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I gather her in my arms, and as I bury my nose in her hair and breathe in her scent, some long-tightened knot in my chest loosens a little.

Chapter Twenty-Two

Liz

“You’re glowing.”

I do my best to look incredulous at Hanna’s declaration—I don’t glow—but since I can’t seem to wipe this idiotic grin from my face, I’m pretty sure I’m failing.

Hanna comes out from around the bakery counter, takes my shoulders, and cocks her head side to side as she studies me. Then she grins too. “I was up all night with the girls—who decided it was party time at midnight—and I didn’t think there was anything I wanted to see more than my bed today, but this face?” Wrapping her arms around me, she pulls me into a tight hug. “I love seeing you happy.”

“I am,” I admit as I pull away. “Happy. I’m happy.” And I’m in love. Holy shit. I don’t even know how that happened. I woke up in bed next to Sam and he pulled me closer to him in his sleep, so I settled my head on his chest and inhaled his scent.

“How did it go this weekend?”

“He took me into the city. We ate and talked and made love.”

“You made love?” Hanna asks. “Interesting.”

“What, you want me to say we fucked?”

She arches a brow. “I don’t want you to say anything in particular. I just think it’s interesting that your choice of words to describe intercourse with Sam has changed. Not bad, just interesting.”

I shrug, and I can tell that goofy grin is back on my face. “I really like him, Hanna.”

“I know you do,” she says softly. “I’m just not sure why it took you so long to admit it.”

“I was trying to protect my heart. But that’s not actually something we can do, is it?”

She shakes her head, but she looks worried now. “We don’t get to choose who owns our heart and we don’t get to choose who has the power to break it.”

“He asked me to come to Christmas dinner at his parents’ house.”

“Wow.”

“And he called me his girlfriend.” My cheeks are starting to ache from all the smiling. “I might as well be fifteen for as happy as that word made me.”

“Tell me you’ve told him.”

“That I’m in love with him?”

“That’s not what I meant, but—wow. Have you told him that?”

My cheeks heat with the realization of what I just admitted. “No. It’s too soon. I’m afraid it will scare him off. What did you mean then?”

“About the night at the cabin? About Connor?”

If I walked into the bakery brimming with joy, her question just tapped a hole in it and I feel it leaking out of me. “How do I tell him that without ruining this? Never mind what it would mean for Connor. If Della found out, it would ruin their marriage.”

“Have a seat. You need sugar.” She walks behind the counter and studies the contents of the bakery case thoughtfully before selecting a new item I don’t recognize. “This should do the trick.” She places it on a plate and grabs a fork, a napkin, and a cup of coffee. Then she joins me at the little glass-topped table.

“What is it?” I ask. Not that I doubt her. If Hanna made it, it’ll be delicious.

“Chocolate chip brioche. Pretty much sugar, eggs, butter, and a crap-ton of chocolate chips.”

“Sold.” I slide my fork into the flaky dough and bring the first bite to my lips. “It’s delicious.” But I put down my fork, because her question stole my appetite right along with my smile.

“You have to tell him, Lizzy. It’s going to come out, and it needs to come from you.”

Fortunately, my stomach agrees to accept a few hearty swallows of coffee. “I don’t want to.”

“Liz . . .”

“He’s opening up to me. He’s . . .” I look out at Main Street. The road is dark and the streetlights illuminate the sidewalk. “I think he’s starting to fall for me.”

“You think? Oh, Liz. He’s mad about you. He has been for ages. Everyone can see it but you.”

I drop my gaze to my coffee because I can’t look at my twin. She’s the kindest, sweetest, best person in the world, and I can’t bring myself to meet her eyes while I try to explain why I want to keep this big secret from the man I love.

“I tried to seduce Sam when I was seventeen,” I admit. “I went up to Notre Dame and went to a party at his house. I got drunk—stupid drunk—thinking it would make it easier. And he turned me down.”

“Liz, I had no idea. Why would you keep that from me?”

“The same reason I didn’t tell you about the first time Sam and I did hook up. Because it was mortifying. I didn’t want to be that desperate girl, and it was like if I didn’t talk about it, I could pretend it didn’t happen.”

“Pretend what didn’t happen?”

My eyes burn, and I lift them to the ceiling to stop the tears from coming. “You know who I did sleep with that weekend? Do you know who was there to pick up the pieces when Sam turned me down?”

Her face shifts, as if something’s registering for the first time. “Connor.”

I nod slowly. It makes me feel guilty to regret my night with Connor. He was sweet and gentle, and as odd as it seems, that night was the beginning of a great friendship with him. But I do regret it. Because if we hadn’t slept together that night, that door wouldn’t have been opened and maybe we wouldn’t have ended up in bed together last summer when I was lonely and Della had broken his heart.

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