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He thought about it. “I don’t know what you’re trying to get at.”

“Aimee didn’t know her limits. She would try everything. She wanted to go on that high slide. There was a big ladder. She was too young for it. Or at least that’s what I thought. She was my first child. I was so afraid all the time. But I couldn’t stop her. So I let her climb the ladder, but I would stay right behind her, remember? You made a crack about it.”

He nodded.

“Before she was born, I swore I’d never be one of those overprotective parents. Swore it. But Aimee is climbing up this ladder and I’m right behind her, my hands poised behind her butt. Just in case. Just in case she slipped because wherever you are, even someplace as innocent as a playground, all a parent imagines is the worst. I kept picturing her tiny foot missing a step. I kept seeing her fingers slipping off those rails and her little body tipping back and then she’d land on her head wrong and her neck would be at a bad angle . . .”

Her voice faded away.

“So I stayed behind her. And I was ready for anything.”

Claire stopped and stared at him.

“I’d never hurt her,” Myron said.

“I know,” she said softly.

He should have felt relief at that. He didn’t. There was something in her tone, something that kept him on the hook.

“You wouldn’t harm her, I know that.” Her eyes flared up. “But you’re not blameless either.”

He had no idea what to say to that.

“Why aren’t you married?” she asked.

“What the hell does that have to do with anything?”

“You’re one of the nicest, sweetest men I know. You love kids. You’re straight. So why aren’t you married yet?”

Myron held back. Claire was in shock, he told himself. Her daughter was missing. She was just lashing out.

“I think it’s because you bring destruction, Myron. Wherever you go, people get hurt. I think that’s why you’ve never been married.”

“You think—what?—that I’m cursed?”

“No, nothing like that. But my little girl is gone.” Her voice was slow now, one weighted word at a time. “You were the last to see her. You promised that you would protect her.”

He just stood there.

“You could have told me,” she said.

“I promised—”

“Don’t,” she said, holding up her hand. “That’s no excuse. Aimee wouldn’t have ever known. You could have pulled me aside and said, ‘Look, I told Aimee that she could call me if she had a problem.’ I’d have understood that. I’d have even liked it, because then I would have still been there for her, like with the ladder. I would have been able to protect her because that’s what a parent does. A parent, Myron, not a family friend.”

He wanted to defend himself, but the arguments wouldn’t come.

“But you didn’t do that,” she went on, her words raining down on him. “Instead you promised that you wouldn’t tell her parents. Then you drove her somewhere and dropped her off, but you didn’t watch out for her like I would have. Do you understand that? You didn’t take care of my baby. And now she’s gone.”

He said nothing.

“What are you going to do about that?” she asked.

“What?”

“I asked you what you’re going to do about it.”

He opened his mouth, closed it, tried again. “I don’t know.”

“Yeah, you do.” Suddenly Claire’s eyes seemed focused and clear. “The police are going to do one of two things. I can see it already. They’re backing away. Aimee took money out of an ATM machine before she called you. So they’re either going to dismiss her as a runaway or they’re going to think you were involved. Or both. You helped her run maybe. You’re her boyfriend. Either way, she’s eighteen. They’re not going to look hard. They’re not going to find her. They’ll have other priorities.”

“What do you want me to do?”

“Find her.”

“I don’t save people. You yourself pointed that out.”

“Then you better start now. My daughter is gone because of you. I hold you accountable.”

Myron shook his head. But she was having none of it.

“You made her promise. Right here in this house. You made her promise. Now you do the same, dammit. Promise me you’ll find my baby. Promise me you’ll bring her home.”

And a moment later—the truly final what-if?—Myron did.

CHAPTER 19

Ali Wilder had finally stopped thinking long enough about Myron’s impending visit to call her editor, a man she generously referred to as Caligula.

“I just don’t get this paragraph, Ali.”

She bit back a sigh. “What about it, Craig?” Craig was the name her editor used when he introduced himself, but Ali was sure his real name was Caligula.

Before 9/11, Ali had a solid job with a major magazine in the city. After Kevin’s death, there was no way she could keep it. Erin and Jack needed her home. She took a sabbatical and then became a freelance journalist, mostly writing for magazines. At first, everyone offered her jobs. She refused them out of what she now saw as stupid pride. She hated getting the “pity” assignments. She felt above it. She now regretted that.

Caligula cleared his throat, making a production about it, and read her paragraph out loud: “The closest town is Pahrump. Picture Pahrump, rhymes with dump, as what’s left on the road if a buzzard ate Las Vegas and spit out the bad parts. Tackiness as art form. A bordello is made to look like a White Castle restaurant, which seems like a bad pun. Signs with giant cowboys compete with signs for fireworks stores, casinos, trailer parks, and beef jerky. All the cheese is American singles.”

After a meaningful pause, Caligula said, “Let’s start with the last line.”

“Uh-huh.”

“You say that the only cheese in the town is American singles?”

“Yes,” Ali said.

“Are you sure?”

“Pardon me?”

“I mean, did you go to the supermarket?”

“No.” Ali started gnawing on a fingernail. “It’s not a statement of fact. I’m trying to give you a feel for the town.”

“By writing untruths?”

Ali knew where this was going. She waited. Caligula did not disappoint.

“How do you know, Ali, they don’t have some other kind of cheese in this town? Did you check all the supermarket shelves? And even if you did, did you consider the fact that maybe someone shops in a neighboring town and brings other cheese into Pahrump? Or that maybe they order by mail service? Do you understand what I’m saying?”

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