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Fallon shrugged her shoulders. “And while he did right to you, he did me wrong. He knew how worried I was about you and for him to keep that…”
“He did it for me,” Audrey said cutting her off. “I asked him to.”
“I don’t care,” Fallon said bluntly. “I am not going to let him hurt me anymore.”
“Fallon, you are unbelievable! You say you tried but I think you just went through the motions, because if you had tried you wouldn’t be letting this break y’all up. Stop being such a selfish bitch and be the woman that Aiden and Lucas deserve.”
Fallon glared as she took a step towards Audrey. “I am the best Mom ever to Aiden.”
Audrey’s shoulders fell. “I know you are, but Fallon you aren’t being right to Lucas. He loves you so much. He is the king to your queen, the cheese to your macaroni, the prince to your princess. Y’all are meant for each other.”
Fallon shook her head as the tears threatened to fall. “If he was then he wouldn’t have lied.”
Audrey shook her head and looked down at the ground. When she glanced back up at Fallon, not only were tears falling down her beautiful round cheeks but she had such anger in her eyes that it took Fallon’s breath away. “You are going to grow old, bitter, and lonely. You are letting the one person that matters get away, all because you think he lied to you when he didn’t. You make me sick Fallon, and I have never been so disgusted with you in my life.”
Fallon swallowed loudly, looking away. Why was everyone so disgusted with her? Tears gathered in her eyes as she said, “Join the club Audrey. I don’t care if you are disgusted with me because I am being sensible and smart. I’m not going to let some man hurt me again. I’m not you.” Audrey glared up as her as she made fists at her sides, “And while I’m old and bitter, and lonely, at least I know I did what was best for me and my child. You on the other hand will probably be beaten to a pulp by a piece of shit man since you never see the bad in anyone and you think all men are princes. Grow up cupcake, men are dogs.”
Audrey shook her head. “I’m done with you. I’m not going to sit around and watch you bring everyone else down ‘cause you’re crazy.”
The words hurt but Fallon wouldn’t let Audrey see that. She shrugged her shoulders as Audrey made her way to the door, slamming it behind her. Once Fallon heard the car start and watched as Audrey sped out the driveway, the loudest sob imaginable ripped from Fallon’s body. She crumpled to the floor, holding her middle as she cried out in not only emotional pain but physical pain too. How did she manage to not only throw away the man she loved, but also her sister, her best friend?
What was she going to do?
Fallon softly knocked on Aiden’s door as she pushed it opened. Aiden lay in his bed, his cast above his head and his remote in his other hand. His hair was a mess and he looked so tired, but like always, a sweet smile rested on his lips. He was such a happy child, and she hoped it was because she was doing right as a mother.
She went across the room, crawling into the bed with him. He smiled over at her and cuddled close before shutting the TV off.
“I thought we could watch some TV,” Fallon said quietly.
Aiden didn’t say anything for a moment. Fallon glanced up at him to see his eyebrows drawn together as he looked down at her. “Why were you and AA screaming at each other?”
Fallon bit her lip, embarrassed that Aiden had heard them. She shook her head as she said, “’Cause we are mad at each other.”
Aiden sat up and Fallon did the same, looking over at him as he played with the cotton in his cast. He had been doing it so much lately that it worried Fallon he was developing a complex or something. When he looked up at her with the same eyes as his fathers’, Fallon didn’t know how she was going to make it without Lucas. Aiden’s eyes were like knives, stabbing Fallon in the heart for all the wrong she had done that day. She had started the day ready to make Lucas happy, ready to tell him she loved him but in the end, she left him.
“I don’t like it when y’all fight,” Aiden whispered. “It scares me.”
Fallon’s heart broke even more at the smallness of his voice. “Honey, me and AA are going to fight. We’re sisters.”
“Yeah, I know that, but you aren’t supposed to tell someone they can’t have their happily ever after. That’s not nice.”
Fallon looked down at her hands, hating that Aiden had heard that. “I know, Aiden.”
“Do we all not live happily ever after, Mommy?”
Fallon shook her head, “Not all of us, but you will.”
“How do you know?”
“’Cause you are awesome,” she said with a watery smile as she pushed back the tears.
“But Mommy, you and Daddy are awesome. Can’t you guys have your happily ever after together with me?”
Fallon didn’t think her heart couldn’t break anymore. “It isn’t that easy Aiden,” she whispered. How could she explain everything for Aiden to understand? He was her baby, he couldn’t possibly understand. Hell, she didn’t even understand. How could she let it get this bad, how could she hurt two people that meant the world to her?
Fallon moved her head down, covering her face with her hair so that Aiden wouldn’t see her cry. She had always been so strong in front of him and even though she was falling apart inside, she still felt like she needed to hide it from him. She was the selfish bitch that Audrey called her. She was disgusting and she deserved to feel like this.