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"That went a long way toward solving the problem. She didn't care so much what I ate as long as I ate a lot of it. She buried me in salads. I ate them for the next three years. There were times when I had to look in the mirror to make sure my nose wasn't wriggling."


"So what happened about the Coach?" Eddie asked. "did you go out for track?" He touched his aspirator, as if the thought of running had reminded him of it.


"Oh yeah, I went out," Ben said. "The two-twenty and the four-forty. By then I'd lost seventy pounds and I'd sprung up two inches so that what was left was better distributed. On the first day of trials I won the two-twenty by six lengths and the four-forty by eight. Then I went over to Coach, who looked mad enough to chew nails and spit out staples, and I said: "Looks like it's time you got out on the circuit and started picking corn. When are you heading down Kansas way?"


"He didn't say a thing at first-just swung a roundhouse and knocked me flat on my back. Then he told me to get off the field. Said he didn't want a smartmouth bastard like me on his track team.


"I wouldn't be on it if President Kennedy appointed me to it," I said, wiping blood out of the corner of my mouth. "And since you got me going I won't hold you to it... but the next time you sit down to a big plate of corn on the cob, spare me a thought."


"He told me if I didn't get out right then he was going to beat the living crap out of me." Ben was smiling a little... but there was nothing very pleasant about that smile, certainly nothing nostalgic. "Those were his exact words. Everyone was watching us, including the kids I'd beaten. They looked pretty embarrassed. So I just said, "I'll tell you what, Coach. You get one free, on account of you're a sore loser but too old to learn any better now. But you put one more on me and I'll try to see to it that you lose your job. I'm not sure I can do it, but I can make a good try. I lost the weight so I could have a little dignity and a little peace. Those are things worth fighting for."


Bill said, "All of that sounds wonderful, Ben... but the writer in me wonders if any kid ever really talked like that."


Ben nodded, still smiling that peculiar smile. "I doubt if any kid who hadn't


been through the things we went through ever did," he said. "But I said them


... and I meant them.'


Bill thought about this and then nodded. "All right."


"The Coach stood back with his hands on the hips of his sweat-pants," Ben said. "He opened his mouth and then he closed it again. Nobody said anything. I walked off, and that was the last I had to do with Coach Woodleigh. When my home-room teacher handed me my course sheet for my junior year, someone had typed the word excused next to phys. ed. and he'd initialed it."


"You beat him!" Richie exclaimed, and shook his clenched hands over his head. "Way to go, Ben!"


Ben shrugged. "I think what I did was beat part of myself. Coach got me going, I guess... but it was thinking of you guys that made me really believe that I could do it. And I did do it."


Ben shrugged charmingly, but Bill believed he could see fine drops of sweat at his hairline. "End of True Confessions. Except I sure could use another beer. Talking's thirsty work."


Mike signalled the waitress.


All six of them ended up ordering another round, and they talked of light matters until the drinks came. Bill looked into his beer, watching the way the bubbles crawled up the sides of the glass. He was both amused and appalled to realize he was hoping someone else would begin to story about the years between-that Beverly would tell them about the wonderful man she had married (even if he was boring, as most wonderful men were), or that Richie Tozier would begin to expound on Funny Incidents in the Broadcasting Studio, or that Eddie Kaspbrak would tell them what Teddy Kennedy was really like, how much Robert Redford tipped... or maybe offer some insights into why Ben had been able to give up the extra pounds while he had needed to hang onto his aspirator.


The fact is, Bill thought, Mike is going to start talking any minute now, and I'm not sure I want to hear what he has to say. The fact is, my heart is beating just a little too fast and my hands are just a little too cold. The fact is, I'm just about twenty-five years too old to be this scared. We all are. So say something, someone. Let's talk of careers and spouses and what it's like to look at your old playmates and realize that you've taken a few really good shots in the nose from time itself. Let's talk about sex, baseball, the price of gas, the future of the Warsaw Pact nations. Anything but what we came here to talk about. So say something, some body.


Someone did. Eddie Kaspbrak did. But it was not what Teddy Kennedy was really like or how much Redford tipped or even why he had found it necessary to keep what Richie had sometimes called "Eddie's lung-sucker" in the old days. He asked Mike when Stan Uris had died.


"The night before last. When I made the calls."


"Did it have to do with... with why we're here?"


"I could beg the question and say that, since he didn't leave a note, no one can know for sure," Mike answered, "but since it happened almost immediately after I called him, I think the assumption is safe enough."


"He killed himself, didn't he?" Beverly said dully. "Oh God-poor Stan."


The others were looking at Mike, who finished his drink and said: "He committed suicide, yes. Apparently went up to the bathroom shortly after I called him, drew a bath, got into it, and cut his wrists."


Bill looked down the table, which seemed suddenly lined with shocked, pale faces-no bodies, only those faces, like white circles. Like white balloons, moon balloons, tethered here by an old promise that should have long since lapsed.


"How did you find out?" Richie asked. "Was it carried in the papers up here?"


"No. For some time now I've subscribed to the newspapers of those towns closest to all of you. I have kept tabs over the years."


"I Spy." Richie's face was sour. "Thanks, Mike."


"It was my job," Mike said simply.


"Poor Stan," Beverly repeated. She seemed stunned, unable to cope with the news. "But he was so brave back then. So... determined."


"People change," Eddie said.


"-do they?" Bill asked. "stan was-" He moved his hands on the tablecloth, trying to catch the right words. "He was an ordered person. The kind of person who has to have his books divided up into fiction and nonfiction on his shelves... and then wants to have each section in alphabetical order. I can remember something he said once-I don't remember where we were or what we were doing, at least not yet, but I think it was toward the end of things. He said he could stand to be scared, but he hated being dirty. That seemed to me the essence of Stan. Maybe it was just too much, when Mike called. He saw his choices as being only two: stay alive and get dirty or die clean. Maybe people really don't change as much as we think. Maybe they just... maybe they just stiffen-up.'


There was a moment of silence and then Richie said, "All right, Mike. What's happening in Derry? Tell us."


"I can tell you some," Mike said. "I can tell you, for instance, what's happening now-and I can tell you some things about yourselves. But I can't tell you everything that happened back in the summer of 1958, and I don't believe I'll ever have to. Eventually you'll remember it for yourselves. And I think if I told you too much before your minds were ready to remember, what happened to Stan-"


"Might happen to us?" Ben asked quietly.


Mike nodded. "Yes. That's exactly what I'm afraid of."


Bill said: "Then tell us what you can, Mike."


"All right," he said. "I will."


4


THE LOSERS GET THE SCOOP


"The murders have started again," Mike said flatly.


He looked up and down the table, and then his eyes fixed on Bill's.


The first of the "new murders"-if you'll allow me that rather grisly conceit-began on the Main Street Bridge and ended underneath it. The victim was a gay and rather childlike man named Adrian Mellon. He had a bad case of asthma."


Eddie's hand stole out and touched the side of his aspirator.


"It happened last summer on July 21st, the last night of the Canal Days Festival, which was a kind of celebration, a... a..."


"A Derry ritual," Bill said in a low voice. His long fingers were slowly massaging his temples, and it was not hard to guess he was thinking about his brother George... George, who had almost certainly opened the way the last time this had happened.


"A ritual," Mike said quietly. "Yes."


He told them the story of what had happened to Adrian Mellon quickly, watching with no pleasure as their eyes got bigger and bigger. He told them what the News had reported and what it had not... the latter including the testimony of Don Hagarty and Christopher Unwin about a certain clown which had been under the bridge like the troll in the fabled story of yore, a clown which had looked like a cross between Ronald McDonald and Bozo, according to Hagarty.


"It was him," Ben said in a sick hoarse voice. "It was tHat fucker Penny-


wise."


"There's one other thing," Mike said, looking at Bill. "One of the investigating officers-the one who actually pulled Adrian Mellon out of the Canal-was a town cop named Harold Gardener."


"Oh Jesus Christ," Bill said in a weak teary voice.


"Bill?" Beverly looked at him, then put a hand on his arm. Her voice was full of startled concern. "Bill, what's wrong?"


"Harold would have been about five then," Bill said. His stunned eyes searched Mike's face for confirmation.


"Yes."


"What is it, Bill?" Richie asked.


"H-H-Harold Gardener was the s-son of Dave Gardener," Bill said. "dave lived down the street from us back then, when George was k-killed. He was the one who got to Juh juh... to my brother first and brought him up to the house, wrapped in a piece of qu-quilt."


They sat silently, saying nothing. Beverly put a hand briefly over her eyes.


"It all fits rather too well, doesn't it?" Mike said finally.


"Yes," Bill said in a low voice. "It fits, all right."


"I'd kept tabs on the six of you over the years, as I said," Mike went on, "but it wasn't until then that I began to understand just why I had been doing it, that it had a real and concrete purpose. Still, I held off, waiting to see how things would develop. You see, I felt that I had to be absolutely sure before I... disturbed your lives. Not ninety percent, not even ninety-five percent. One hundred was all that would do it.


"In December of last year, an eight-year-old boy named Steven Johnson was found dead in Memorial Park. Like Adrian Mellon, he had been badly mutilated just before or just after his death, but he looked as if he could have died of just plain fright."


"Sexually assaulted?" Eddie asked.


"No. Just plain mutilated."


"How many in all?" Eddie asked, not looking as if he really wanted to know.


'It's bad," Mike said.


"How many?" Bill repeated.


"Nine. So far."


"It can't be!" Beverly cried. "I would have read about it in the paper... seen it on the news! When that crazy cop killed all those women in Castle Rock, Maine... and those children that were murdered in Atlanta..."


"Yes, that," Mike said. "I've thought about that a lot. It's really the closest correlative to what's going on here, and Bev's right: that really was coast-to-coast news. In some ways, the Atlanta comparison is the thing about all of this that frightens me the most. The murder of nine children... we should have TV news correspondents here, and phony psychics, and reporters from The Atlantic Monthly and Rolling Stone... the whole media circus, in short."


"But it hasn't happened," Bill said.


"No," Mike answered, "it hasn't. Oh, there was a Sunday-supplement piece about it in the Portland Sunday Telegram, and another one in the Boston Globe after the last two. A Boston-based television program called Good Day! did a segment this February on unsolved murders, and one of the experts mentioned the Derry murders, but only passingly... and he certainly gave no indication of knowing there had been a similar batch of murders in 1957-58, and another in 1929-30.


"There are some ostensible reasons, of course. Atlanta, New York, Chicago, Detroit... those are big media towns, and in big media towns when something happens it makes a bang. There isn't a single TV or radio station in Derry, unless you count the little FM the English and Speech Department runs up at the high school. Bangor's got the corner on the market when it comes to the media."


"Except for the Derry News," Eddie said, and they all laughed.


"But we all know that doesn't really cut it with the way the world is today. The communication web is there, and at some point the story should have broken nationally. But it didn't. And I think the reason is just this: It doesn't want it to."


"It," Bill mused, almost to himself.


"It," Mike agreed. "If we have to call It something, it might as well be what we used to call It. I've begun to think, you see, that It has been here so long whatever It really is... that It's become a part of Derry, something as much a part of the town as the Standpipe, or the Canal, or Bassey Park, or the library. Only It's not a matter of outward geography, you understand. Maybe that was true once, but now It's... inside. Somehow It's gotten inside. That's the only way I know to understand all of the terrible things that have happened here-the nominally explicable as well as the utterly inexplicable! There was a fire at a Negro nightclub called the Black Spot in 1930. A year before that, a bunch of half-bright Depression outlaws was gunned down on Canal Street in the middle of the afternoon."


"The Bradley Gang," Bill said. "The FBI got them, right?"


"That's what the histories say, but that's not precisely true. So far as I've been able to find out-and I'd give a lot to believe that it wasn't so, because I love this town-the Bradley Gang, all seven of them, were actually gunned down by the good citizens of Derry. I'll tell you about it sometime.


"There was the explosion at the Kitchener Ironworks during an Easter-egg hunt in 1906. There was a horrible series of animal mutilations that same year that was finally traced to Andrew Rhulin, the grand-uncle of the man who now runs the Rhulin Farms. He was apparently bludgeoned to death by the three deputies who were supposed to bring him in. None of the deputies were ever brought to trial."

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