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  It wasn’t Lance serving tonight, mostly because he was still sitting in the single holding cell at the sheriff’s station. Instead, it was Tucker, Lance’s twin brother.

  “Sawyer’s keeping an eye on him,” Jax said to Tucker’s unasked question. “He’ll be out in time to celebrate Christmas. He’s okay.”

  “He’s an idiot. We’ll have the rent to you next week. We’re a little behind.”

  “It’s okay,” Jax said. “It’s a slow time for everybody.”

  Tucker nodded his thanks, handed over a chocolate shake, and Jax and Maddie walked on.

  “You’re their landlord?” Maddie asked.

  “Yes.”

  She thought about that a minute. “Do you own the whole pier?”

  “No. But I own some of the businesses on it.”

  She walked to the end of the pier. Leaning over the railing, she stared at the churning sea beneath her, clearly thinking and thinking hard.

  She needed answers, deserved answers, but the truth was he wasn’t sure where to start. For a man who’d made a living spinning words his way, it was pretty fucking pathetic. He came up beside her. “I own some businesses in town, too.”

  “Interesting that you’ve never mentioned this, Mr. Mayor.”

  He winced. “You really do know a lot about me.” Lame.

  “Hmm,” she said, distinctly unimpressed.

  He drew a deep breath. “You once told me some of your faults.”

  “I told you all my faults.”

  He smiled and played with one of her curls. “Want to hear mine?”

  “I know yours. You don’t like to share yourself. You think dog farts are funny.”

  “Everyone thinks dog farts are funny.”

  “You make me talk during sex.”

  He grinned. “You like that.”

  She blushed. “That’s not the point.”

  When she didn’t come up with anything else, he raised a brow. “Is that it? Because I have more faults, Maddie. Plenty of them. Like… I ate only cereal until I was five.”

  “I like cereal.”

  “I jumped off Mooner Cliff into the water when I was ten. I thought I could fly, but I broke both legs.”

  “So you were all boy. Big deal.”

  “I got laid in the USC law school library when I was nineteen and nearly got arrested for indecent exposure. I failed the bar exam the first time because I had a hangover.” He paused and let the big pink elephant free. “Then I took a case where an innocent woman got trapped between both sides. I tried to warn her, breaking my oath as a lawyer to do so, and instead of using the info to get herself out of a bad situation, she took her own life.”

  He paused when she inhaled sharply. He couldn’t read the sound and had no idea if it was horror or disgust. But he’d gone this far—he had to finish. “I stopped practicing law after that. It’d sucked the soul right out of me.” He paused. “I haven’t gotten it back yet.”

  She stared at him then, and he held the eye contact. He figured she was going to walk away from him in three, two, one—

  She moved, but not away. Instead she came close, her hand on his chest, gently stroking right over his heart. “You have a soul,” she whispered, her voice shaking with emotion. “And a huge heart. Don’t ever doubt it. You have a superhero heart,” she said fiercely.

  He shook his head. “I’m not a superhero, Maddie, not even close. I’m just a guy, with flaws. Lots of them. I do the restoration and the furniture making because I love it, but neither is all that profitable.”

  “But you have that big, beautiful house. How could you…” She paused. “Your father,” she breathed.

  “No. No,” he said firmly. “Not my father. I’m good with investments.”

  She searched his face. “This bothers you,” she said.

  He shook his head, unable to put it into words. He’d tried to give back some of what he felt he’d taken by his years at the firm, but instead he’d profited.

  “You know, you’re standing right here,” she said softly. “And yet I feel like you’re far away. You hold back so much. Do you do it on purpose?”

  “Yes. I’ve done it on purpose for so long I’m not sure how to do it any differently. You know me, Maddie. You know what I do, where I like to go—”

  “I know that about a lot of people, Jax. I know that about Lucille, about Lance. Hell, I know that much about Anderson.” She poked him in the chest. “I want to know more about you. I want—” She was toe to toe with him, getting mad, standing up to him.

  She wasn’t afraid of him. She was in his face, holding her ground, and he’d never been more proud of her. “You know more,” he said quietly. “You know my friends, and that I have a screwed-up relationship with my father. You know I drive a beat-up old Jeep so that my big lazy dog can ride with me wherever I go. You know that I don’t pick up my clothes and that I like to run on the beach.”

  She made a soft noise, and he stepped closer and brushed his hand over her throat, where, to his chagrin, she had whisker burn. “You know how much I like to touch you.”

  Her eyes drifted shut. “And I like all those things about you,” she admitted. “Especially the last…” A soft sigh escaped her, and she met his gaze. “But you’re still hiding—I can feel it. What are you hiding, Jax?”

  With a long breath, he took her hand. “Telling you would involve breaking a promise. I can’t do that.”

  “Because of what happened to you when you were a lawyer?”

  “Nothing happened to me,” he corrected, voice rough with the memory.

  She slid a hand up his stomach to his chest, holding it over his heart. “You were trying to help her, Jax. You didn’t know what she’d do. You couldn’t have known.”

  “I failed her.” He closed his eyes, then opened them again. “And now here I am, back between the rock and a hard place.”

  “I don’t understand.”

  “I know you don’t.” He looked into her face, so focused on him, so intent, and drew a deep breath. “Your loan on the inn. I know who holds the note. I know that if you’d make contact, your refinancing would be approved.”

  Her brow furrowed. “You can’t know that for a fact.”

  “I do. I know it for a fact. I’ve tried to get you to look into it, but—”

  “Oh, my God.” Her mouth dropped open, and she stepped back from him. “It’s you. You hold the note.”

  He reached for her, but she slapped his hands away. “No. No,” she repeated, her chest rising and falling quickly. “Is it you?”

  “Yes.”

  She stared at him. “Why didn’t you tell me? All those times we talked about it—”

  “And every single time, I tried to steer you—”

  “You tried to steer me. You tried to steer me.” Her eyes were filled with disbelief. “I’m not a sheep, Jax. I was lost and stressed and overwhelmed and freaked out, and you… you had the answer all along.”

  “I was trying to protect the here and now, and also you. I wanted you to refinance. With me. But your stubborn-ass pride would have reached up and choked you if you thought you were accepting anything from me that you didn’t earn. I knew that unless it was your idea, you’d go running hard and fast.”

  She shook her head. “So you kept it from me to be noble?”

  He grimaced, swiping a hand down his face. “Yes, but in hindsight, it sounded a lot better in my head.”

  Rolling her eyes, she turned away from him, then whipped back. “And the trust outlined in Phoebe’s will. You know all about the trust, too?”

  He wished she would just kill him dead and be done with it. “Yes.”

  “Is it you? Did she leave the trust to you?”

  “No.”

  “Then—”

  “I can’t tell you.”

  “You mean you won’t.”

  “That, too.”

  She jerked at his answer as if he’d slapped her, and she pretty much sliced open his heart at the same time.