didn’t answer him. She was glad he was going to be around people.

  Chapter Two

  You know what’s guaranteed to turn a man off? No, it’s not laughing at him when he’s in the throes of passion. The guaranteed, absolute, sure-bet turnoff is to tell a man you earn more money than he does.

  Men seem to think it’s okay for some daffy, brainless little lady to inherit millions—after all, some man earned that money. But let me tell you, men do not like to hear that a female pulled down 1.4 million last year and that, what’s more, she manages all that money all by her itty-bitty self, with no help from any man anywhere.

  Five years ago, when I was twenty-five, I was in a boring, dead-end job—the less said about it the better—and living in a boring, nowhere midwestern town, of which I want to say less than nothing. As I have always done, to occupy myself and keep my mind from stagnating, I told myself stories. I know, that’s about a quarter inch away from having a split personality, but at an early age I found it was either take myself away or lose my mind altogether. My father was terrified of his own shadow and so demanded absolute obedience from his family at all times. I had to wear what he dictated, eat what he decided I was to eat, like what he decreed, move to his specifications. He controlled every bit of my life until I escaped at eighteen, but before that time I found out that there was one part of me he couldn’t control: my mind. I may have been forced to wear blue when I wanted to wear red, and I may have been denied ginger ale because the ol’ man hated ginger ale, but inside my head I was free. In my thoughts I did what I wanted, went where I wanted, said all the clever things I thought, and was praised for saying them. (My father had a tendency to smack smart mouths, which was very effective in making one keep one’s thoughts to oneself.)

  When I was twenty-five and living a few miles from my parents and doing my best to save enough money for a one-way ticket out, I wrote one of my stories down on paper. It was a murder mystery, and the killer was a young woman who’d done away with her tyrant of a father. After I wrote it, I thought, What the heck, and mailed it to a publishing house, never thinking they’d accept it. I guess a lot of people are sick of fathers and husbands who run their lives for them because twenty-eight days later I received a letter asking if they could please publish my book and send me a lot of money.

  I thought, and still do, What a scam! These people were willing to pay me to do something I’d been doing all my life.

  With the money they sent me, I moved to New York. I’d never been to the big city before, but it seemed to be where writers went—that’s what I was now, not just a bored nobody who was on the verge of a split personality—and I rented a tiny apartment and bought a computer.

  For the next four years I hardly looked up from the keyboard as I wrote one story after another. I killed off an uncle I didn’t like. I killed off several co-workers who’d snubbed me, and in my mega-seller I killed off the entire cheerleading team of my high school.

  During these four years I got a glimpse of a very different world from the one where I’d grown up. People were impressed by how competent I was. I’m sure I mentioned that my father was a tyrant, but did I also mention that he was the laziest creature alive? As far as I could figure out, at work he was a real wimp, afraid to stand up for himself, so he let others bully him. Then, when he got home, he took his rage out on me. My mother had long ago escaped to some never-never land of her own, and she was no fun for him to rage at. I, on the other hand, gave him a great deal of satisfaction because I cried and suffered and smoldered and felt all the injustice of it.

  But for all of my father’s flaws, he made me into a competent, fearless person. After you’ve lived with a man like my father, trust me, nothing anyone else ever says or does to you can hurt you in exactly the way he could. Sadists make a study of their victims, whereas most people are too self-absorbed to care enough. So, thanks to the training I’d received in childhood, I was a very competent businesswoman. I wrote incessantly, I negotiated my own contracts, I invested the money I made without the help of a manager, and at the end of the four years I bought myself a penthouse apartment on Park Avenue. I had made it—and made it in a big way.

  So what was my personal life like? Think nonexistent. My editor took me out now and then, and when I was writing without a break for days on end she’d even bring me food. But editors don’t bring you dates. Authors who fall in love, authors who are social, don’t write. I think if it were left up to publishing houses, they’d lock all their best-selling writers in Park Avenue towers and send them food and never allow them out.

  So, after five years of writing, after making millions, after becoming a household name all over the world, I decided to accept Ruth Edwards’ invitation to go on a two-week-long trail ride in the wilds of Colorado.

  Ruth’s boss had seen the movie City Slickers and had decided that it would be a good life-experience for his top male managers to go on a trail ride and deliver a calf or whatever, so of course they went. Unfortunately the boss decided at the last minute that his marriage was of utmost importance, so he went off to Bermuda with his wife and left his male employees to tough it out on beans and overcooked beef. Of course when they returned, all the men said they’d had a marvelous life-enhancing experience, and the boss never saw the dartboard covered with a horse’s head smack in the middle of a map of Colorado.

  After the men’s return, the boss said all of his female executives should go on the same trip and experience the same deep, mind-altering peace the men had found. Since all of his females who weren’t secretaries—and who had run the company for the two weeks the men were in Colorado—consisted of Ruth, she was told to choose three friends and go with them.

  That’s when Ruth called me. Not by any stretch of the imagination could Ruth and I be called friends. We were in college together and during our freshman year our dorm rooms were across the hall from each other. Ruth had grown up rich, with adoring parents who made it their goal in life to give their daughter anything she wanted, while I was going to school on government loans and went to my father’s house every weekend to do things like cut the grass and wash the clothes and satisfy my father’s insatiable need to belittle someone. Our backgrounds did not give us a great deal of common ground to talk about.

  Also, there was Ruth herself. She was tall, with lots of thick, dark hair that always obeyed her, gorgeous clothes—she was one of those girls who, even if she wore a sweatshirt, tucked a Hermès scarf at her throat—and she had an entourage of bad-skinned, overweight, gaga-eyed girls following her. These girls constantly changed as they got tired of fetching for Ruth and adoring Ruth, and were replaced by others.

  Since I always had my nose in a book and only watched Ruth from afar—okay, so I watched her with envy, fantasizing that I was an ugly duckling and that someday I was going to grow a foot, my hair was going to start curling, and I was going to become a social success instead of always saying the wrong thing at the wrong time—I had no idea she knew I existed.

  I underestimated Ruth. Any woman who could claw her way to the top of her field by the time she hit thirty should never be underestimated.

  She called me and told me how proud she was of my success, how she’d been following my career for years, and how she had envied me so much in college.

  “Really?” I heard myself asking, as wide-eyed as a kid. “You envied me?”

  Even while part of me was telling myself that everything she was saying was a crock, I was flattered. She told me how she used to watch me at school and used to see how respected I was by the other students, although what I remember is people trying to get me to write their papers for them. But Ruth seemed to be willing to go on and on with her praise, so I let her. What people don’t understand about writers is that they desperately want approval. There’s a saying, If you want to write, have the worst childhood you can survive. When I was a kid I tried everything in the world to get my father’s approval: I made straight A�