Instant Temptation p.30 Read online

  Nothing else mattered, nothing but the slow pull of their bodies, the unending kiss.

  She didn’t want to let him go.

  Ever.

  Emotion clogging her throat, she closed her eyes rather than give herself away.

  “Harley.”

  This is just a good-bye, just a simple, easy, casual good-bye.

  “Harley, look at me.”

  She forced her heavy eyelids open and somehow managed to meet his gaze, knowing by the look in his that yep, she’d given herself away.

  Seemed she needed some practice on multitasking orgasms and heartbreak.

  Gently, so gently it brought tears to her eyes, he swept her hair back from her face. “I love you,” he said, the words causing her to spiral and shudder as she burst.

  And took him with her.

  When TJ woke up, he knew even as he reached out that Harley was gone. He almost believed he’d imagined her, except for the bite mark on his shoulder.

  And what felt like nail indentations in his ass.

  But the amusement drained quickly, because last night, hot and amazing and heart wrenching as it’d been, had been his good-bye.

  Two days later TJ was in Anchorage, preparing to take a charter with Colin into their drop zone when his cell phone rang.

  “TJ,” a voice breathed softly in his ear, sounding relieved to get him.

  “Harley?”

  “Yeah.”

  For a moment they did nothing but breathe. He wasn’t sure what to say that hadn’t already been said, but he was happy as hell to hear from her. “You okay?”

  “Yeah. I’m fine.”

  Silence.

  Memories.

  Longing.

  He recovered first, or at least put up the pretense of it. “Where are you?”

  “Desolation. And no, not by myself.” She paused. “Nolan and Skye are with me.”

  Nolan. TJ pinched the bridge of his nose and took a breath.

  “He’s here with Skye. And to protect me, of course.”

  “He’s with Skye?”

  “They’re beginning a…mutual affection.”

  Suddenly he could breathe. Breathing was good. “Any problems?”

  “Actually earlier we heard a gunshot.”

  Christ. “How close?”

  “Couple miles. We called it in. By some miracle, the rangers located two guys exiting out of the east entrance, without a permit of course, and loaded with unregistered shotguns and ammo.”

  It could have been worse, he told himself. “Arrested?”

  “Yep. I don’t think I’ll be losing any more of my coyotes.”

  “Your coyotes?” He felt himself smile in spite of the lingering fear for her. “You’re leaving, remember?”

  “Yeah. TJ…any regrets?”

  “None,” he said firmly, then paused. “You?”

  When she was quiet, he shook his head at himself. Obviously she had regrets, she’d sneaked out in the middle of the night.

  “None,” she finally said, then hesitated. “Well, maybe one.” She paused again and just about killed him.

  Had his phone died? “Harley? You still there?”

  “Yes.” She inhaled deeply. “It’s you, TJ. You’re my regret. I regret not telling you sooner, like years sooner, how I felt about you.”

  He heard the click, telling him she was long gone before he found his words and could point out that she still hadn’t told him.

  Twenty-four hours later, TJ and Colin were at 15,500 feet in a tent smack in the middle of a windstorm that was threatening to rip them right off the side of a mountain.

  It wouldn’t happen. TJ was pretty sure.

  Well, at least 80 percent sure.

  Colin lay flat on his back staring up at the ceiling of the tent. “I’m a fucking screwup. I should be in front of the pastor tomorrow, saying ‘I do’ with Lydia at my side. Sex for the rest of my life, guaranteed. Man, what the fuck was I thinking?”

  TJ didn’t know. Guaranteed sex sounded pretty darn good. But then again, suddenly so did waking up every day wrapped in the same woman.

  Christ. It’d gotten to him, all of it; laughing at karma, watching his brothers fall in love.

  Being with Harley.

  Falling for Harley.

  “You ever screw up?” Colin asked. “I mean really screw up?”

  TJ thought about how he’d let Harley think all he wanted was a casual, temporary thing, how he’d said he loved her but without the other words she’d needed to go with that love. “Yeah.”

  “How did you fix it?

  “Still working on that.”

  Colin thought about that, then shook his head. “This is all wrong. I changed my mind. I want to get married tomorrow.” Colin closed his eyes, then opened them again, and they were damp. “How fast can you get me home?”

  “Are you kidding me?”

  “Look, I let her think I love my adventures more than I love her. I have to tell her that’s not true. That I’d rather be with her than on a damn mountain. It’s cold here, man. I should be in my warm bed with my warm almost wife.”

  “You could call her.”

  “No, we’re going in person and tell her I’m an ass. I want to see if she’ll marry this ass. On Squaw Peak like we planned. Take me home, man.”

  TJ let out a breath and pulled out his phone to make the calls necessary to get them out of there. Because home sounded like a damn fine place to be.

  CHAPTER 28

  Two days later, Skye was mooching breakfast while Harley was still looking at her e-mail, specifically the one asking her to confirm she wanted the job.

  She really needed to respond.

  She’d actually started to a hundred times, pressing REPLY, then typing “yes, thank you!” but then her finger would hover over the SEND.

  And then it’d hit DELETE instead.

  But the truth was, there was only one thing she really wanted to type and that was, “I can’t take the job because there’s no TJ Wilder in Colorado!”

  Sitting back, she closed her eyes and let it all wash over her, giving herself permission to listen to her gut instincts, her emotions, the truth…

  “Are you meditating?” Skye whispered.

  “Shh.”

  “You’re supposed to be sitting cross-legged and chanting ‘ohmmmm.’”

  “Quiet. I’m listening to myself.”

  “Are you asking yourself for guidance about the job, or about how you let the hottest guy on the planet get away?”

  “Skye!”

  “Sorry.” Skye spooned in another bite. “Carry on.”

  Harley closed her eyes again. Turned out her heart did have something to say. It said that she already had her answers, that possibly she’d always had her answers, from way back since that long ago night in the back of TJ’s truck. She stared off into space as she let that terrifying and life-altering realization echo through her.

  She wanted him. She needed him.

  She loved him.

  She always had. Suddenly it wasn’t so confusing after all. Not when she added everything up, including some of the things he’d said to her.

  Sometimes you have to take a risk.

  There are all kinds of love.

  You make me feel alive.

  I love you.

  She stood up and paced the length of her kitchen.

  “You okay?” Skye asked.

  “Yeah. I just realized I left something unfinished.”

  “One of your reports?”

  “Something bigger.”

  Much bigger.

  Skye stared at her, and then let out a slow smile. “You’re going for it.”

  “I’m going for it.” Harley pulled out her phone and tried TJ’s cell. It went directly to voice mail. She wondered what message to leave. I forgot to mention that I don’t need you for just one night, but for all my nights?

  She laughed a little softly at herself. “Hey,” she said. “I…ah, hell. I’ve had an epiphany, I