Leaning back in the chair, Kacey bit her lip as she waited. The news of her pregnancy came as a shock, it really did. And while this was both something she and Jordie wanted, it felt almost too good to be true. As most of their whirlwind romance had been. Biting hard on her lip, she couldn’t imagine losing this baby. It would devastate both of them, and what if it made him relapse? Closing her eyes, she prayed that wouldn’t happen, and then she scolded herself for thinking it at all. This was her second chance. She had a man who loved her, and they wanted this.

It would be fine.

“Kacey King?”

Hearing her name, she shot up, her hand hitting her thigh from where Lacey was still holding it as she sat waiting. Standing up, Lacey shot her a grin and squeezed her hand.

“It’s okay.”

No, it wasn’t.

But not even ten minutes later, her new doctor, Dr. Richards, said, “Yay, we’re having a baby!”

It took her a minute to get over how hot her doctor was before she realized that he had confirmed what she already knew. Lacey looked over at her and smiled happily as Kacey slowly nodded her head.

“But I have an IUD in.”

His brow quirked as he looked down at her records, and then he shook his head. “In my paperwork, you don’t.”

“Excuse me?”

He smiled. “Yeah, they said they removed it after your miscarriage, and you would come in at a later time to have it put back in.”

Holy shit. She hadn’t had an IUD in for this long and didn’t even know it? Wait, oh shit, she didn’t. She had started practicing for the Olympics with the rest of Team USA and forgot to go back. Crap on a cracker! Thank God, she never had sex with anyone! As she stared into Dr. Richards’s sky blue eyes, she almost couldn’t believe it. Was this a sign from God? Did she not have sex with anyone because she was supposed to be with Jordie? He was supposed to get her pregnant, and then they’d live happily ever after?

Why was that all too hard to believe?

“But I’ll check to make sure,” he said, sitting on his stool before sliding between her legs. “Lie back and be calm.”

“I’m pregnant,” she said slowly as his hands moved between her legs. She always felt dirty during her visit with the OB-GYN, but today, she wasn’t even worried about him. “Really pregnant?

“Yup! That means that Mena and the new baby will only be a year apart. They’ll be best friends! Hopefully, you’ll have a girl,” Lacey cheered and Kacey’s head fell to the side to look at her. Tears welled up in her eyes as the doctor stood back up, taking his gloves off.

“No IUD and everything looks good,” he said, flashing her his pearly whites.

“But I had a miscarriage before,” she said softly as she sat up, her eyes holding his.

He nodded. “And we’ll monitor you through the first trimester. I want you to come in every four weeks for ultrasounds, and if you start bleeding, please go to the ER. Yeah, it could happen again, but let’s be positive and hope not, okay?”

She bit down on her lip and nodded, her tears spilling over onto her cheeks. “There is no way to tell one way or another, right?”

He shook his head, his grin gone, a sullen look on his face. “I’m sorry. No.”

She nodded again, wiping her face. “Okay, so we’ll stay positive.”

Patting her knee, he smiled. “Exactly. See you in four weeks. Call if you have any questions.”

She hadn’t realized she said bye until the door shut and Lacey came to her side. “It’s gonna be great, no worries,” she said, smiling at Kacey extra hard. But not even Kacey could be that optimistic.

“Yeah. I hope.”

“So I saw all these supercute ideas for telling a spouse you are pregnant. We should so do one of them for Jordie. He’d love that. Are you gonna wait to tell the family until you reach the second trimester? Just in case, not saying that you should, but just in case. But I doubt you’ll have to worry about it,” she said, waving her off as she handed her her jeans.

Kacey’s heart started pounding, her chest seizing up and everything began to spin. The thought of telling everyone and them getting excited, only for her to lose it, was a heart-shattering thought. Her mother would cry for days, not only because it would be a sad situation of what-ifs but because she knew how much Kacey wanted a family. Her dad would act weird around her and act as if he couldn’t pick on her, which was very unacceptable. She’d want everyone to act the same, but she knew they wouldn’t. Not even Lacey and Karson. They wouldn’t know how to handle it. That was the light at the end of the tunnel from her first miscarriage. No one knew. Only she did, and while it wasn’t okay and she’d wanted Jordie to be there for her, she was glad that no one had had to share her pain.

And she knew she had to do it that way again.

“I’m not telling anyone,” she said, her jeans loose in her hands, her thong laying on top of them. “You can’t say anything,” she demanded, and Lacey nodded quickly.

“Not a soul.”

“Not even Mena.”

She made a face. “That’s not fair. She can’t talk.”

“I know that, but everyone is always at your house. I don’t need anyone overhearing you.”

She shrugged, and Kacey could tell she didn’t like it, but she’d do it. “Fine, put your jeans on and let me show you these things on Pinterest. I’m sure Jordie will get a kick out of it. Oh! You should go order his favorite cupcakes and have Audrey spell out on them, ‘You’re gonna be a daddy!’ He’d totally eat that up. Literally.”