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  “Don’t worry, I’ll radio them.”

  When she’d gone, Lily used her phone to get the latest weather report, then stood up and addressed her staff. “Okay, listen up. The highways are still closed, including the 80 from the summit to Verdi. Snow’s still coming down, obviously, thick and wet. Sierra cement, our favorite. According to the radar, we should get a break in an hour or so for a while, enough to open the 80 for a bit, anyway.” She looked at Logan, and he knew she was thinking about him getting to the airport. “At that time, people will be able to get out, and the new guests in. Expect mass confusion and grumpiness from all corners.”

  “Even yours?”

  Lily lifted a brow at Chris. “Want a double shift?”

  “Jeez, just kidding.” Chris lowered his cap and went back to shoveling in food.

  Lily pushed away her untouched tray and moved to leave, but Logan grabbed her hand. “Come on, sit down and eat.”

  “I’m too busy—”

  “Eat.” Not taking no for an answer, he tugged her down next to him and put her tray back in front of her.

  On the pretense of stroking back a strand of hair, he outlined her ear with his finger. She’d run a Sno-Cat today, operated a huge snowblower and shoveled as much snow as he had. “You’re pushing yourself pretty hard.”

  A shoulder jerked. “Not really.”

  “Lily.”

  Her eyes closed a moment, and then she looked at him, really looked at him, and he saw what he’d been looking for. A devastating flash of emotion that would have brought him to his knees if he’d been standing. “Ah, Lily—”

  “Don’t,” she whispered furiously. “Damn it, don’t say a word or I’ll lose it. I mean it.” She shoved another bite in and looked straight ahead as she chewed, chasing the food down with his water. Then she shoved the tray back and stood. “Let’s go, ace. We have more snow removal to do.”

  He figured that was the only invitation he was going to get to stick close. Together they took one of the Sno-Cats and worked on clearing the closed section of the entrance road. Inside the cat, they were high above the ground, in two bucket seats, surrounded by controls that he knew nothing about but that Lily worked as if she’d been born to it. The air was warm and close, the heater blasting, the windows half-fogged. They stripped out of their jackets and gloves, then Lily went back to working the controls with the same quiet, fierce intensity with which she’d made love to him only hours before.

  “You know, much as you keep clearing, it’s going to keep falling,” he said lightly, hoping for a smile.

  She just shot him a long glance before going back to clearing as if her life depended on it. They’d already rescued no less than six stranded cars and were working on clearing the parking lot to unstrand a whole bunch more when the radio chirped with word that the 80 had just opened and wasn’t expected to stay that way for long.

  “This is your chance to get out,” she said to the window.

  Outside, the snow had stopped falling, for now, but everything around them—the roads, the trees, the signs—was a solid, frozen white wonderland, clear and ice-cold. Lily pulled to a hut in the parking lot, and though she hit the brake, she did not turn off the cat. “Better hurry.” There was a hint of impatience in her voice.

  He looked at her, astonished. “You want me to hurry and leave?”

  “You have a flight, damn it. You need to go. Now. I cleared a path for your rental car.”

  “So this whole damn thing, the whole last six hours of mind-numbing work and effort, was so that you could get me out?”

  “Yes.”

  He was stunned.

  “Well, what’s so strange about that? You have to go.”

  “Yeah, I do. You know, I figure there’s two possible reasons for this. You’re either tired of me…” She didn’t move, didn’t even blink. “…or you’re more terrified of what we’ve shared than I thought.”

  She stared at him for another beat, then turned straight ahead again, giving away nothing except the fact she was chewing on her lower lip. “This is a bad time to discuss this.”

  “Scared,” he decided, lifting a brow when she whipped her head to him, piercing him with a look.

  “I’m not.” She said this through her teeth. “I’ve told you, nothing scares me.”

  Uh-huh. Except, he was guessing, anything that even remotely resembled matters of the heart. Well, welcome to the club, sweetheart. He hadn’t been lonely before he’d met her, and hadn’t felt particularly unfulfilled.

  But even after just a week with this woman, he knew he’d been changed forever. “Something this good isn’t worth doing only halfway, Lily.” The words and the intent behind them no longer surprised him. Having feelings for someone didn’t have to be a burden.

  Not with someone like Lily.

  “Tell me you haven’t forgotten this was just for fun,” she said.

  “Why? So you can walk away from this, no regrets? Just chalk it up to another fun time had by all?”

  “Logan…what choice do we have?”

  “There are always choices. Always,” he said softly, looking right at her, through her, to the scared woman inside. “All you have to do is want it bad enough. Deep down you know that, you’ve lived like that. Lily.” Squeezing her fingers with his, he reached up and touched her face with his free hand. “I don’t want to let this go.”

  She squeezed her eyes shut, then opened them. “It’s only been a week.”

  “Exactly. I want more. Let’s go with this thing, see where it takes us.”

  “You’re going back to Ohio. Avery long way away.”

  “That’s not a good enough reason to walk away.”

  “It is for me.” And she hopped out of the cat.

  LILY TOOK TWO STEPS OUT OF the cat, sank deep into the snow up to her thighs, swore lavishly, then got back into the machine and met Logan’s gaze. He didn’t want to let this go, she thought in panic. Oh, my God, he really didn’t. “This is crazy. Stupid.”

  She marveled at that for a moment as she warmed back up. She’d let him see the real her this week. She’d let him because she hadn’t seen the danger in it. And now he’d seen her, faults and all, and he still wanted her. The unbelievable draw of that began to lure her in, and her breath hitched. “This isn’t a nice joke.”

  “It’s not a joke at all. I know what’s eating you.”

  “Do you? Do you really?”

  “You think you have to keep everything fun and light. You think you have to fight all emotional ties because they bind, they restrict. But I don’t want to hold you back or tell you what you should and shouldn’t do. You’re a grown woman, a beautiful, smart, incredible woman, and I want you just the way you are.”

  “Why?”

  He blinked. “Why?”

  “You’ve told me yourself you don’t do deep relationships. After raising your siblings and then doing the sort of work you do, having someone want you on a daily basis is too much like a burden.”

  “I didn’t say that,” he said. “I never called love a burden.”

  “It was implied.”

  “Okay, I’ll agree, it can be, if it’s done one-sided. I’ve seen too much of that, Lily. Too many of my close friends burned because of unrealistic expectations. But that’s not what I’m interested in here. I want a strong, independent woman who has her own goals and dreams, ones that don’t depend on mine but can mesh with them.”

  “My life wouldn’t mesh with anyone’s.”

  “It would if you wanted it to.”

  And wasn’t that just the crux. Her heart was beating hard and unnaturally heavy. “I’ve never wanted it to.”

  “Me, either. Before you.”

  Oh, God. The oddest feeling came over her, as if someone was dangling this big, fat, beautiful carrot in front of her, close enough to reach.

  But what if it was poisonous? What if it grew teeth and bit her?

  Then he capped her panic. “I think I’m falling in love with you,