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She appeared genuinely taken aback and hurt by the accusation. “I didn’t think that at all. I thought you would see how much you mean to me, and how much I want to be with you.”

  He ignored her. “Well, sorry to disappoint you. But it’s not that easy, Elizabeth. I’m not just going to forget everything that happened because you strip naked and tell me you want to suck my cock.”

  No matter how incredible that sounded, or how the sight of all that velvety soft nakedness tempted him. But he sure as hell wasn’t going to tell her that.

  Whether it was his crude words or tone, he didn’t know, but something made her temper flare. She straightened her back, lifted her chin, and met his gaze square on. “Actually, it is that easy. Isn’t that what you’ve been telling me the whole time? If I love you nothing else matters, isn’t that what you said? I’m sorry my feelings weren’t clear enough to do the right thing at the precise moment you wanted me to. But this is new to me. I’ve never been in love before. You’ve had years knowing you loved me; I only realized how I felt last week. I was confused. I made a horrible mistake. I let you down. I didn’t jump when you asked, but I’m trying to jump now.” She took a deep breath. “It is simple: either you love me and want a future with me or you don’t.”

  His eyes met hers. “I don’t.”

  His words landed with the sting of a slap. She flinched and sucked in her breath as if the pain was unexpected and sharp. Her hand fell from his arm.

  One glance at her face was all he could bear. If he’d wanted to crush her—to hurt her as badly as she’d hurt him—he’d succeeded. She looked . . . heartbroken. Destroyed. Vulnerable.

  He had to get the hell out of here before he did something stupid and pulled her into his arms and proved himself a liar. Showed her just how much her explanation and last-ditch ploy at seduction had come to breaking him. How much he wanted to forgive her. She’d made a mistake, but maybe under the circumstances it was understandable. She was caught up in the rush of the betrothal and trying to sort out her feelings—feelings that unlike his were new and uncertain.

  He made it as far as the door. His hand squeezed the metal of the handle. Open it, he told himself. Walk away. He wanted to. Just like he wanted to stop loving her.

  But wanting, he realized, wasn’t the same thing as actually doing. He could hide his feelings behind anger, but they were still there.

  She was right: it was simple. He was furious with her, hurt beyond belief, and his pride was stinging, but the inescapable fact was that he loved her. He would always love her, whether she married someone else or she married him. He had two choices: he could be miserable and self-righteous or he could swallow his pride and maybe—just maybe—find the happiness of which he’d always dreamed.

  It wasn’t a hard decision. He latched the door.

  She couldn’t see what he’d done—or realized its import—but she’d recovered enough to call after him. “Go then. Walk away just like you did last time.”

  He turned around, eyes narrowing. “What?”

  She lifted her chin. He tried not to let his eyes drop below it, but it was damned difficult. In her anger she’d forgotten she was naked, and she stood there boldly and unself-consciously, and it was spectacular.

  “I didn’t react the way you wanted me to on the rooftop three years ago, so you cut me off, refused to let me explain or work out my feelings, left for three years, and told yourself you hated me. And I didn’t react the way you wanted me to this time either, so you’ll hate me and try to cut me off again. But just like last time, I’ll be here waiting. Whether it takes you three years or twenty, I’ll be waiting for you to find a way in your stubborn, pigheaded, too-proud mind to forgive me.”

  Thom frowned, realizing there was more truth in her accusation than he wanted to admit. But they were obviously going to have to work on her apologies.

  She wasn’t done. “And eventually, you know what? You will forgive me, because that’s who you are. But by then, God knows, our children will have parents who are old enough to be grandparents.” Something in her voice broke and tears started pouring down her cheeks. “So go, but don’t blame me when I’m old and wrinkly and you can’t bear to bed me, because it will be all your fault!”

  He cocked a brow, his eyes scanning over her smooth, creamy, and definitely not wrinkled skin. His frown deepened as he looked her over again. “How many years do you think I have?”

  She was so busy trying to wipe the tears away it took her a moment to realize what he said. She drew back with a start. “What?”

  “Before I can’t bear to bed you?”

  He wasn’t going to tell her he couldn’t think of anything more wonderful than growing old with her—and wrinkles sure as hell weren’t going to keep him out of her bed.

  She blinked, tears clumping on her long lashes like diamonds sparkling in the sun. “That is what you respond to? I splay my heart open for you to see, beg for your forgiveness, humiliate myself with a failed seduction, and you want to know how many years you have before I get a few wrinkles?”

  He shrugged. “It might take awhile for me to forgive you, but I can try to speed it up if it means I’m not in bed with a prune.”

  Her gasp of outrage was followed by a widening of her eyes with understanding.

  “And I wouldn’t necessarily say it was a failed seduction,” he added with a long, heated look down the length of her.

  She trembled, and he felt himself thicken.

  “You wouldn’t?”

  He shook his head. “So how long?”

  Her gaze met his and the hope he read in her eyes filled his chest with warmth. The ice around his heart that had been cracking since she arrived started to break away in thick sheets.

  “I wouldn’t wait past tonight,” she said with a sad shake of her head. “I fear I’m getting older by the minute. The wrinkles are already starting.”

  “Well, then I guess we better hurry.”

  The tentative, carefully restrained hope in her eyes felled him. “Does that mean you forgive me?”

  He moved toward her, letting the back of his finger slide down the velvety softness of her bare skin. Her shoulder, her arm, the hard tip of her breast. He let it linger there, rubbing back and forth—in lazy circles—over the delectable pink tip.

  He couldn’t wait to suck it. To circle his tongue around it. To take it between his teeth and tug until she squirmed and arched into his mouth.

  His voice softened as he looked into her eyes. “Aye, it means that I’ve never wanted anyone so badly in my life. That I have been well and thoroughly seduced. That I couldn’t walk away if my life depended on it.” And it might. In the back—the very back—of his mind he was aware that it wasn’t just honor he was risking. “That I love you and can’t wait to make you mine.”

  The look of joy that broke across her face was not something he would ever forget. It made the euphoria of the past couple of days pale by comparison. “Oh, Thommy.”

  She threw herself into his open arms and he was kissing her. Hungrily. Passionately. Maybe a little desperately. Now that the last barrier between them had been torn down, the floodgates had opened and everything came rushing out hard and fast.

  He’d been good for too damned long. As long as he was going to ignore his honor, he would bloody well make the most of it.

  He kissed her until he couldn’t stand it anymore. He broke away as much to catch his breath and try to get a rein on the lust teeming through his body as he did to take off his clothes.

  He let her look her fill, which wasn’t easy given how easy it was to read her thoughts. He was glad she liked his body, but Christ, those lusty looks weren’t helping his restraint any.

  “You sure have a lot of muscle.”

  There wasn’t much to say to that. He did.

  “I like it.”

  His mouth twitched. “Good.”

  All of a sudden she frowned. “Will they go away if you stop using the hammer at the forge? Because if they will, I might