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  curiosity? See if Sean and I were as devastated as you? What exactly did you want, Pru?”

  “To make it better,” she said, throat tight. “That’s all I’ve ever wanted, was to make it better. For both of you, for everyone who my dad . . .” She covered her mouth.

  Destroyed.

  “I see,” he said quietly. “So that’s what I was to you, another pet project like the others you collected and fixed their broken lives.”

  “No, I—”

  “Truth, Pru,” he said, voice vibrating with fury. “You owe me that.”

  “Okay, yes, I needed to help everyone however I could. I needed to make things right,” she reiterated, swallowing a sob when he shook his head. She was losing him. “So I did what I could.”

  “I didn’t need saving,” he bit out. “Sean and I had each other and we were fine—” He stilled and his eyes cut to hers, sharp as a blade. “It was you. You got us that money that was supposedly from a community fundraiser. Jesus, how did I not guess this before?” His gaze narrowed. “Where did that money come from? Is that why you sold your childhood home? To give it to us?”

  “No, the money from the house went to the others. For you and Sean, I used my parents’ life insurance policy.”

  He stared at her. “Fuck,” he said roughly and turned to go.

  She managed to slide between him and the door. “Finn, please—”

  “Please what?” he asked coldly. “Understand how you very purposely and calculatedly came into my life? Moved into this building? Sat in my pub? Became my friend and then my lover? All under the pretense of wanting me, while really you were just trying to assuage some misguided sense of guilt.” He stopped and closed his eyes for a beat. “Jesus, Pru. I never even saw you coming.”

  Having her crimes against him listed out loud made her feel sick to her soul. “It wasn’t like that,” she said.

  “No? You sought me out, decided I needed fixing, slept with me, probably had a good laugh over me telling you how much you meant to me . . . all without telling me why you were really here—to ease your damn conscience.” He shook his head. “Hope you got everything in that you wanted because we’re done here.”

  “No, Finn. I—”

  “Done,” he repeated with a terrifying finality. “I don’t want to see you again, Pru.”

  And then he walked out, breaking the heart she hadn’t even realized she had inside her to break.

  Chapter 31

  #MissedItByThatMuch

  Weighted down by so many emotions that she couldn’t name them all, Pru called in sick, letting Jake think she’d gotten her period and had debilitating cramps.

  Since she’d never used such an excuse before, had in fact never missed work at all, she didn’t feel in the least bit sorry.

  Her ovaries had to be good for something, right?

  She marathoned Game of Thrones and never left the couch. Every time her mind wandered to Finn, her heart did a slow somersault in her chest, her lungs stopped working, and her stomach hurt, so she did what anyone would do in the throes of a bad breakup.

  She ate.

  The next morning she was jerked out of her stupor when someone knocked on her door. She blinked and looked around. She was still dressed, still on her couch, surrounded by empty wrappings of candy bars and other varieties of junk food—the evidence of a pity party for one. She grabbed her phone but there were no missed calls, texts, or emails from Finn.

  And why would there be? He’d been pretty clear.

  He didn’t want to see her again.

  The knock came again, less patient now. She got to her feet and looked out the peephole.

  Willa, Elle, and Haley.

  Elle was front and center, her eyes on the peephole.

  “I’m not feeling very sociable,” Pru said. “In fact, I’m feeling pretty damn negative and toxic so—”

  “Okay, listen, honey,” Elle said. “Life sucks sometimes. The trick is not letting negative and toxic feelings rent space in your head. Raise the rent and kick them the hell out. And I’ve brought help in that regard.” She lifted a bag.

  Tina’s muffins.

  Pru opened the door.

  Elle handed her the bag.

  Haley handed over a very large coffee.

  Willa smiled. “My job is to be supportive and get you to talk.”

  “Way to be subtle,” Elle said.

  Ignoring that, Willa hugged Pru. “Okay, so I missed the subtle gene,” she said. “But you should know, we are unbelievably supportive.”

  “Even if I screwed up?”

  “Even if,” Willa said.

  “I’m not going to talk about it,” Pru warned, barely able to talk past the lump in her throat. “Not now. Maybe not ever.”

  Seemingly unconcerned by this, they all moved into Pru’s apartment and eyed the scene of the crime.

  Willa picked up an empty bag of maple bacon potato chips. “They make bacon chips?” She looked into the empty bag sadly. “Damn, I bet they were amazing.”

  “How did you know something was wrong?” Pru asked with what she thought was a calm voice.

  “Because you missed Eighties Karaoke and didn’t answer any of our calls last night,” Elle said. “And you’d told me you wouldn’t miss it unless Chris Evans came knocking at your door.” She looked Pru over, her rumpled sweats and what was undoubtedly a bad case of bedhead hair. “And I think it’s safe to say that didn’t happen.”

  “It could have,” Pru muttered and set the coffee down to dive into the bag of muffins. She started with a chocolate chocolate-chip.

  Haley reached to put her hand in the bag and Pru clutched it to her chest with a growl that rivaled Thor’s.

  Haley lifted her hands. “Okay, not sharing. Got it.” She turned to Elle and Willa. “I think we’ve verified the breakup rumor.”

  Pru froze. “There’s a breakup rumor?”

  Willa lifted her hand, her first finger and thumb about an inch apart. “Little bit.”

  Pru sank to the couch, still clutching her muffins. “I’d like to be alone now.”

  “Sure,” Elle said. “We understand.” And then she sat on one end of the couch and picked up the remote to turn the volume up. “Season three, right? Love this show.”

  Eyes on the screen, already enraptured, Haley sat on the other end.

  Pru opened her mouth to complain but Willa took the floor, leaning back on the couch, leaving a spot right in the middle for Pru.

  She blew out a breath and in the respectful silence that she appreciated more than she could say, she wasn’t alone at all.

  Two days later Pru walked to work. In the rain. She knew she was bad off when Thor didn’t complain once. He did however, keep looking up at her, wondering what their mood should be.

  Devastated. That was the current mood. But she didn’t want to scare him. “We’re going to be okay.”

  Thor cocked his head, his one stand-up ear quivering a little bit.

  He didn’t believe her.

  And for good reason. She hadn’t slept. She’d called in sick again and Jake had let her get away with that.

  Until this morning. He’d called her at the crack of dawn and said, “I don’t care if your uterus is falling out of your body, take some Midol and get your ass into work. Today.”

  She wasn’t surprised. And to be honest, she was ready to get back to it after a two-day pity party involving more ice cream than she’d eaten in her twenty-six years total. She’d run out of self-pity stamina. Turned out it was hard to maintain that level of despair.

  So with it now at a dull roar, she’d showered and dressed and headed to work. “I just feel . . . stupid,” she told Thor. “This is all my fault, you know.”

  “Honey,” a woman said, passing her on the sidewalk. “Never admit that it’s all your fault.” She was wearing the smallest, tightest red dress Pru had ever seen, and the five-inch stilettos were impressive.

  “But this time it really is,” Pru told her.